SHE IS THE MOST INSPIRATIONAL PERSON IN MY LIFE

My name is Austin Shock. I am complicated, wierd, confusing, funny, scary, smart, crazy, but most importantly, I am me... I refuse to be average, normal, whatever you want to call it. I will never live up to anyone's standards, not because I can't, but because I choose not to. I will live up to my own standards thank you very much. I don't like messages, so please respect that. I am told I am a nice person... too nice... And that needs to change and has changed in the past few months. I've learned to stand up for myself and not take anyone's shit anymore. If u piss me off, you'll either know it, or ill just ignore your sorry ass. I am the kind of person who believes you can have more than one best friend... and mine would be; Mon Mon, Jordan, Victoria, Danny, Mike, Diane, and Beth. I have such a good, yet different connection with each of them, so it is really hard to put a label on them. I have been through a lot in the past year mainly, and it has shaped me in to a better person. Better than most of the people I used be acquainted with. I have learned to focus on myself rather than others first. I am the most important person in my life. You should be the most important person in your life. I never forgive people for anything, and I never say sorry. I think it's all so stupid because i will always hold grudges. I put up a wall between me and other people. I have learned to never trust anyone or let anyone in unless they've proven themselves with actions and also over a long period of time. I do what I want when I want and my parents have completely given up on me. I am very emotional, and things get to me very easily and I let them affect me forever. I am fun to be around and I'm the life in a group. I have yet to find anywhere that I feel like I fit in or feel comfortable. I don't like attention even though I attract it 24/7. I am very defensive and I always get ganged up on. Fuck with me???? Nowadays that's a very bad idea. Well that's somewhat my personality. I am currently attending the International Academy of Design and Technology in Schaumburg, IL. I am majoring in video and animation. Yes... that means I go to Woodfield Mall... a lot. I do whatever I can to avoid being at home. MY home life is definitely not the greatest in the world so it's best to avoid being in the house. I like to shop, eat, and drive around. I smoke cigs, and I fucking hate it. I am completely against the use of drugs... but me likely some drinks occasionally lolz... yes... I say LOLZ.... if it annoys you, then.... oh wait! I don't give a shit! I am very inspired by Lady GaGa, she is very abnormal and its great. Some people can creep me out... especially on here... Am I famous? Well you tell me... When people see me in public, it may seem so, but I don't understand it. I will add to this and update this as much as I can. If you want to know more about me, I want all of you to try to talk to me, especially if you're a cute boy or hot scene chick(only scene chicks in the girl category though please). And if you read this whole thing, thank you, and let me know....