Why?
I suppose there are several reasons, including:a lack of inspiration, desire, direction, purpose and generally questioning how much sense it made to continue investing time/money into a project that was going nowhere. I just have nothing left and need to move on to more realistic endeavors.
Honestly, I even got rid of my old notebooks that contained all my lyrics and everything. To be even more honest, I wasn't that good. While writing lyrics was all me, I couldn't sing them and while I played guitar, the riffs were copy-pasted in Pro Tools after being rewritten to be in a proper key and I never wrote any of my solos. I did play them though.
Going back to the part about having to have my song ideas rewritten to be in a key. Not disciplining myself from the beginning to learn how to properly play guitar by learning and understanding music theory and such. Since, I have learned that there are no shortcuts to anything in life and I only wound up cheating myself here.
Simply put: I wasn't that good and making music stopped being fun as a result.
I remember how much fun and exciting "Malice" was to record; the frustrating but challenging recording of "Anatomy of a Tragedy"; how reinvigorating "Scared No More" was; and how satisfying it was to hear the music to "Becoming Conscious" have words added and come to life.
(However, I can't listen to any of my own music anymore but especially "Becoming Conscious" since it was about the girl before my most recent Ex after it caused the "I want a song too" conversation. Funny enough it wound up being one of her favorite songs to listen to after our split.)
As one would expect, much has changed from 2007 to 2011: people change; dreams change; goals change. That's life. Really, I've become so detached from my own music that I don't advertise that I did or do play guitar on my personal Facebook page. Neither do I mention my music to people that I meet in day-to-day life. I'm done, that's the honest truth, and it's been that way for some time now.
This is it I guess, the final update. The title of this will say that I stopped making music in 2011 but I knew that "Becoming Conscious" was very likely to be the very last thing that I would write and record. Thanks to everyone who has supported me along the way.