Julia Kucher

About me:

But I thought I could detect a moment--a very, very short moment--before this happened, during which the satisfaction of having pleased those whom I rightly loved and rightly feared was pure. And that is enough to raise our thoughts to what may happen when the redeemed soul, beyond all hope and nearly beyond belief, learns at last that she has pleased Him whom she was created to please. There will be no room for vanity then. She will be free from the miserable illusion that it is her doing. With no taint of what we should now call self-approval she will most innocently rejoice in the thing that God has made her to be, and the moment which heals her old inferiority complex forever will also drown her pride deeper than Prospero's book. Perfect humility dispenses with modesty. If God is satisfied with the work, the work may be satisfied with itself. (weight of glory) Simply, I am easily moved and inspired by things and people that have abandoned themselves for what is truth. I can't say I've figured anything out right now and everything I thought I had figured out has become loose. I just continue. I remember that one night I was inspired to read at the ocean at 2am. I went there with a blanket, my Bible, my ipod, and a flashlight and just sat there in the cold sand in front of the crashing walls of water. It was dark and all I could see was a distant beach fire. The wind was stinging my eyes and I cried while I read Psalms. There was no line of logic or reasoning for me to follow that impulse but it fell so satisfying to just be there and read some solid stuff. Later that night a homeless man on a guitar sang to me about angels. As random as this "About me" is, I just want to add that I miss those things that I used to do. In a way, they defined me and led me to find more of myself. Besides that, I feel like no one could really show me who I am or fulfill me the way that God can do it. I still break down every time I'm in His presence. My family is so important to me and I think the world of them. Family is the closest thing I know to pure love. I sometimes feel like I've failed big time, but when I come to Him, I forget all of that. I know I'm new in Him. My job takes so much out of me, but its not my job's fault- it's mine. I have a lot of goals but lately, I've been imagining me be a great grandmother. That could be very honoring. I love CS Lewis also...and hillsong. A man can no more diminish God's glory by refusing to worship Him than a lunatic can put out the sun by scribbling the word, 'darkness' on the walls of his cell. C. S. Lewis If the whole universe has no meaning, we should never have found out that it has no meaning: just as, if there were no light in the universe and therefore no creatures with eyes, we should never know it was dark. Dark would be without meaning. C. S. Lewis