Amy's Blog
My Life..random stuff
So, it's summertime now... Kids are home with me while I work. They are doing really well... except they are totally electronics freaks... on their computer or DS or watching TV all day. I try to take them out at least twice a week... to get away... to a pool or store or something "fun". we do one "fun" thing a week... that's all we can afford. That stuff gets expensive!!!! We went ice skating yesterday; we brought Trinity's best friend along. That itself went well, it was the rest of teh day/night/next day that has me all flustered. But that's not what I"m going to write about.
So, I look out my window at the world outside and see things are totally spinning out of control. I have several friends in very unhappy and unhealthy marriages. They come to me to talk. I seem to have this gift of a good ear and wise words. I actually researched going back to school... I want to become a MArriage and Family therapist. But... after all my research, I learned that I would not make that much more than I'm making right now... to stay at home. So... it woudln't be worth the expense of schooling... so I am not going to do that.
I am happy. Well, sorta. AFter 10 years, I have weaned myself off my antidepressants. I've done pretty well, but I feel a bit "funky" right now. My patience level is slim to none... I'm still tired... and all the things my husband was hoping would "be fixed" once I got off the meds have not been fixed. Yet.
I got on weight watchers. I lost 7 lbs. I've started walking in the evenings. I feel alot better when I walk. It's nice to get out and get away. It's no fun limiting my food and alcohol intake, but, I'm surviving. I want to lose another 8 lbs, but... I also want to enjoy my life. :-) I have always looked like this... why do I want to change it? I know why... because Thomas got a new nice DSLR camera and I've seen some of my pics ....
so, it's really really hot outside... the kids are complaining because they are bored... yet if I try to give them something to do (like empty the dishwasher or fold some laundry) they decide that isnt' what they had in mind. Sprinklers and "Slip & Slides" don't cut it anymore. That's my own fault, I'm sure. I've given them too much... so little things don't work anymore.
Thomas has bad knees. This is due to his motorcycling days when he was young. He wrecked enough times that he wrecked his knees. He had ACL reconstruction on his right knee 10 years ago. A few weeeks ago he just turned wrong and totally hurt his knee. He was out of commission for almost a week. He was a BEAR that week. He's self employed. If he doesn't work, we don't have money. Well, we have MY paycheck, thankfully... but...
so while it's not hurting him that much anymore, he knows it's just a "wrong turn" away from screaming at him again, so he's very careful. In his line of work, he must go up and down ladders many times a day... crawl around in attics, things like that. His Dr told him to consider moving to a sit down job. Thomas is NOT a sit down kind of guy. So, he's just working it out. He's going up and down ladders one leg at a time. He wants to have the surgery to clean out the "neophytes" that are floating around in there.. but that's around $10,000. We don't have insurance, and we surely don't have $10,000 lying around. We hope to move in the next 12 months, so he doesn't want to incur any more debt. ..
Yeah... we want to move. I want to be somewhere where I can have my horses with me. He wants a 3 car garage. his father in law has his house on the market down on the coast... and when he sells it, he's giving us the money to buy a piece of property and get started on a new home... where he will live with us. Not in the same house, but on the property. So that's exciting, it just seems like the world is against us... the economy is against us.
Then you have NOrth Korea. Who knows what's going to happen with all that. Me thinking about what to do next week with the kids and our dream of a new home and Thomas's knee really doesn't matter much when you look at what is going on outside in the world. I'm gonna have to really sit down and pray about that one. I haven't done that yet.
Well, I have to get to work now. That was, I'm sure, a boring read. but hey, that's my life, my thoughts as they come to me. :-)
May the Lord bless you and keep you, and make His face to shine upon you... and be gracious to you, and give you His peace. ~Numbers
you probably would make a good counselor or therapist... and if you feel like you might like to do that, you should give it a try, whether it'd make you lots of money or not. Who knows, if you do that, you could even write a book about it and the money could come there. The benefit may not be so much the money you make but the impact you make on others.
Either way, God loves you and I do too! I may have to come some day and go walking with you. The Lord knows I need it, too. :)
you're not alone sweetie ...not at all. i know you already do this: just keep the Faith!! *hugs!*, Peace and Blessings ~ rae