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POEMS WRITTEN BY ME
How easy is it to forget?
How easy is it to forget?
When you said you truly loved me
and said that you would always be there
How easy is it for you to forget?
The compassion, the warmth
My every caress
Is it possible to have forgotten
all that in a matter of days?
Is it possible that after
all that has happened between
Us,
We simply turn our backs and disappear?
How easy would it be to just forget?
Forget I ever meet you, and forget
about all the magical moments,
I spent at your side
That would be foolish...
Yes it might be easy to forget
but is it what we truly want?
Do we really want to forget about the other?
Or do we simply want the pain to subside?
Where has my heart gone?
The pain grows unbearable
With each passing day
with each passing second
The pain is tremendous
It hurts just to reminisce
I grab at my chest
Theres no beat
Where has my heart gone?
Shouldn't I be dead?
The pain of the hollow cavity
follows me around everywhere I go
The constant feeling of emptiness
Emptiness that hurts and burns
I grab at my chest
There is no beat
Where has my heart gone?
Perhaps I don't need it any more
Perhaps I have gotten used
To living without a heart
Perhaps after months of living without it
With my heart being in someone else's hand
My body has gotten used to the feeling of
Complete emptiness
Then why the pain?
3LhC+2J--->Lh3J2+3C
A single replacement reaction,
thats what we could call it.
A simple chemical reaction
between 3 elements and no spectator
We could even go as far
as to say that the chemical equation was right.
Yet I'd like to stick to the facts,
and point out that it was indeed wrong.
A stupid mistake on my part,
I should have seen it sooner.
You see, according to the activity series,
nothing can kick me out, I'm most active.
There is no element known that,
could ever break us apart
3LhC+2J--->Lh3J2+3C
Gladly I can say this is wrong
3LhC+2J--->NO REACTION
Dreaming
I dream about you every night.
It's a constant battle with the sands of time.
If I close my eyes I see you there,
Standing there mocking me.
I just want to be next to you
No matter if it kills me
I just want to be there with you
Even if I have to close my eyes to see
I'll keep on dreaming
of our better days
The days in which
you stood here by my side
I just want to be next to you
No matter if it kills me
I just want to be there with you
Even if I have to close my eyes to see
Young Again
Who said
boys can't be men
and
men cant be boys?
I remember
being seven
and
not being able to wait till 18.
I remember
always wanting to be able to smoke
and
being able to cruise around in a brand new car.
Now that
I'm so close to being 18
and
finally getting to do all the things I've wanted.
I just
want to be young again
and
be able to stay home all day watching cartoons.
I'm not
saying that I'm a coward
and
can't handle the responsibilities of a man.
I just
wish I'd spent life slower
and
done more things as a kid that I didn't get to do.
Truth Ridden Eyes
As your eyes began to water,
your tears turn into liquid graphite.
Simmering down your cheeks they go,
writing my name as they fall.
You may say that it's not me
but your eyes tell it all.
Thank You
You said goodbye, on a mid-summer morning,
expecting me to fall in sorrow and pain,
But there were no words from me.
I simply turned and went on my way.
Thats all I would do at that moment.
Words had escaped my mind and thoughts.
But now that I think about it,
I think I would have simply said:
"Thank You".
I needed to say thank you for all the
Things you ever did for me.
Even if it all ended with me
going back to the same way I
was in the Beginning, before I met you.
Looks
I look at you, you look away, don't you see
That only goes to prove you still think of me
When I look at you, you look away
Averting eye contact that gives you away
Your eyes were always the ones that told the truth
They were always the ones in sooth
You never could make them lie
No matter how hard you tried
I look away, you look at me,
I can still see you look at me....
No More Love
Why is it,
that I can take a razor blade
and cut symbols into my skin
Yet I can't
take the pain
that comes with Love.
The physical pain
that is so
often associated with death
Is nothing compared
to the feeling of being
left for dead by the one you love
The pain
it grows slowly
almost creeping up on you,
unlike the pain of death
it does not go away
after a few minutes
and then subsides to nothing
You live with it everyday
every second and
every hopeless breath
If this is what love
will feel like every time
I happily say that I don't
want love in my life.
L131208014709C
After a day like this,
I feel like there is nothing,
that could take me back to my perfect bliss.
Everything that I once cared for
is gone. Vanished in thin air.
How could you just walk out and close the door?
After a day like this,
I just want to go home,
and find another person to whom my heart lease.
Edit Undo
They say that the human mind
is the most power full computer in the world.
They say that it can solve
the most advanced problems that were ever dreamed of.
They say many great things about the human mind
and very few people have any problems with it.
I have only one, only one that I can think of,
How the hell do I get to Edit Undo.
The Things I Hate About You (Version 3 Revision 37)
The days go by
relentless as they have
for what seems like and eternity now.
Now that I've had time
to think things over
with the scrutiny that I
usually do.
I realized how many things
about you I truly do hate.
I hate you for never taking time,
and I hate you for making me rhyme.
I hate that I cant read your eyes,
and I hate that you wont help me fly.
I hate that I love to write,
and I hate that you can't read between the lines.
I hate that I've written 129 poems,
and I hate that 58 of those are about you.
I hate that I've revised this one 37 times,
and I hate that I always find more reason to hate.
I hate that you do not care,
and I hate that you do not share.
I hate that I don't know how to talk to you,
and I hate that you never learned to listen.
I hate that you ask for my opinion,
and I hate that you don't take it into consideration.
I hate that you ruined my life,
and I hate that you don't realize.
I hate you I've never once said this to your face,
and I hate that you never once asked.
I hate that I write stupid poems to say what I feel,
and I hate that I can't say it to people's face.
But mostly I hate that you wont even realize,
that this is all about you!
Breaking Away
I got my nails painted black,
twenty dollars in my wallet.
I'm walking out, no looking back.
I want to make it to Hollywood.
Were the girls come fast,
and party's thrown like they should.
I want to get away from here,
the same old things in this small town.
I want to go fall head over heels.
My name will be known,
and my face will be recognized.
On every commercial it will be shown.
I just want to break the monotony.
Be something no one expects.
I want to be anything, except a celebrity.
Graduation Goodbyes
(This one is dedicated to my friends,
But especially to Laken Hall (our little eggy)
because she has been the best friend that
I have ever had (seriously).)
Remember all the times we argued and fought,
The times we made fun of each other.
I can still remember,
The first day we met.
We didn't know each other,
But we treated each other like brothers.
We had lots of misunderstandings,
But tried to fix what was broken
We had lots of wonderful memories together,
And now our time is up,
We have to say goodbye.
Goodbye for now, I'll miss you,
We've been through so much,
Sometimes I still have no clue,
If we'll really keep in touch.
But please do not cry cause we WILL be in touch
One day, eventually, if not tomorrow
Will you miss me past tomorrow,
Will you know me at a glance?
I'll try hard to remember,
Every moment spent with you,
Memories might not last forever;
But the friendship that we share will make it through.
Unconditional Love
Have you ever heard of
unconditional love?
Loving someone regardless
of what they may
or may not do.
I was once a believer
of this so called
Unconditional love.
But now,
I don't know
what to believe in.
Your promises
they meant nothing
to you.
You broke them
and along the way,
you broke me.
So take your petty
sorrow and your
"We can still be friends"
I don't want to see you
I don't want to hear you
If at all possible
I don't want to remember you.
Can you see the pain?
As I look into
your eyes.
The ones that
captivated me from the
beginning.
I see
emptiness,
hollowness.
Your eyes
they seem dead
to me now.
You look into
my eyes.
Can you see the pain?
It's there
you should see it.
Your the one who caused it.
Just Call It A Day
I wake up everyday,
it seems on the wrong
side of the bed.
Since you been gone
it seems all I do
is scream and get mad.
Im tasteless
and restless.
Im a big sack of shit.
I wanna say
that I still love you
but I cant.
My feelings for you
HATE
as you can get.
If I ever told you I loved you.
Forget I said it
and just call it a day.
One Final Time
I walk these halls
one final time.
Their long big corridors
don't seem so big anymore.
Not as big as when
I was a Freshman.
The people at this school,
they've changed every year.
But my friends
they've stayed the same.
I see my teachers,
one final time.
Some I loathe and
could care less about.
Yet others..
I will miss.
Friday June 6th
I'll walk on to the stage
One final time.
Beginning to Learn
13 Years
468 Weeks.
2340 Days.
16380 Hours.
982800 Minutes.
58968000 Seconds.
All that time spent
learning on how to excel in life
and yet it feels like I learned nothing.
Maybe the real learning begins later.
Once you step out into the world.
23 hrs have passed since
I took my final steps
in that horrid school
and I've already
learned so much.
I learned how
much I'm going
to miss you,
my friend.
Gone Are The Days
Gone are the days
in which I believed
your every word.
Gone are the days
in which your eyes
captivated my world.
Gone are the days
in which your kisses
left me perplexed in place.
Gone are the days
in which I could stand
looking at your face.
Gone are those days
Todays I don't feel hate.
I feel a strong
sense of relief.
One Perfect Line
The day I first met you
I searched everywhere
for one perfect line.
One perfect line
that would make me seem
friendly and nice.
I settled for
"Hello my name's John."
The day I realized I loved you
I searched within me
for one perfect line.
One perfect line
that would express my love
yet not be too over dramatic.
I kept it simple and said
"I love you"
The day I asked for your hand
I looked everywhere
for one perfect line.
One perfect line
that would get the message across
yet not pressure you into an answer.
I knelt on my knee and said
"Will you marry me?"
Today again
I will search everywhere
for one perfect line.
One perfect line
that lets you know
exactly how I feel tonight.
I think I'll settle for
"Goodbye, I don't love you anymore."
The strong can still crumble
You always thought I was the strong one.
You always thought that I was holding you up.
Baby dont tell me your leaving, I fear that I will fall.
Dont you see neither of us was strong.
We were strong together,
but apart we will crumble.
Things to do
I sit in solitude
staring off into
pictures of you and me.
Thinking....
Reminising
of the way things used to be.
I feel like I took
everything you ever gave me
for granted.
Your trust, your friendship
I took it all and
left hurt, pain implanted.
All I can do now
is stare off into
pictures of you.
Hope, faith
Rememberance...
Thats the only thing left to do.
Ocean Footsetps
I dig into the
soft white sand
with my toes.
Flipping my hair
in the air
as gently it blows.
The ocean waves
rhymthmiclly and uniformly
crach at my feet.
Clearing the footsteps
that my heart
has left at every beat.
There used to be two pairs
but the waves, they have
washed all but one.
I never said I had an elephants memory.
I said I would always remember you.
Staring off into the mirror that sits in front of me.
I see a persong that I simply dont recognize.
Is it possible that I have changed so much¿
Was your influence so great taht it still persists¿
Comback to me! Just let things be
like they were when I stared off into your eyes
dreaming of our future and the such.
I dont know if my love will every seize to exist.
As I look into my own eyes
I wonder if I will ever be able
to close them and not see you...
and not see you.
In a few years you will call me a stranger
not knowing I was the man you once loved.
That will be when I will make my move....
I will rekindle the flame that once was.
Where fire once burned,
there will always
be embers ready
to be lit once more.
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