kelly's Blog

Current mood:contemplative

It's been about a week and a half, and I have been looking at the world with new eyes, so to speak.  For those of you that know me, you know my story and why getting contacts was such a God-given miracle.  People have asked, "What did you do different?" and I can't answer it.  I didn't "want it more" - I have always "wanted" to be able to wear them, but couldn't.

Why is this such a big deal?  Let me tell you.  Walking in the rain is different.  Showering is different.  I don't see fog when I open the dishwasher.  I can take a nap and lay on my side without waking up to either broken glasses or a pain in my temple from the bar on the glasses.

Does this make me vain to be so happy about getting rid of my "extra" eyes?  I remember being a child in elementary school and shoving my glasses into my pocket as the class left for lunch.  As long as I did well in school (I wore them during class, of course), Mom would never know I didn't wear them in front of my friends....until they broke every other month, of course.

I've performed in hundreds of dance routines and theatre events, and I have never seen an audience.  I've never seen my parents cheer me on, never seen a proud coach, or even a best friend or boyfriend make it to the performance on time.  If they weren't there, I didn't know.  And they never told me different.

Going out in college would have been different, too.  I've never seen everyone at a party, never saw my entire chapter when I stood before them as their President.  What would I have done differently?  What would I have seen?

So here's the question.  What have I missed by not being able to see?  It's like the question, if you knew you could find out how you were going to die, would you want to know?  Ok, not completely the same thing, but who knows what I've missed by not seeing the world with clear vision.

So, thank you.  Thank you to those of you that loved me long before I bought cute Chanel glasses, and even longer before I - thanks to God - conquered contacts.  I see you now even brighter than I ever did before.

Love you all,

Kelly