whateverlife was here wl28
"Though I fall I will Rise, Though I dwell in Darkness. The Lord is a light for me. "
I am Shayna Cherie Ridings and I love Life, all its mystery.
Mystery is everything
Rain, Rain go away. Come again another day. All the world is waiting for the sun.
Come, gentle night; come, loving, black-browed night;
Give me my Romeo; and, when I shall die,
Take him and cut him out in little stars,
And he will make the face of heaven so fine
That all the world will be in love with night...
Romeo and Juliet Act III scene ii
I grew up in a small town called Humboldt. My mother instilled southern values in me. The fact that she was able to successful do that, still have them today is utterly flabbergasting. I feel I need to thank my parents for the future they never intended for me, some even in their final moments. I have overcome adversity, unlimited pain and hurt, to become a genuinely caring, loving human being despite all the trials I have had. I have learned to house a few regrets, life only progresses onward, so why harbor hatred and bitterness of the past? I will forever thank my biological parents dearly, even to this very day: for giving me a new path. One I had to crawl through, because every inch I crawled made me a just a little bit stronger.
I had never meant to love anyone. Love gives someone the power to break you.Love is irrational. The more you love somebody, the less anything makes sense.
Of course, everyone eventually goes through a rebellious streak; mine occurred soon after my graduation from high school. I realized slowly but surely you are who you chose to be. You are not defined ny your past or how others see you. Everyday is a new opportunity to become the person you set out to be. I have just now at 22 finally come into my own. I have grown so much in the last 12 months of my life. I thank each and every person who touched a cord in me, taught me about life,pain, gave me a glimpse of what I could be. All this time I was making such a desperate attempt to find myself, I was already found, just need a little help putting the pieces together.
Before you, my life was like a moonless night. Very dark, but there were stars -- points of light and reason. And then you shot across my sky like a meteor. Suddenly everything was on fire; there was brilliancy, there was beauty. When you were gone, when the meteor had fallen over the horizon, everything went black. Nothing had changed, but my eyes were blinded by the light. I couldn’t see the stars anymore. And there was no more reason for anything.*----Twilight.
I have learned through the years friendships, relationships, all take work. Just because some may not work out doesn't mean you can't still love and care about those involved. When you lose so many things you love in life, you learn to realize to hold on to those you can. Let them help you grow, and blossom. Hatred and anomisty, there seems to be so much of it these days. I will not add to the already piling heap.
“If I could dream at all, it would be about you.
And I’m not ashamed of it.”
Really, I'm just living my life. Learning the lessons as they come, taking what's given to me and creating something amazing. Im beginning to understand what I'm doing here, and what comes after the actions I take. Running with two of the best ppl a girl could ever ask for. Some may say my life is hectic, pointless, meaningless, too much for someone at this point in their life, but clearly I'm doing fine and I'm excelling at what I'm doing and where as you may crumble, I'll grow stronger and walk over you. I have a wide-open mind. Ppl say i am a modern day dreamer... Which to me means nothing other than that I have have created my own beautiful life. Its safe to say that I defy sterotypes.
