The Quote Below was giving to me by OCTOBER, a beautiful friend ...
“The truly creative mind in any field is no more than this:
A human creature born abnormally, inhumanely sensitive.
To them... a touch is a blow, a sound is a noise, a misfortune is a tragedy, a joy is an ecstasy, a friend is a lover, a lover is a god, and failure is death.
Add to this cruelly delicate organism the overpowering necessity to create, create, create -
- so that without the creating of music or poetry or books or buildings or something of meaning,
their very breath is cut off...
They must create, must pour out creation.
By some strange, unknown, inward urgency they are not really alive unless they are creating.”
ABOVE & BELOW ... CORINA ... ACTOR / RECORDING ARTIST / BEST FRIEND ...
I NEVER MEANT FOR ANYONE WHAT I MEANT FOR HER.
GOODBYES WILL ALWAYS HURT, PICTURES WILL NEVER REPLACE HAVING HER NEAR, MEMORIES WILL BRING TEARS AND WORDS CAN NEVER REPLACE THE FEELINGS ...LOVE HER NOW LIKE I LOVED HER THEN ... MY BEST FRIEND, MY HOMIE, MY MUSE, MY FAMILY... UR FOREVER IN MY HEART ...
"RUN AWAY" music video... By CORINA KATT AYALA ... Directed by PEPPER NEGRON ...
shot on location Up-State NY, copyright Corina Katt Ayala 2007 ...
Above are still shots from CORINA'S music video "RUNAWAY" directed by PEPPER NEGRON on location up-state N.Y. 2007... Photo: copyright, 2007 PEPPER
The following words were written by a friend I met here in myspace ... So I wanted to share it with all my friends...
Wow! darkness, well there is much beauty in darkness, it is accompanied by silence mostly and silence is beautiful and peaceful and allows for tranquility, serenity, it's in those moments we can hear the world whisper to us and really pay attention to how small man is compared to the universe. There is nothing wrong with being dark, and having an outlet to do it. I fear more the person who inhabits darkness and finds no outlet for it just bubbles and turmoils inside his own skin... all things have to be released, all love, pain, happiness, laughter, tears, sadness... where there is an outlet of creativity for darkness, there is always hope because looking at a reflection of a moment of ourselves means that we have already in that very second passed it ...
It's amazing to see what one's thoughts provoke in another person... so thank you for inspiring you, inspiring me.
* ANITA / July 2007 *
AN ANGEL, A SWEETHEART, LOVE, LOVE, LOVE THIS GIRL ... WE HAD SOME GREAT & MAGICAL MOMENTS TOGETHER ... IN EACH OTHERS LIFE FOR THE MOMENTS WE NEEDED ... U HOLD A SPECIAL PLACE IN MY HEART ... FOREVER ... -P
ABOVE & BELOW: CYNTHIA CRAIN ... MODEL ... Hollywood CA. ... Copyright 2006 Pepper
IF U WAKE IN A RED ROOM WITH NO WINDOWS OR DOORS DON'T PANIC, UR IN MY HEART."
This beautiful poem was sent to me by this amazing woman the day I went in for mouth surgery... I thought it was so special... and beautiful as she is... Oct. NYC, 2007
INGRID ... STILL REMEMBER THE LAST TIME I SAW HER BEAUTIFUL FACE ... HER SMELL, HER LAUGHTER,
HER TEARS, THE WAY SHE WALKS, WOW, THE WAY SHE MOVES ...
SOMETIMES SHE'S WITH ME IN MY DREAMS ... SOMETIMES SHE STAYS A LITTLE LONGER,
BUT NOT TO OFTEN.
I LOV U MY DEAR, ALWAYS ...
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Non of the work in my PAGE is stock, Don't even consider it.
HERE YOU'LL SEE MY PHOTOGRAPHY AND PHOTOGRAPHY MANIPULATION WORK... I WORK WITH TEXTURES, WHICH I CREATE MY SELF, BLENDING IMAGES WITH BACKGOUNDS, LAYERS AND COLORS...
THANX FOR BEING HERE...
PEPPER
Love the Ocean, CERTIFIED SCUBA DIVER with specialties in Wall Diving, Cave Diving and Night Diving. Do most of my diving in the Bahamas, & Virgin Islands. My most memorable moment was in the Bahamas, Cave Diving, I came across a hugh NURSE SHARK wanted to hug the hell out of her, but my leg was yanked by my partner trying to stop me. Earn a certificate in HOT AIR BALOON... SKY DIVING, the most thrilling excitement, there's no words to describe this feeling., AMAZING!!!
My music teacher in high school introduced me to SKIING, afterwards I fell in love, did an instructors course in KILLINGTON, VERMONT., Skied lot's of areas in New York, later some in Italy & Switzerland.
WALL CLIMBING... ICE CLIMBING, totally beautiful, WHITE WATER RAFTING what a laughter that is.
Took some flying lessons, single engine PIPER PLANE, flew a couple of times on my own over the Varenzano Bridge in New York, with my instructor next to me :).
Always grew up loving these kinds of sports, the type with a degree of danger in them.
Music
ONE OF MY FAVORITE BANDS, OURS @ HIGHLINE BALLROOM, NYC JULY 19TH, 2007... WITH LEAD VOCALIST JIMMY GNECCO, GREAT VOICE AND A WONDERFUL PERSON...
VOCALIST: ... CORINA, NINA SIMONE, LILA DOWNS, ANNA VARNEY CANTODEA, DIDO, SIA, PINK, ANNIE LENNOX, MARY FAHI & ALKAEMY.
BELOW : IMGAES OF EMILY... From "THE SICK LIST" A BEAUTIFUL FRIEND AND AMAZING ARTIST ... Performing at The Knitting Factory, NYC... Copyright 2007 Pepper
... Joel & Ethan Coen's, "NO COUNTRY FOR OLD MEN" Javier Barden was amazing as supporting actor ... J. A. Bayona's "THE ORPHANAGE" ... Lars Von Trier's "DANCER IN THE DARK" ... Bjork's Acting Performance was excellent ... Karen Moncrieff's "THE DEAD GIRL" ... William Friedkin's "THE EXCORIST", ... Tony Scott's "THE HUNGER" with Catherine Deneuve, David Bowie and Susan Sarandon, ... Lea Pool's, "LOST AND DELIRIOUS" ... David Lynch's "MULHOLLAND DR.", "LOST HIGHWAY", and "BLUE VELVET" ... Baz Luhrmann's "ROMEO & JULIET" ... Gus Van Sant's "ELEPHANT" ... David Dobkin's "CLAY PIGEONS" ... Gore Verbinski's, "THE RING" ... Greg Marcks, 11:14, "THE CUBE" ... Martin Brest's, "SCENT OF A WOMAN" ... Oliver Stones, "NATURAL BORN KILLERS", "PLATOON", and "U TURN" ... Alan Parker's, "MIDNIGHT EXPRESS" & "ANGEL HEART" ... Ridley Scott's "BLADE RUNNER" ... Mary Harron"s, "AMERICAN PSYCHO" ... Tony Kaye's, "AMERICAN HISTORY X" ... Peter Medak's, "ROMEO IS BLEEDING" ... Richard Kelly's, "DONNIE DRAKO" ... Gasper Noe's, "IRREVERSIBLE" ... Michael Cimini's, "THE DEER HUNTER" ... David Koepp's, "STIR OF ECHOES" ... Darren Aronofsky"s, "REQUIEM FOR A DREAM", The Wachowski Brothers, "BOUND" ... "MEMENTTO", "MAGNOLIA" ... Stanley Kubrick's, "A CLOCKWORK ORANGE" & "EYES WIDE SHUT" ... Brad Anderson's, "SESSION 9" ... "SAW" ... William Malone's, "FEAR DOT COM", ... Tom Tykwer's "RUN LOLA RUN", ... Dario's Argento's "SUSPIRA", ... Maria De Van's "IN MY SKIN", ... The visiual of "GASSHERN" THE ROBOT HUNTER by Kazuaki Kiriya, ... David Fincher's "FIGHT CLUB" & "SEVEN" ... Terry Gilliam's "12 MONKEYS", ... Alejandro Amenabar's "THE OTHERS", ... The colors and visiuals of Tarsem Singh's "THE CELL" ... James Cameron's, "THE ABYSS" ... Tom Shayac's "DRAGONFLY", "THE CROW", Russian Director Timur Bekmambeyov's "NIGHT WATCH" and Sergio Leone's "ONCE UPON A TIME IN THE WEST".
My favorite childhood film, which I drove my dad crazy so he can take me to the movies was... "THE FEARLESS VAMPIRE KILLERS" with SHARON TATE ... fell in love with her.
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FAVORITE ACTORS ... MARIA GRAZIA CUCINOTTA, ASHLEY JUDD, NATALIE PORTMAN, HILARY SWANK, LISA BONET, SEAN YOUNG, BRITTANY MURPHY, MILLA JOVOVICH, FRANKA POTENTE, CATHERINE ZETA-JONES, CLAUDIA CARDINALE, SOPHIA LOREN, RAQUEL WELCH, ANNABELLA SCIORRA, JOHNNY DEPP, GIOVANNI RIBISI, KEVIN COSTNER, CLIVE OWEN, BRADD PITT, EDWARD NORTON, GARY OLDMAN, ROBERT DOWNEY JR., CHRISTOPHER WALKEN, ROBERT DE NIRO, JOHN MALLCOVICH, JEAN RENO, HENRY FONDA, CHARLES BRONSON, VINCENT PRICE ...
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FAVORITE DIRECTORS ... DAVID LYNCH, OLIVER STONE, ANTONE FUQUA ... TIM BURTON ...
We met once at an industry party in Los Angeles, beautiful person, amazing spirit ... We laugh talked of movies, the industry and life in general ... that night I had mention to him "TORN SIGNPOST" a feature screenplay written by Corina & myself ... which my managers were preparing to forward to his people ... BATMAN project came around so we figured we wait till he was done shooting in London ... needless to say the script was never sent to his people and now this, life has a way of working things out ... for what ever reasons ...
gonna' miss u HEATH, thou we met for a moment ... it was a pleasure to share that time with u ... R.I.P. my friend ... -PEPPER, JAN 22, 2008
Research for my screenplay "TORN SIGNPOST" I read... "WITHOUT CONSCIENCE" by ROBERT D. HARE, Ph.D.
Research for my screenplay "SHADES OF PURPLE" I read... "THE FLOCK" by JOAN FRANCES. "THE MINDS OF BILLY MILLIGAN" by DANIEL KEYES & "FIRST PERSON PLURAL" (LIFE AS A MULTIPLE) by CAMERON WEST, Ph.D.
A CLOCKWORK ORANGE by Anthony Burgess for an idea for another screenplay.
Special intertest... "WICCA" BY Scott Cunningham, "WAY OF WICCA" by Vivianne Crowley, "THE WICCA HANDBOOK" by Eileen Holland, "WICCA FOR LIFE" by Raymond Buckland and "THE WITCHES BIBLE" by Janet & Stewart Farrar
Books for personal interrest and my favorites... "THROUGH VIOLET EYES" and "WITH RED HANDS" both by STEPHEN WOODWORTH, a wonderful friend...
My favorite on screenwriting, "HOW TO WRITE A MOVIE IN 21 DAYS" by VIKI KING.
Othres include...
"THE CELESTINE PROPHECY" by James Redfield, "THE POWER OF NOW", Don Miguel Ruiz's "THE FOUR AGREEMENTS", "THE MASTERY OF LOVE", and "THE VOICE OF KNOWLEDGE", "THE PILGRMAGE" and "THE ALCHEMIST" by Paulo Coelho.
Heroes
RICHARD BRANSON... VIRGIN AIRLINE, VIRGIN RECORDS, VIRGIN this, VIRGIN that. He's my hero. Thrill seeker as well.
PEPPER NEGRON… AN AWARD WINNING ... ARTIST… FILMMAKER… DIRECTOR… SCREENWRITER… PHOTOGRAPHER…
A DREAMER…
Photo: Edwin Pagan for UN CHIN MAGAZINE NYC...
I AM A SPONTANEOUS RISK-TAKER WHO LOVES LIFE BUT HATES TIME… I LIVE LIFE AS IF IT WOULD END AT ANY GIVEN MOMENT… I TRY EVERYTHING ONCE AND WITH YOU MY LOV I’LL DO IT TWICE…
SOME PEOPLE FIND REASON TO LIVE OTHERS FIND REASONS TO DIE… LIFE IS TO FUCKING SHORT… MAKE A CHOICE.
FOR ME THE BEST MOMENTS IN LIFE ARE THE ONES YOU DON’T PLAN… THROW AWAY THE REASONS AND EXCUSES…LIVING IN FEAR IS FOR WHEN YOU’RE NO LONGER MAKING EXCUSES FOR YOURSELF TO YOURSELF FOR WHY YOU DIDN’T DO IT… LET YOURSELF FORGET YOURSELF JUST BE YOURSELF…
TAKE A TRIP… FAR AWAY AND GET LOST!! I DID IN BELGIUM… PARIS… MOSCOW AND JAPAN… EXPERIENCE THE PLEASURES… THE PROMISE OF FOREIGN PLACES.
PURPLE… MY FAVORITE COLOR HAS LONG SYMBOLIZED ROYALTY AND IS ALSO A SYMBOL FOR LEADERSHIP… PURPLE IS ALSO USED WHEN CONNECTING WITH YOUR SPIRITUAL SELF, CREATING SELF-ASSURANCE AND DISCOVERING HIDDEN KNOWLEDGE.
I CAN NEVER GET ENOUGH OF, POMEGRANATES, RASPBERRY, LIMES, DARK LOUNGES AND THE COMPANY OF WOMEN, I ADORE THE RITUAL OF DRINKING ABSINTHE AND THE SCENT OF FRANKINCENSE, MYRRH, AFRICAN VIOLETS AND TUNISIAN PATCHOULI.
MY FAVORITE FOOD, JAPANESE CUISINE, SUSHI, SASHIMI AND SAKE (HOT & OR COLD).
I PLAY DRUMS, A LITTLE PIANO AND THE VIOLIN IS MY FAVORITE INSTRUMENT, IT'S HAUNTING AND BEAUTIFUL.
MY SENSE OF HUMOR, UH, DRY AND A BID MORBID, IN GENERAL I'M RATHER INTROVERTED, WELL, MAYBE, OKAY ... I’M A LONER.
FUNERALS ARE LIKE WEDDINGS… IT’S THE ONLY TIME I SEE FAMILY…
GRAVESTONES ARE BEAUTIFUL… IS LOVE WORTH DEATH… SECURITY IS IN THE MIND NOT IN OBJECTS AND NOT IN ANOTHER PERSON… NO TWO LOVES WILL AFFECT YOU IN THE SAME WAY… THERE MAY BE AND THERE USUALLY IS ONE LOVE EXPERIENCE THAT LEAVES A DEEPER IMPRINT IN YOUR HEART THEN ALL THE OTHERS…ONCE IN A LIFE TIME EVERYONE SHOULD EXPERIENCE THIS KIND OF LOVE… SOME YOU MISS AND SOME YOU DREAM OF…
WOMEN… THEY INSPIRE ME… INTRIGUE ME… AND INVIGORATE ME… AND MY SOUL… SOME CAUSE ME TO CATCH MY BREATH… OTHERS MAKE MY HEART RACE…
LOVE … IT COMES WHEN IT PLEASES AND GOES WITHOUT WARNING… HOLD ON TO GOOD MEMORIES…
LOVE IS SPIRITUAL… SEX IS PHYSICAL… SEX… IT SHOULD BE REINVENTED EACH NIGHT AND WITH EVERY TOUCH A GLANCE INTO EACH OTHERS EYES AND FOR EVERY EMOTION AN ENDLESS KISS…
TRACE EVERY OUT LINE OF HER BODY... WITH YOUR LIPS... IN THE DARK...
LIFE IS LIKE A WOMAN... THE MORE WE KNOW ABOUT HER THE MYSTERIOUS SHE GETS...
TELL HER HOW MUCH YOU ADMIRE HER... WHEN SHE'S UPSET HOLD HER TIGHT...PLAY WITH HER HAIR... BRING HER FLOWERS... JUST BECAUSE... LET HER FALL ASLEEP IN YOUR ARMS... TELL HER SHE'S BEAUTIFUL... KISS HER FOREHEAD... CHOOSE HER OVER ALL THE OTHER GIRLS YOU HANG OUT WITH... AND IF YOU WANT TO BE WITH HER... TELL HER.
A CHRISTMAS MORNING IN VIENNA… MY WIFE… MY DAUGHTERS… MY PAST LIFE…
TAKE A WALK IN THE RAIN... A STROM… A THUNDERSTROM…
I WALK IN NO ONES SHOES... I FOLLOW NO ONE... I KISS NO ONES ASS...
A MIRROR, REFLECTION... REFLECTION IS ME... NOTHING CAN REPLACE THAT... DON'T WANT TO BE ANYTHING OR ANYONE ELSE... JUST ME... THATS THE ONLY THING THAT MATTERS...
WHAT EVER PEOPLE SAY ABOUT ME IS A PROJECTION OF THEIR IMAGE OF ME... IT HAS NOTHING TO DO WITH ME... I DON'T WASTE MY TIME TAKING ANYTHING PERSONALLY...
IT'S NOT IMPORTANT TO BE RIGHT OR TO MAKE OTHERS WRONG... THERE'S NO NEED TO JUSTIFY WHAT WE ARE...
ELIZABETH BATHORY AND VLAD THE IMPALER ARE MY DISTANT RELATIVES, BUT I’M NOT SURE WHICH.
DON'T KNOW WHAT YOU EXPECT FROM ME... SO DON'T COME TO ME WITH YOUR EXPECTATIONS... I BELONG TO NO ONE... AND IF I BELONG... I BELONG TO THE WORLD... AND YOU MY LOV... YOU DON'T BELONG TO ME... YOU BELONG TO THE WORLD... IF I WISH ANYTHING... IS TO BE A GOOD MAN TO YOU...
EVERY SECOND I WASTE IS MORE THAN I CAN TAKE...
I CHOOSE TO BE TRUTHFUL... AND AS A RESULT I END UP ALONE...
I OWN THINGS WITH NO EMOTIONAL VALUE, I’VE TAUGHT MYSELF NOT TO ATTACH EMOTIONAL FEELINGS TO PLACES, PEOPLE AND THINGS. I KNOW NOTHING LAST FOREVER, SO THEREFORE IT MAKES IT EASY FOR ME TO MOVE THROUGH THIS LIFETIME. THIS DOES NOT MEAN I’M AFRAID OF COMMITMENT. IF I LOVE YOU IS BECAUSE I CHOOSE TO LOVE YOU, AND IF YOU LOVE ME IS BECAUSE YOU CHOOSE TO LOVE ME.
LOOK TO YOURSELF BEFORE YOU POINT FINGERS…
WHEN IN DOUBT DO THE OPPOSITE OF REASON… SPONTANEOUS ACTION JUST FUCKING DO IT…
MY FEELINGS, WHEN I’M INSPIRED, CREATE EMOTIONS IN ME THAT TAKE ME INTO A WORLD I OFTEN DON'T WANT TO LEAVE.
IF I GOT TO CHOOSE HOW I DIE, I'D PREFER IT WOULD HAPPEN IN ONE OF THOSE MOMENTS INSIDE MY HEAD. IN THE MANY FAR AWAY PLACES THAT I OFTEN GO TO, LITERALLY AND FIGURATIVELY.
DEATH … I HAVE AN OBSESSION WITH DEATH … I HAVE EVOKING IMAGES OF THIS BEAUTIFUL DARK PLACE, BUT I KNOW IS WHAT I’VE CREATED IN MY MIND … I EMBRACE DEATH, I’M NOT AFRAID OF DEATH, THIS IS A PLACE OF MYSTERY & ELEGANCE … WITH BEAUTIFUL WOMEN DRESSED IN BEAUTIFUL BLACK VICTORIAN MOURNING DRESSES, WEARING VEILS & MASK IN A BEAUTIFUL COURTYARD … NO A BEAUTIFUL GRAVEYARD … DEATH IS SOMEWHAT EROTIC TO ME … I DON’T BELIEVE IN HELL OR HEAVEN …
FIND PASSION… FIND PAIN… FIND LOVE… FIND YOURS…
AS FOR MY STORIES… AS AN ARTIST THEY COME OUT OF MY OWN EXISTENCE… MY OWN FAMILIARITIES… THEY KNOW ME AND I KNOW THEM AND I WOULD NOT SUBSTITUTE NOTHING FOR THEIR PRECONCEPTIONS… IF THAT MOMENT COMES TO ME AS A FLASH, STRANGE AND UNPREDICTABLE AS MY LIFE, I EMBRACE IT… PEOPLE OFTEN ASK… “WHY IS YOUR WORK SO DARK”?... I READ ONCE THAT… “OUR DARK SPOTS ARE A BLESSING FROM GOD, RATHER THAN AN ENCUMBRANCE FOR WHICH WE ARE TO BE PUNISHED”… MY DARKSIDE?... IT’S MY FAMILIARITY, IT’S WHAT I’VE KNOWN AS A CHILD AND IT’S WHERE I FIND COMFORT…
LOV U FROM HERE ...
LOV U FROM THERE ...
LOV U SINCERELY ...
LOV U TO DEATH ...
-PEPPER
PS: ... CURRENTLY I’M COMPLETING A SERIES OF SHORT FILMS, “SO QUIET”, “IN STILLNESS I LIE”, “BROKEN WHISPER”, “ME I’M NOT DEAD” & “GERSHEN”. SHOULD YOU CARE TO PERUSE MY MEANDERINGS AND FREQUENT MUSINGS, YOU CAN READ ABOUT THEM ON MY BLOG PAGE. JUST IN CASE YOU WERE WONDERING … I HAVE A REAL ANGEL IN MY LIFE.
ONE OF MY ALL TIME FAVORITE BAND FROM GERMANY ...
SOPOR AETERNUS & THE ENSEMBLE OF SHADOWS ...
BELOW ... LOV THIS SONG & VIDEO ... -PEPPER
IT WAS A COOL LOS ANGELES NIGHT, THE AIR BRUSHED MY SKIN AS I LOOKED UP, STARS GLITTERED ACROSS THE SKY, THE DEEPEST DEPTHS OF ETERNITY SEEMED TO OPEN ABOVE ME, SILENT, I WAITED ...
THERE I STOOD IN THE GRIP OF WONDER, MY UNIVERSE ...
THIS IS THE FEELING OF SANCTUARY AND THEN SANCTUARY BOUGHT ME A GIFT.
SHE WALKED BARE FOOTED, HER LITTLE DRESS, HER BEAUTIFUL BROWN EYES, WOW ...
I KISSED, HELD HER, WRAPED MYSELF AROUND HER. WE SLEPT IN EACH OTHERS ARMS TILL THE MORNING LIGHT OPEN OUR EYES ...
IT WAS AMAZING TO SEE HER FACE, FIRST THING IN THE MORNING ...
I LOVE YOU AND I'LL CHERISH THAT NIGHT, THAT MORNING, THAT MOMENT WITH YOU... FOREVER.
You would not believe the things we did that night. She define my sense of feelings and somedays I think it never happened. She came to me like a child singing lullabies and captured all of me, her face, her hair, the perfume that she wore. She stares at me with her big brown eyes, and her wicked smile. God. She's beautiful. We embrace each other from night till dawn. Her skin, her scent, her love, it's never ending and there's not a day that goes by without a thought of her. She's a wonderful person, and it all happened with a kiss on that night.
-Pepper
ABOVE: ... CHARIS REY .... Laguna Beach, Calif. Copyright 2006 DARK GLAMOUR PHOTOGRAPHY / PEPPER
LOV... LOV... LOV... THIS GIRL
Hey hunnie, guess what!!! The much anticipated Music Video for my hit single "Bad Girl" is finally done! Watch it now at www.youtube.com/cherylmartinez and let me know what you think! I appreciate the luv & comments;-)
And don't forget i'm offering a FREE download of the Bad Girl song at www.cherylmartinez.com/fanclub for a limited time only! Tell your friends to go cop that joint, and feel free to add the song & put the video on your page!
Best of luck with that sweetie! I'm all set for monday and I changed my concept a little so it should be interesting. I'll call you during the week so we can exchange stories on how both of our things worked out! Ttys! xoxoxox, October
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