Cheon Ho Park
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"~ Refute your mistaken beliefs!"
Male
21 years old
Minnesota
United States
Last Login:8/18/2008
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| Status: | Single | | Orientation: | Straight | | Hometown: | Chollabuk-do, South Korea | | Body type: | 5' 2" | | Ethnicity: | Asian | | Zodiac Sign: | Capricorn | | Smoke / Drink: | No / No | | Education: | In college | | Occupation: | Student |
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Gaming - Art - Other
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I am willing to work in any field that has to do with art or the actual design of any game of any genre.
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Cheon Ho Park ~ Refute your mistaken beliefs!
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About me:
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The Hot Days of Summer...
And it has been a very short but an extremely self-transforming one...
A lot has happened and it was nothing any of you would have expect.
Inside I have been struggling, you may not know that but I have been.
I managed to keep this secret for some time, hidden to close quarters.
But my identity got lost somewhere in the amidst that took everything away, the true joy, the real support, the real love, the real god, and everything. I lost all motivation, and purpose. I became a drone. A tired enslavement.
Finally I have got myself some help with support from my family
I knew this was going to happen and I would too had to confess... it was very hard, but bravery has proved its forthright.
Talking to the therapist has helped somewhat, but I hoped to be prescribed medication in the future. With my new constant drive to think positive and become the loving individual I always wanted to be I can finally feel self-empowerment rather then hate, anger, and loathing.
Inside I struggled, alone, and restless, no one understood me. I knew I had to change to face the real problem. I knew all the problems I had, I done a lot of research yet never took any action for change. I see my reason for motivation.
Some people do not understand why people act the way they do, and many times you won't. But there is still that drive, that motive. And I continue to do so.
Enough of this black and white thinking. Enough of the labeling, enough of the sadness, pain, and suffering. I do no longer want to live in this hell and prison I find myself in.
I must be an individual and become my own, away from my brother I no longer relate myself with.
I am creating me. Life will always be a battle, you can never transform and become a better person through submission and relaxation. Fight the anxiety, fight the depression, be true to only yourself. This is who I am. Do not become one. It may be difficult but through challenges and overcoming them is the true reason for pride and contentment.
Change may be hard and difficult.
But I must be brave in order to change. I am not the addict, I am not the scum of the earth. I have control. I am here to control me.
There is no reason to beat yourself up over the little things, accept the criticism and let the maturity come to you. I can no longer avoid and run away from my problems. People will not come and save you but they are willing to help you. This will help serve purpose in your esteem, individuality, and identity.
I believe if I enter the psychology field I can find my true answers, my inner peace.
To help other people, with the toxic mind I too had suffered from is my dream.
This is what I would like to be remembered as when I die: To study the mind that has no exact answer; to gain this knowledge that inside I knew I already had spiritual insight.
This may not only help save the greater good, but also myself.
To die as a decent, hard working man.
But I still need to learn to be nice to myself, accept myself who I am and what I did. It will not be easy, but I am thinking more positive.
I now know I am on the right path and that God shall lead me on my own unique path.
Still, as I get back on my feet, I am slowly finding myself and creating myself.
The healing process... has finally begun...
Thank you for your time reading this memo.
Sincerely,
Kyle Balitz
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