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About Me: Christ is my savior first and foremost, no matter what judgments or short sighted opinions of me you may have. I have pledged my heart and soul to God, all of my sins and my triumphs are his to punish, reward, and guide as he wills.(If you want a better idea of who i am, subscribe to my blog)

I am a Psy Vampire. Im something of a mystery, a lot of people think they know me, but only a few truly understand me. A lot of people come to me for advice, I actually listen. Ive seen and experienced a lot, and have gained more wisdom than most. Im usually more focused on making others feel good than i am myself, at least when im not being selfish. I understand women, what they want, what they need, and how they want it better than most guys, a blessing and a curse. Instead of engaging in conversation, i write, in order to express myself, and bleed away my emotions. I am involved in an intense love affair with my computer whom i built and made to service me. I am a PC game whore, and play a few console games. And if you were wondering, yes, I will pwn you and your mom like n00bs. Sometimes I dont understand myself. In a lot of ways i act more like a woman than a man. I have a tendency to cross the line of what is acceptable on various levels. Both to challenge the beliefs of others, and because i like the reactions. Im a sucker for ambiance, elegance, and subtleties. I have many addictions, some bad some good. The deeper you fall into me the more there is to find. You will never know everything about me, but i have nothing to hide, and everything to lose.

And as an afterthought: For the Conservatives/Normals, whether you know me or not. If you take issue with, or have questions about my profile please do not hesitate to message me and ask anything that you may be thinking.

My Embrace: Written for me: "Entwined within sorrow and painted with shame, What once was forgotten shall now find its name. Cry out in pleasure but one name you should, Enter the passion of the Incubus of Blood." -Marie Antoinette, January 1778

I was Embraced in 1732, Sired into the Toreador clan, of which i am now an Elder. I never knew my sire...but here is an account of that fateful night: I Dreamt of a bloodmaiden. I drew near, and saw she was crying, but her tears were red as blood. I touched her tears, and tasted them, and they were wonderfully salty, sharp with spice and savor. But the maidens face had changed, her skin was grey-white, and red tears dripped from her lips. Her hair had turned black, and wreathed her head like twinning serpents. I was afraid but could not run, i screamed and then i awoke, heart pounding, cramped and aching. It had been no dream, I had been under the spell of a powerful countess. She had drained me, and i was drunk on the blood of the vampiress. My body was dying, for we all die, and i was then born to darkness. Now I have the unquenchable thirst for blood, like liquid fire, i live to sink my teeth into soft flesh, to lose myself in the pounding rhythm of my victims heart, the overwhelming rush like a great river, as their life blood is drained from their body. I am a vampire, Kindred, and will be for the rest of eternity.

Toreadors: For more info on the Toreador Clan, click here.

The members of this clan are known for their hedonism, though that is a misinterpretation of what they truly are. They are proud and regal Kindred, highly excitable, and they cultivate expensive tastes - but hedonism is going a bit too far. Artists are always so misunderstood.

The Toreador are the most sophisticated of the clans. They are concerned with beauty in a way no mortal can fathom. They use the rarefied senses and tastes given to them by the Embrace to become as consumed and impassioned as possible. Ideally, to a Toreador, nothing matters as much as beauty, though in many cases the search for beauty is overwhelmed by the search for pleasure, and the Toreador becomes little more than a sensualist.

Like all true artists, they search for a truth beyond an existence they fear to be meaningless. It is that struggle for truth, and ultimately salvation, that has inspired them with what they consider to be their mission - protectors of the genius of the human race. They are truly in love with the vigor and passion of the mortals, and never tire of marveling at their creations.

The clan as a whole considers its members conservationists; their protectorate consists of the world's greatest artists. They specifically seek out those whom they consider to be the most talented and grant them the boon of immortality, thus preserving their genius against the ravages of aging and death. They constantly search for new talent and spend a great deal of time deciding whom to preserve and whom to leave to their fate. Among the Toreador are some of the greatest musicians and artists who ever lived.

The greatest weakness of the Toreador is their sensitivity to beauty. They so reflexively surround themselves with elegance and luxury that they often lose themselves in the endless pursuit of vice after vice. Some among this clan become concerned with nothing but their own continued pleasure - the reputation of the entire clan is affected by their excesses.

Nicknames: Degenerates

Appearance: The members of this clan are usually good-looking. They always dress in the very latest fashions from the most expensive stores. Of all the Kindred, only the Toreador manage (or bother) to keep up with the ever-changing panoply of human fashion.

Haven: They often live in luxury condos or apartments near the center of the city, as close to the action as possible.

Background: They pride themselves on only selecting the most exemplary members of human society for initiation into their clan. Most members were artists or musicians, and many continue their artistic pursuits in undeath.

Weaknesses: The members of this clan are as much prisoners of their artistic vision and sensitivity as they are its beneficiaries. They are often overcome by the beauty they see around them, and become immobilized with fascination. Such things as paintings, neon signs, or even sunrises can captivate them. It requires a great amount of Willpower to break the fascination quickly; otherwise, the Toreador will stand, awed and helpless, for minutes or even hours. This trait explains why Toreador so often fall in love with mortals.

Organization: The members of this clan meet frequently, though these gatherings are more social occasions than councils. In times of great urgency, they become united and ferociously active, but typically they are too apathetic to be much of a force.

Example of a Toreador Mentality:

"I remember my first love, a beautiful woman with a silver laugh. For nine years we were constant companions, but in the end I had to let her go. She begged me to take her but I could not. You may call me cruel, but in the end I realized she was not a true artist, but an imitator. She was unworthy. I don't think I have ever recovered."


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