Current mood:
depressed
Also, if a girl ever tells you "I was thinking" Or "I've been thinking" or some variation of that (EX: "I need space to think") That's code word for, leave me alone I don't want to talk/see you again. I'm sure many of you have found this out already the hard way, but this was my first relationship. I just wish instead of being told that they wanted to think about getting back together with me, I was just told that it wasn't going to happen. Instead of being dragged along thinking of the possibility of us getting back together. I just wonder if I would have ever found out about her feelings of moving on if I had never messaged her today. I doubt it. I'm sure it would have been weeks of me not hearing from her.
I think that she could have handled the situation much better instead of being immature about it and essentially dragging me along with the hope of us getting back together. I'm sure no one will read this, but that's okay. I might as well come clean about everything in our past.
Things I didn't do:
I never held her enough or kissed her enough (with tongue... but she smokes)
When we went to Disney World in early '08, we had a room with two beds, we would start out in the same bed but then I would move to the other because I was hot.
I never visited her friends
I hardly visited her house
I rarely visited her work
I would always sit accross the room from her while I was getting my bowl ready (she hated that)
Things I did do:
I called her everyday
I always invited her over to my house
I bought her flowers for valentine's day
Things she did:
Smoked
Peeled the skin around her fingernails
Always came over to my house
Visited me at work
Called me when I called
Looked through my phone at all my text messages for over 30 min while I was asleep in the other room
Bought me starbucks quite often (she works there)
Things she didn't do:
When she said she was going to do something, she wouldn't do it or would take a long time to do it.