About me: May 16th 2007
I was at work today. I felt like shit. I really do want to kill myself as soon as possible. No one will ever know who I am. No one will care. I really have tried to give it my best but all that seems to happen is I get rejected more and more. It takes it toll on me. With my 30th birthday getting closer and closer I feel a sense of impending doom.
I am a 29 year old loser who has never had a girlfriend in my life. I made this profile as to not upset my "friends" here in Japan.
I will kill myself very soon as I approach my 30th birthday. How pathetic is it to be 30 years old and to have never had a girlfriend before?
Pretty fucking pathetic.
I have tried very hard to get a girlfriend. I'm not like my other friends who go out and fuck anything just to have sex. I'm not like that. I just want to meet someone that likes me and wants to spend time with me. I've been alone and single for so long that it's going to kill me.
No one seems to care here. People always regard me as the "just a friend" type. I don't think anyone would actually miss me. So why did I do this? Why did I put a profile on myspace? I did it because I want someone to know what happened to me and why I ended my life. I don't want to tell the people around me what's going on. When I do it, I won't do it at my house or anywhere public. I will go up into the mountains and do it. That's the only way.
