Doey
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living dead girl seeks immortality
Female
25 years old
SEATTLE, WASHINGTON
United States
Last Login: 3/25/2005
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| General | reading,writing,dancing,cos play,anime,web desighn,internet,shopping for freaky unique clothes, running,push ups,immortality,the meaning of life, and if there is really a hell. | | Music | industrial techno,electric dance, emo,political punk, and stuff with meaningfull lyrics. | | Movies | Fight Club,Never Ending Story, The Saulten Sea, Most anything with Val Kilmer in it, boys don't cry, Nurse Witch Komugi, Akira, The ring the asian versian and American, 8o's teen movies, Afterschool specials turned into gut wrenching lifetime chanel movies,reqriem for a dream, the dark crystal, Mulan (Disney), Prince of Egypt (Disney), The original Mirmaid movie before the Disney one came out where the murmaid died at the end like Charals Dickens meant for it to die. I LOVED CRUEL INTENCIONS..... AND I loved the wrecked destoryed and evil girl that no one would love afterwords. I wanted to see the rest of her life. I wanted to see if she would have to leave town and become a runaway or a teen hooker that would someday be a a powerfull madam or if she would kill herself over the rejection (if she was the true character in the movie she would not have the empathy to kill herself over simple human rejection and would thrive in whatever enviroment she ended up in). Oh and a really creepy english movie where the main character robs,rapes, and does horrible crimes and of the horrible punishment he recieves instead of being imprisoned. | | Television | Cow boy bepop,traval chanal, old school anime, south park, prank calls, discovery chanel, history chanel, E chanel true stories, VH1 DECADE of music and culture tributes, Dead Wood, Entertainment weekly, documentaries on prostitution, prison, serial killers, consiracy's and so forth Yeah Tv is mostly junk but a person can sometimes gain a very solid education on the world if they turn to the right chanels and annalyze the shows as one would annalyze a book. | | Books | Junky by William Borroughs
1984 by Goerge Orwell
GOOD VRS. EVIL by Mark Twain (one of the shortest but most powerful stories ever written that was Mark Twains last works shedding light on the truth that that based on simple human decency the christian god is the punisher of men and in its less than 15-20 pages gave me a realization of why bad things happen in a world that is so bent on being good.
The Amitvill Horror (The book not the movie is the scariest true horror story I have ever read)
Many serial killing books by Ann Rule
THE VC ANDREWS series but I only truly enjoy the three novels written by the original author (Flowers in the Attic)
Confidential confessions on all the people that live such horrible degrading lifes....
The Happy Hooker
| | Heroes | Anyone who could be immortal as of this moment
Human rights activists who gave their lifes for the prusuit of humanity
As sad as this sounds Courtney Love because she proved that being a black widow could garantee a woman succsess beyond her wildest dreams. |
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anime addix group, ClubVibes Seattle, Capitol Hill, Seattle Ravers, Seattle Party People Network, The CLICK, SEATTLE TALENT, ++Gothic Lolita & Country Lolita++
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| Status: | Single | | Orientation: | Bi | | Hometown: | Seattle | | Body type: | 5' 4" / Slim / Slender | | Ethnicity: | White / Caucasian | | Zodiac Sign: | Aquarius | | Smoke / Drink: | No / No | | Children: | I don't want kids | | Education: | Some college | | Occupation: | adult buisness/public speaker | | Income: | $75,000 to $100,000 |
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About me:
I like to post nude photos of myself in places that represent my personality because thats a part of me I feel confortable with and I dont want to fucking get shit from people who will put lables on my libral outlook on nudity. I am very small, and I have little tits with a sort of a boyish frame so some people get wierded out when they see my photos expecially when I AM IN MY outfits. I dont care about the lable WHORE because as I have said in my live journal gothiclolita16 just like the black people are trying to take back the word nigger and use it as a term of endearment so am I the prostitute trying to take the word whore back and use it as a term of endearment.
I would love to look 13 forever but of course I would not want the mind of the normal 13 year old because I would not know my power. A woman with a wise mind or a person with one, knows how special the image of a little girl is. I would never do anything with kids under 18, I think thats sick and pointless but I would want to be the little girl people are always trying to take advantage of without knowing what shes pulling over on them.
At 16 I was a runaway street kid and looked 12 years old literally which got me strange forms of attencion though I always had the good sense to dodge right before something seriouse could have happened. I understand the minds of predators and thats why when I used to go out fishing for them, they would never fulling pull in the sinker: A predator needs to feel weaker than its victims and they need the victim to be nieve. A predator is fully aware of the type of girl that plays games to learn his or her art. They may desire to join forces with this type or just let them go not enjoying the power and exchange at all. I should have been raped, kidnapped, and even killed many times but I related to the predators to much despite being the image they lusted after.
The lolita is a powerful identity and it is more sacred than the one of the Pamela Anderson Play boy center fold or modern mature bueatey because it is something that currently belongs to only those who are in their extreme youth. Cosmetic sergery can erase wrinkles and make any decent woman look lke a blonde porn star but can it make her features turn the youth of pre development that being a young teenage girl? I am studying ways to keep myself looking very young. If I decide to grow older in apearence I will accept it, but its a very interesting study that goes beyond a simple vanity for me.
tHE CLOSER the facial features are on the human face, the younger the persons face looks. You can make the skin look flawless but if you do not have features close enough in distance maturity will reveal atleast a woman well into her mature twenties. You must also be able to give the faulse presentation of someone in their youth to achieve its power. I believe the power of sustaining youth is part of the current evolotion of certain beings.
Anywho, as you can see I cant stop writing. I type over 100 words a minaute which is why I have all these spelling mistakes and its kind of fun being a grammer whore. Writing is something that generates great life from me and I am currently discovering new ways of comunicating with people that are brand new possibilites to the human race.
I am not manic deppresive at all. In fact I try to be devoid of emotion as a realize that some its primitve lementings will outgrow within the next generations. I dont see things or hear things that arnt there unless I am astrally projecting on h or before I go to sleep, which is something that has a medical term: Livid Dreaming
When your the kind of crazy no one an define thats the funnest. Its the kind of crazy where you annalyze all the time and you believe you have more control than what society would permit you. I believe moder physiciatry is all about creating problems to explain people that are on a diffrent frequiency or who just wernt made to comprehend on certain levels. With the american diet and all though I am sure many problems have to do with brain chemistry.
I love nutrition and fitness and try to replenish my body for the sins of preceptions desires. I am looking for another person probally a girl to relate to not just socially but in other ways. For one, I hate the outfits in stores and if someone could create the fashions I desire I would pay them well because sewing is not something I can learn. I have met girls off here who pretend to be deep but are flakes and bring stories of thier old boyfreinds withthem. I listed to what they have to say and even let them interrupt what I am saying. I feel very plastic because I am letting them feel like their the only one we can talk about. I dont like talking about myself when i meet someone because its selfish. I would like to talk about ideas and ask questions. I guess this is my confusion regarding communications. I need humans to annalyze.
Oh yeah and I am not one of those people who are just trying to sound smart to get attencion. In my writing I can be real and this is not tryign to sound disinfrenchised this is trying to find someone to relate to.
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I am a 20 year old seattle girl who lives a very alternative lifestyle. I am really into anime cos play and gothic lolita. I like to show my creativity through not only my writing and other talents but through my fashion, thoughts, buisness, interactions, beliefs, and roleplay. I love to dress up and I cant wait to be 21 so i can go to clubs. I really want to meet freinds here in seattle, who are involved in alternative/industrial,cus play,writing or in any underground scenes. I am into partying with tweak,h,good x, and k but I dont smoke or drink. I am very safe when it comes to needles and only shoot up around myself. I refuse to shoot up with most people unless they keep their shooting gear at a distance. In the last year my vains have actually gotten stronger because I have learned hwo to do things that will make them come out for shooting. It be cool to meet someone who does this as well, but its defenetly not a requirment and I AM KEY about saftey.
I think diffrent than most people, and so its hard to relate to people.I really want to meet other girls, because i dont have any female freinds. The most alternative part of my life I guess is that I am a lolita escort and an adult website girl. I market myself on my youthfull apeal and my ability and desire to roleplay. I am toatally independent and run my buisness myself. My escorting site is www.lollybell.com and I am currently constructing my paysite. I am mostly just looking for casual freinds expecially girls b ecause I dont have many because of my work but I am open to other connections.
I am not looking for a boyfreind though I would be open to a being freinds with a guy who is cool, and very alternative or a couple as long as they were open to pictures. My fanatsy would be to go on a date with a girl alone, and have sexual connections with her once we got to know each other, alone of course. I am into being submissive with females but I can be dominant too. I am into bondage,pain,fetish, and fantasy. I love to party also though being an Aquerian on last day before Piecies. and all I am much more of a thinker than a socializer. I would rather be in front of a group speaking about issues I find important than a clique socializing.
I am afraid of the nothing that so many people dont seem to mind after death. I would think as a species we would want to fucking evolve. I believe that there are people in this current generation who will be able to evolve through astral projection and travaling within conscience realms. It may sound like bs but having used drugs i HAVE had a lot of time astral projecting and moving outside of my body.
I do the two most extreme drugs yet worry about dieing. Ibeloieve that as logn as you compensate in many other ways certain addidctions even can be allowed, and still result in a healthy body and mind. I get bored reading about vampires but have the lust to be a vampire. Elisibath bathory would bathe herself in the blood of comming of age virgins, obviously she was insane and a pruduct of incest in the Hungarian Royal family, but the story is a quite interesting one.
Most woman accept the natural order of things...... Since we ourselfs our givers of life... But I dont want to be an old fashioned woman who has kids. I want to be something that is both male and female that can live forever on earth or wherever the world decidedes to take place eons from now.
I want to achieve this more than anything. But I am almost 21 so it be cool to meet some freaks to go dancing with. The concrete meets the abstract....
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Who I'd like to meet:
Groups of like minded individuals,females who are interested in freindship, a freaky social circle and clubs of intrist, industry connections, buisness accociates, people who could bring me to clubs when I turn 21 in a few months, other escorts or sex workers in seattle, girls not afraid of their sexuality and couples who dont mind taking pictures
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