Well it's all over, back to work tomorrow. Head down, bum up (hmmm, that sounds a little rude!) It's been good, from the housewarming to Geelong today, I have managed to keep myself pretty busy. Didn't get heaps done that I need to do, but hey that's life. High light is still the housewarming, Can't remember to much about it but I know I had fun. Golf night was a little sad, sitting there knowing I might not see alot of those people again. Marg Ryan you are a legend, A nicer person does not walk this earth!
Thanks to my buddies Jane and Glenda for sitting with me and making sure I had some fun.
Well bit stuffed from all that driving today, so better get off.
People walk in and out of your life. All make a difference. This week I have seen this more clearer than ever before. For the last 6 months I have talked cried and lent on so many soulders that I have lost count. It's not something that I ever thought I would allow myself to do. As many know I was always been known as the happy go lucky tuff girl. A wall which I never thought I would let down.
Letting people see you for who you are, your weakness and flaws is hard. To think that you can work everything out by yourself is a futile act, as we all at some stage need someone to lean on.
I have been lucky. Able to lean on alot of friends, both new and old. Each one offering their shoulder and a feeling of safety. Some of them now need a shoulder but will not take mine. This is where I get confused.
They walk in to my life when I need it and walk out when I want to be there for them.
The act of friendship is like anything, a 2 way street. What sort of friend am I, if in their time of need they feel they can't come to me?
I'm changing, I can see it, feel it, just don't know if I like it.
I know I am frustrated,so it's best not to be to judgemental of myself, but gee, I feel like I am loosing something. I just don't know what it is. The connection I use to have with so many people is growing a little thin, I feel like maybe they don't like this person I am becoming or can't understand it. People I use to put my trust in are no longer the ones I feel like talking too. Don't know how that happened, just did.
I'm thinking that with my growing independence, my need to turn to people is becoming less. So I guess this is a good thing, just feels a little weird.
I think it has been at least 9months since the Pickled sisters were together. The last one was awesome. I still have the video. Tonight however feeling slightly out of sorts it might have to be a little quieter.
4 very different women, Cheryl. tells it like it is, no punches pulled. Has had much to deal with in her own life, but is finally getting a handle on it. She is heart.
Debbie, The wise one. sits back and lets you ramble on for hours, taking everything in. She doesn't always have the answer to a problem but you know that she only wants the best for you. She is comfort.
Ros, At 5"2 she is a terrier. If you need defending she's the one. She is the questioner and will go into bat for you if she needs too. She is Strength.
Me, I don't know. You would have to ask them.
All I know is together, we are good for each other.
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what about lyn and sall they helped you party