Brian

About me:

I hide my true feelings behind a funny guy mask so as to not offend anyone I’m around. I avoid real issues by making jokes. I fear commitment. I try to impress people with my wit, only to have it backfire because I’m not as intelligent as I would have you think. I spend way to much time feeling sorry for myself. I know who I am. I know what I’m about. Sometimes it goes along with the rules and sometimes not. What I am sure of is we all have to live with ourselves. There are days I wake up in the morning and feel disgusted because I have done so much wrong to so many people. Then there are days that I feel good because I’ve made it through so much adversity. The point is I am not going to ask anyone want they want me to be. Not anymore. If you think I’m a dick, well, that’s on you. I’ve spent a long time trying to please people only to have a delicate tower of lies come crashing down on everyone. You see I’ve always had this urge to be liked by everyone. I would lie cheat or steal to make them like me. Only they didn’t like me. They liked the lie. I am 35 years old. I have not done anything remarkable in my life. I am not proud of much of what I have done. The fact remains I am who I am. Love me or hate me. So if you’re reading this and have no clue as to what I am talking about then chances are we have probably never met. But if you get it, then you know. Maybe you were an asshole I felt needed to be dealt with. Maybe you were just a victim of my endless need to be loved. It doesn’t matter. I’m over it. And you should be too....