People -things people do/wear/say -how they behave/eat/exercise/walk into a room/run on the sidewalk/laugh and sing in their cars/relax/apologize -what people read on a plane/say in an argument/deal with embarrassment/
Music
Ray Jordan, Amy Winehouse, Mariah, Janet, Shakira, Patti, Madonna, Alanis, Paris, Cher, Diana, Tori, Beyonce, Mary J, Missy, Mya, Selena, Sheila E, Nu Shooz, Deee-lite, Migel Migs, Jay J, Basement Jaxx, Scissor Sisters, Lil kim, John Meyer, Stevie Nicks, Shirley Q. Liquor, Ryan Elliott, Handsome Boy Modeling School
Movies
Love me if you dare, Freeway, All about Eve, Now Voyager, Mommy Dearest, Divinci Code, Girls will be Girls, Sense and Sensibility, Wizard of Oz, Introducing Dorothy Dandridge,
Television
National Geo.. on my Ipod, Lost, Desperate, Simpsons, Drawn Together.
Books
Elizabeth, The Game of Life, Anything Illuminati, I dare you, How to win friends and influence people.
Heroes
Anyone who has helped me along the way. Servants, concierge, waiters, bartenders, event planners, the Ritz Carlton.
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Were does one begin?
Evolution is happening faster for me this year (29) than any other and it is wonderful. To have a light spark, and then feeling so alive, that you want it to engulf you... I wonder... why have I only come alive 5 days ago ? (11/16/07) I smile.
My first awakening actually happened at Laguna Beach, it was my birthday, exactly 2 mths prior. Fortunately for me, events happened that enabled me to feel clarity. After discussing a business decision with family and friends, about an hour later, I quit my job through a text message. That's the moment I took back my control. My only regret, is not having listened to my gut... sooner.
"If I had to do it all again, I would, but I'd make all of my mistakes sooner."
"A wise man does instantly, what a foolish man does finally."
Which leaves me in California.. Los Angeles no less.
Ahhhh......Los Angeles... the city of cardboard like people. Where the creatures are sadly shallow. An exact replica of the person standing next to you, of the billboard that you stare at, and of the fashion magazine that you're holding.
I have another vision of LA then most... I call it... "A beautifully painted Prison... where people don't hold any of where they're from... and don't know where they are going. A modern day faux metropolitan Purgatory. A mentality of 'Who are you?... who am I?... what can you do for me?'
Let's just sit and wait for things to happen. And so what?!? We're all gorgeous. Want some cocaine?"
LOL! Of course this isn't EVERYONE... only the ones that are vain... about 95%... because the other 5% are just Ugly... or so they say.
And lastly on all this bullshit nonsense.... why is it that.. those with so much money are the most greedy? Since I have been here, this has been cyclical. I keep meeting people that are very well to do and their desire for More More More only increases. What is it? How does the saying go?
"Money, is the root of all evil."
I have to laugh at all of you, that don't know how to share and truly get joy from giving.... cause you fools...I don't have much... but what I do... I want to share with my friends. Here's what I can bring... take, and let's share. Not... this is mine and that is yours. Fuck that. Losers. Seriously, it's never to late to change.
I give LA a "C" for climate; and the select few beaches that weren't polluted -those helped majorly with that rating. Plus throw in some fabulous parties, the celebs, and all the funny looking androids with plastic surgery. What is up with all of the -point and click- that people are doing with their bodies? People here bring photoshop into reality.... LOL!!
Watch out folks I'm coming to analyze a city or country near you.
For my next adventure... stay tuned ;)
A few secrets about me. I love to drink milk 2%. Chocolate milk is my weakness... if Cheetos are on the table, I am going to eat them, I can't help it :( I love my feet, but love to wear socks. Will miss wearing sandals in Cali 100% of the time - except at the gym. I discovered carrot juice, pomegranates, beets, rare meat, sushi, sake, sailing, marriage proposal, marathons, ghosts in my apartments, nude beaches, and the freedom to kiss another dude in public -- all of that and then some... in Cali.
Please do not misinterpret any of my writing as bitter or jaded. People's lives are all different. This story is mine.
Neil's collection of thoughts and wisdom:
Today is a day of completion. Become a Mover and a Shaker... Make your life happen!!! The worst thing for anyone, is to waste away and not grow everyday. We are here for a limited time... make these few seconds count!
Miracles shall follow Miracles.
Wonders shall NEVER cease.
That which I seek, shall seek me.
This is done by Divine right in a Perfect way. You can have Everything you put your mind to. If you can think it... you Can have it.
I've learned that we are the answer... the answers are within us... the ever cliched, "Listen to your gut," should not be taken lightly. It's taken me a long time to realize this... but only when I have listened to "the feeling," have I grown. Life puts us into many situations... the most memorable are the hardest. The most fulfilling when they are finally overcome, are also the hardest.
I am in transition right now to becoming Great! A better person... stronger friendships... the beginning to the rest of my life. All by believing in myself... and focusing on my wants, needs, and not settling. You create your own reality. Ask and you shall receive.... but you must first ask. You deserve it. Don't you? The answer, without skipping a beat, should Always be Abso-fucking-lutely!
When you have knowledge about something.... What do you want to do with it? That's right...Share... You want others to know what you know. Maybe that's why I'm writing this. Maybe it's you. Maybe you needed to get to this point in your life... to sit down at this computer and read my profile, and have someone (me) tell you to get off your ass and make a difference in your life! Well, what are you waiting for? GO! Go For It! What do you have to loose? Stir up some dust... Be better than you thought you could... after all, we can always do better.
I often wonder when I'm talking to someone... whether at a store I'll never go into again, on the phone with someone through customer service, or traveling... that I probably will never interact with that person again in my lifetime. Amazing... I know... But I always try to make the experience the best! How do you want to be remembered? Nice people make life easy.
Okay if you read this far... I applaud you and want to give you a hug and say thanks. Because, if there is anything that you get from your online experience today... Know that there is one person out there (me)... that is on your side.... that wants you to succeed in achieving your dreams! Infinite happiness to you my friend ;) If we should ever cross paths or not, I hope that I brought you something to think about, and that I've reached through to you today. Everything happens for a reason. Everything.
I like to spread laughter so enjoy my silly pics. I think taking pictures is far more fun than looking back at them. I guess I love the present ;)
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My People:
(Because I just thought you should know... you made a difference in my life. I want to thank you for making me feel alive!)
**in random order**
Emily: If moving to LA meant seeing you that day on the beach, while training for my first marathon... then damn it... was totally worth it. I miss our sushi dates complete with the park&swings, sharing a bag of chips together (even though you would clearly eat a lot more than me), and my short trips alone to Vegas to spend time with your family. I love you. You are my everything. I mean that Pig. I need you... and that's it.
Amy G.: Sailing. I followed you to where ever you asked me to go... and I had a fucking blast! I will miss your giving friendship. We mixed instantly... no lumps... and that's a beautiful thing. You are my Grice.
Ray J.: You sang to us and we all melted. I can't wait to hear you on the radio and rock out!! Tell stories of how "I knew him when." And your band is fucking killer. Thank you all for your gift of music. Your passion is grounding.
Megan N.: My private dancer. You shed light when you enter my mind. I can't help but laugh at our silly moments. I miss you.
Mike R.: You're outgoing nature brought us together. You were more direct and right on than anyone I've ever met. Thank you for your wisdom. I need to learn much more from you still. I love you.
Jason R.: Who else would I want to be with in a jacuzzi, talking for countless hours under the stars? Thank you for being more different than anyone I know. So level and so unbalanced. ha ha Kidding. ;) Love ya, mean it!
Paul: For hosting unforgettable memories in your Hollywood home.. the cheeses, the spirits, the endless bottles of Vueve.... your pool and hot tub. For being the most incredibly giving host. Because of you, I now know how to give graciously to strangers and expect nothing more than a smile... and in my own home no less. You're fucking awesome.
Victor H.: You have been a great friend. Your insight has helped me develop from the kiddo I was when I arrived in LA... to a young man now venturing away. Thank you so much for ALWAYS being my support. You're family Vic. Mom is always asking about you. I will miss your tenderness, your passion, your kind nature, and the ability to scare the hell out of me! I love you!
Michael Liembek: You were my first step on this journey, that I didn't know would last 8yrs. Thank you for opening your home to me and letting me plant my legs in LA. Can you believe how long ago we lived together? Your kindness will always be treasured.
Hunter T.: "You have the biggest slice of the pie." You said that at my interview for the apartment. I felt special ;) I think about how you're doing often. Thank you for sharing years of your life with me in the room next door. I miss your playful nature and dance moves... ha ha... Thank you for your wisdom through my relationship/life's ups and downs... you really made me think, and helped me grow, in ways that I'm still discovering. I needed you to get to this point today.
Tamara K.: My sweet. For having the energy from hell, to be this go getter that doesn't quit. I admire you. I loved having the opportunity to share the early stages of Prudential together. I wouldn't have wanted to do things any different than how we did them. What a great experience. I only hope that our time together hasn't stopped. I actually really love having you in my life. You're Exciting and Glamorous! If I were a girl... I'd want your life. Oh wait... I am a girl, and I have your life. You know how we do... we've been skating right by for YEARS!! LOL! ;)
William N.: Sister. Love-Hate. Nice-Mean. Skinny-fat. ha ha! Your spontaniousness is creative. Thank you for being so giving of yourself over the on years. I really do miss our friendship. We always have moments of rage and intensity... that makes thinking of you very fun. I miss you, and us, singing Mariah together.
Ashley S.: Cousin. For being the constant giver of smiles. Getting to know you is proving to be an adventure... thank you for showing me San Antonio! I had the best time dancing with you! Your free spirit is unforgettable. I love you!
Christopher E.H.: They say time heals pain... but no it doesn't. It only helps you FORGET how much you hurt, but for me it hasn't. I never thought I'd say this... I forgive you Christopher; for being human, for making mistakes, for everything. I also thank you for your imagination, quick thinking, wisdom, friendship, humor, laughter, smiles, feelings, and for giving me something to think about. No matter what I do.... I don't think I'll ever forget you. You're one of a kind. I hope you're well and in good company.
Strange that I miss your voice, but realize that the likelihood of us being friends again is not very probable. But then again, stranger things have happened. So until the next life or sooner, I'll be seeing you.
Alex G.: Thank you for sharing your life with me. We have our best friend Mike to thank for this connection. NYC is killer in your presence. I love how when we are out... people begin to surround us... and then we become a big ball of energy with the same idea in mind.... "Beautiful, beautiful." Ha ha:) Cheers to NYC and to you!
Lisa: I Love you! You are the glue of the NYC friendships. Grounding and so very real! You're beautiful, smart, passionate, and kind.... that's a rarity in any city. I love your energy. Muah!
Paul: Thanks for being the model of the group without having model attitude. You are fun and crazy as hell! Love how you're not embarrassed to dance with even the ugliest dude in the club. Instead you throw yourself up in there and enjoy it! Now That's Hot!
Russel: The Ultimate of Givers. You have a great big heart. Thank you for allowing me into your home. I'm definitely seeing NYC in a different way than I ever thought possible.... There is something about the high rise apartment that makes everything sooooo glamorous. Thank You! I can't wait to enjoy the weekend with you and your home in the Hampton's.
**************to be completed when more time allows... don't worry... this list will be huge baby.*****************
hey how is your week going so far? Mine is pretty good Im dancing to music right now then gonna watch Rupauls Drag Race online then watch suvivor later tonight? so what you gonna do tonight?
hello what up? What are you doing this weekend? I'm going to the club tomorrow night. Im so excited cause I haven't gone in months. talk to you later and comment me back please thanks
This new background is really creepy. I always go to your page because it's warm and fuzzy. I have to leave now. It's a real Texas Chainsaw Massacre party on your page. LOVE YA xoxox
I am an A-hole. There. I put it out there! You KNOW you are my number one friend and I am so sorry I'm repeatedly one day off of you birthday. My bad- it doesn't mean I care any less about it, or you...it just means I'm always late. I cannot WAIT to celebrate our 30th together in Vegas. Thank you for finally sending the pics from your last trip. We are hot. That's all there is to it. Damn sexy 30 year olds. You are my favorite person. I am so happy we have had 11 wonderful years together (with a brief pause), and I look forward to all the years we have ahead. I hope that you moving to TX won't separate us too long. I love you and need my Neil fix at least twice a year! Man- I miss the good ole' LA days just kickin' it in Laguna, Cheesecake, movies, running, gay bars, etc...You are a light in the dark and I love being around you. LA never changed you and I love you even more for that. You are the real deal pig. I love you. HAPPY BIRTHDAY BABY!
