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"There's this idea that if you take your clothes off, somehow you must have loose morals. There's still a negative attitude in our society towards women who use a strength that's inherent - their femininity - in any way that might be considered seductive."--Demi Moore
I am an NPC National Level figure athlete, as well as a fitness model, webcam performer, and certified trainer. My physique and the process of building my body is not only my profession, but my art. I view my time spent in the gym as both creative and expressive.
I think most of us, who are drawn to the sport of bodybuilding, are drawn towards it from a place of frustration, insecurity, or anger. Most of us who seek salvation in the gym feel we have something to prove, and most times it's not something we feel we need to prove to others, but something we need to prove to ourselves. I challenge myself each and every time I set foot in the gym- I am continuously striving to be better then my previous best.
What I love most about my training, and about the art of building muscle is the sense of confidence and control I receive. The gym is such a strong, sturdy foothold in my life. In a world where most thing are conditional, my relationship with the gym is unwavering. It's the one constant, the one thing I can always rely on.
..GOALS..
My goals in the industry are open to change. I currently compete in figure and have had great success in my photographic work, but I look forward to seeing where this sport will take me. My love for muscle may lead me into bodybuilding one day, or I may remain in figure, who knows. Either way I ultimately want to become an IFBB Pro.
I also want to challenge society's opinions regarding women with muscle. It's my personal goal to be an example of how muscle on a woman can not only be sexy but feminine as well. I make no apologies for my sexuality or my provacative nature. I want to express my sexuality as a strong woman, to push my own boundaries, and to let society see that physical strength on a woman is beautiful!
..ABOUT ME..
I do not now, nor will I ever, care what others think. I believe in living your life by your own definition, no one else's. I understand that who I am and what I stand for may not sit well with everyone, but I am not deterred by negative commentary nor by criticism. We do not grow as individuals by merely being loved all the time. We grow by our enemies as well.
I'm upfront, outspoken, and I say what's on my mind. I lead with my heart, not my head, and I make no apologies for who I am. I'm non judgmental and I'm far from fake.
I feel satisfaction comes from within. The greatest gift any individual can give themselves is that of self sufficiency. I am independent, strong willed, and very determined. Learning to rely on myself has brought me the greatest sense of freedom.
..MY LOVES.....
Lifting heavy weight! Competing. THE GYM. starbucks. wegmans. My pomeranian, Molly. Ani Difranco. M.A.C Lipgloss. Ed Hardy. Joan Jett. motorcycles. Designer handbags. Law and Order. Webcamming. traveling. Dereon jeans. the color pink. photoshoots. fast cars. ROCK n ROLL & head bangin' metal. fusion/electronica/lounge. R&B/neo soul/hip hop. driving with the windows down. dancing. a good book. Victorias Secret. stilettos. intellectual conversation. my blackberry. skulls. Diet Rockstar. Sexual experiences. anything leopard print. diner breakfasts. late nights that turn into early mornings. cooking. Las Vegas. art. sushi. piercings. thunderstorms. espresso martinis. dirty martinis. larger then life sunglasses. campfires. pizza. coffee mugs. Irish/Celtic music. tattoos.

"Life will give you whatever experience is necessary for the evolution of your conciousness. At times this may include suffering. Suffering drives you deeper. It raises awareness. It tests character. Surrender to it. Know that you are struggling for a reason- in order for us to grow there needs to be change.Delve into it with strength. Know that in the midst of concious suffering there is already transformation to the light."
