Current mood:
hopeful
In traditional Samantha-fashion, I like to pull things apart and examine them in a list for myself and for my friends. This way I can look at things one step at a time and ask for the support of my loved ones.
1) Work: Yes, I got promoted. SWEEEET. And yes I quit that pile of pooooop other job. (Because if one more 12-year-old complained to me about the state of her bosoms I was gonna lose it. "If you don't have any by the time your 16, you're probably good at sports which is more than you can say about me...Thank God for the rack!") It's gonna be a challenge since I'm notorious for being a total flake, but my good friends have faith in me and I have faith in God. So whether this job was meant to be a boon or a learning experience, we'll soon find out. But I appreciate those who told me I was gonna make it...that and Madonna songs that also told me I was gonna make it.
2) School: As we all know, school is expensive. Slipping by financially with community college is almost over as I'm trying to get into a school in Seattle, come to find I won't get by all the red tape without a green belt. I have no idea how I'm gonna pay for school, and please don't suggest murder or student loans. They both end with me in jail. (Those loan sharks will find a way to beat the system once they find out I DON'T have the 100,000 I barrowed from them.) If I can't get into a school, I'm still running away to Seattle, you can bet on that. This is a dream I won't let go, so don't call it silly.
3) Life: Some things I've been concentrating on to get through these days of living and breathing:
-Smiling even if people don't smile back.
-Being genuine if it exposes yourself.
-Spending time alone with myself and God before I try to take on a full day.
So far, it's been a breath of fresh air and life has been wonderfully non-frustrating.
Love (Lone :P),
Samantha