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I got the USB memory back, but that was last week. I think that I will go to the library even if there are a lot of people there, but the home exam shouldn't be turned in until Sunday. I don't like Moodle, we will post our posts there. I think that it would have been enough with the questions, but then we also should write in discussion forums. Well, I don't have one of the books, I hope it's in the reference section in the library.
I might buy that book, the one that I wrote about yesterday. I think a bit about that issue nowadays, even if I have thought enough about it. I should know when I have thought enough about an issue. At least I think about something else than the warning example and the Lord of the Rings. Why do I always have to think about an issue? Ok, I don't. A person told me to have a distance to the Middle East conflict when I thought about that. I have that now. -
Home exam
I have a home exam and it's kind of interesting, but I think that it would be enough to have three questions such as we have now and not to post several posts in discussion forums as well. I was in the university library but it was a lot of people there. I sat with my laptop at the newspapers, there are some chairs there. I'm at home now, though.
I was supposes to go with my friend to the Pilates class tonight, but I realized that I have to do laundry so I can't go. I will go to the Afro Dance tomorrow, it will be fun. I like it.
I might buy a book that is called The 9/11 hijackers: Perfect Soldiers: Who They Were, Why They Did It by Terry Mcdermott, it's not to my course but I think that it seems interesting. Those issues have interested me for a long time though. I started to care about it more in Spring 2009 because I watched United 93 on TV and I thought about it, especially one character who was one of the perpetrators.
I shouldn't stay up late and read emotional conversations. It made me laugh and then cry. I'm fine when I don't think about it. I'm fine though. But I'm moody, but that's for another reason. I don't know why I'm moody.
I will take a walk and then go to the grocery store. Then I have laundry; I was supposed to go with my friend to the Pilates class tonight, but I can't because I have laundry. -
How could I forget that?
Current mood:
bummedI wasn't happy when I visited my friend because I forgot my USB-memory at the university library yesterday, and no one has turned it in, which means that someone might have taken it. I had paand I realized that today. I had parts of my diary on the USB-memory, my story and my bachelor thesis. I don't want anyone to read my diary. I will never save a diary on a USB-memory.
I had written a lot about the warning example also, that is fine because I have written about it before. I wonder what the person who took my USB-memory think of me if that person reads my diary. It doesn't matter. I don't know if anyone took it, but I didn't see it in my apartment and not in my bag, and I know that I used it yesterday and where I might have left it. It wasn't there today. -
I wouldn't like it
I have thought about this issue, but haven't written about it for some time. I read in a book by Martin Svensson that is called Din heder. It's about a woman who had to leave her family because she was not allowed to live as she wants. There is a part about the book here. It's the culture of honour, an issue that I care a lot about, and I have cared about it for a long time.
I wouldn't like to live in a culture of honour, suppose that I would have to have the secular values that I have grown up with, and if I didn't, I would be a shame for my family.
Sometimes I have to think like that in order to understand because I didn't and don't want to do some things, even if I was and am allowed to.
Everyone from a culture doesn't have the same opinions, I know that well also.
But I can't agree with for example Meryem in this book, I think that she shouldn't be kicked out because of her values, but I never wanted to have those values, but I guess thatI have some of them because... I say that people shouldn't be kicked out because they marry someone that their parents don't like or so on, or have other values.
I try to imagine the honour thinking such as if it would have been in the culture that I have, in order to understand it, and if I do, I can imagine that it is tragic, since I would have had to have values that I don't have. Sometimes people who have lived in places where many people have this thinking, don't understand that people in a more liberal culture can chose to not do things even if they are allowed to do them. One person told me that I should adjust to my culture. But if I chose to not wear a tanktop or if I chose to not have a boyfriend, that is my choice and it doesn't affect my family. If people around me had this honour thinking, it would have affected my family, but now it doesn't.