ugh!!!!! what the hell Mood: aggravated
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I have had a rough beginning and it is still getting straightened out. I love it. i haven't always had the best luck with people so i am kinda timid about trusting people and it sucks always being on your guard not knowing if people are talking shit about u behind ur back and it sucks. I end up trusting to fast and get hurt , Or you think that people change cause they have shown it well what they want you to see enough just so that you will trust them and share things with them again. I have been told lately that i am immature and childish or that i will never grow up and that bothers me. I have been through way more than alot of 25 year old people and i feel like i am a mature person when i need to be but i am also a fun person. I know that now i am focused on making myself known more than ever and making sure everyone knows i am not the child you think i am I MEAN everything i say ! I don't like fake people and immaturity is annoying ! i come off as a bitch but yea i am and i know it i don't care if people don't like me cause there is a reason i don't like u. I have learned alot of lessons in the past year. I have realized you have to forgive everyone no matter what, and i say forgive just never forget. dont throw shit up in someones face just cause you can thats childish. I am tired of people who try to come off as sweet and innocent and really they are just as shady as the next./ I am by NO means perfect im a fuck up but i have learned after many lessons that now i know what i need to do. HOwever i feel like if i dont go with my gut instincts first hand i wont damn get anywhere. I know all my doubts i should listen to them all and just go with my gut i think i would be alot less hurt in the long run. I hate that i make the same mistakes more than once to learn the lesson. I dont like to find out through the grapevine that shits been going on and to make it worse that it just confirmed my gut feelings! oh well like i said i am not the best in the world but i am damn sure not the worst and i try to be the best at what i do. anything else ask me i ain't changed that much i like to say that consistency proves a better person be yourself that way you can all the time!
I really dont know what to put here i mean i have the greatest friends i could ask for i have been in contact with a bunch of old high school friends and people from thomaston my high school town i dont want to consider it my hometown cause i didnt live there long , i am the one in the family that moves alot i get bored with places ,but really i am content in my life adding more and new people seems to cause headaches; stupid i know! LIZZARD ☻, my sister and bestest friend, she is there even if it is three in the morning and i want to call and complain about my anything if i need to get away that is my refuge HER and SONYA and my ♣DREWBIE♣ are my psychologists and i love it , ♠Stefani and jeff♠ i know that me and you both have been through alot but ya know that know matter what it seems like everyone always tried to turn each other againist one another and it worked sometimes oh well proving them wrong again and i love proving them wrong and i love being right. STEF is my mam and i love her we still finish each others sentances and how many bitches you know lose their job on the same day lol, JEFFRO ( waterhead) you are chris's cuzzin and my girls old man but you hve been there and listened to me gripe and gave me your input you are honest and dont hold back i like that and i am glad to say you are a friend. My BIG BRO TONY he has shown me that no matter what your past you can make something of yourself as long as u keep ur head in the game , if u fall get ur ass back up and do it again but do it right ! dont make the same mistakes,(too bad i cant get that lesson down tld you i want the stubborn taurus got to learn my lesson more than once or twice and that sucks on my part!), and when you do the smell of success and victory is so sweet! and i know that i have a while to go before i am on his level but i am working on it ! i look up to him more than he knows. and JASON my little brother he has some plans and i am proud of him no matter what , TERRY my advice counselor lol and very good friend, ,My neal who is far away but always so close to my heart , and i have my friends to many to list but you all know who you are MUAH if you want to know more email me i may tell you *wink*
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Dec 13 2009 7:49 PM
its always so funny how one minute people want you and then the next they don't... what the hell.. oh your just a crazy ass anyways.. and a slut remember!!! ha ha i don't care who reads this either!!! ha ha... i think they are crazy... its all good though your strong and don't need to deal with that bull shit.. oh yeah i <3 you! ok now i don't! ha ha you know?!?!?!
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Happy Early Thanksgiving From My Family To Yours....
Oct 20 2009 9:55 PM
you act like you been locked up for months or something lol
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Mother love is the fuel that enables a normal human being to do the impossible.
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nick
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Feb 11 2009 7:01 PM
Call home everyone is worried about you,as nobody has heard from you.
Mom and Dad
Feb 1 2009 1:17 PM
call home when you get this comment
Love Mom and Daddy
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Dec 9 2008 6:29 PM
you look good in your pictures.
how have you been doing?
Dec 9 2008 12:57 AM