Current mood:
contemplative
i have to do this. its been so log + ive wasted so many years.
theyve gone in the blink of an eye. in a breath.
i knew they would. i met others at the beginning + theirs too had elapsed by years.
here i am, 6 years on, still battling + i fear i will battle for the rest of my life.
i have no regrets, i dont belive in them , but now is the time.
ive tried + i cant + i want to , so bad.
all i need is a little time, to get behind this sun + cast my weight.
its do or die for me now. Im 26 + i have to get it back. i have to persevere.
i have to
Current mood:
melancholy
Im feeling melancholy because Im feeling mortal.
I struggle so much with people + that theyre filled with such passion + emotion + depth + that we love them+ we know each other
+ then gone.
a last breath + nobody remebers you or knows you existed.
and maybe thats the beauty of life- fleeting + transient + ever more precious.
but it hurts. + it panics me.
mortal me. i dont want to die + i dont want to fade to nothing, although death, i recognise is ethereal + beautiful + a release.
some people are dark. Im dark.
You know when youre truly dark when you want to live more than anything.
When i was growing up I d say i wanted to die + maybe i meant it.
but now Im older + i have to fight the dark corners of me , + I struggle for the light, all of the time.
momento mori
Current mood:
aroused
(see my favourite video's)
OMG!!-
i adorrrrre this song + this video.
He makes me feel weak.
David Bowie in this vid,
uh uh,
makes my coochie skip a beat.
i love the sexual tension betwee them as he's singing the 'oh baby , just u shut your mouth/ ssshhhhh' bit.
me poosy joocy...
thats rude isnt it?
Current mood:
ninja
how wkd a choon is this-
its actually my ringtone at the moment
shake your tambourine, go-on' get yourself a whistlin'
(see my favourite video's)
