Moonlit Whispers, Sunlit Eyes

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................................................................... THESE ARE ALL OF MY .. PROFILES...ANYTHING ELSE IS A FAKE!

I am Not on VampireFreaks.com or ANY Dating Sites!

: My DeviantArt Profile:....... http://buttercups84.deviantart.com

Morbid Beauties Profile:..... http://www.morbidbeauties.com/index.php?Enigma%20Rose

My Model Mayhem Profile:....... http://www.modelmayhem.com/anenigmaunleashed

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..(Random Meaningful Lyrics)..

"The world is just illusion.. trying to change you"

"Sweet Josephine never sleeps"

"The journey seems endless.. but I'll carry on"

"The heart may freeze, or it can burn..The pain will ease.. if I can learn.. there is no future, there is no past..."

"little angel ....tries to make it all worth while"

"Though the past, the unwanted memories, are holding onto you... All the power in the Universe, conspires to carry you"

"I will wait for you... endlessly"

"May I become your wings"

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. QUOTES:

"Be who you are and say what you feel, Because those that matter, don't mind, and those that mind, don't matter"

"Be the change you want to see"

"Believe you can"

"The answers are in stillness"

"Relax"
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I am only a quiet messenger, one of many.. have been awakening to a new reality, and parts of my Being I never understood, dealing with changes and a deep transformation.. learning ways to exist and prosper in a world my energy doesnt seem to quite Fit in with yet.
It's no wonder my body was failing me with such high sensitivity. But I am changing that.
Its scary and exciting at the same time, but I know it will all be worth it and already is.

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I have many major health problems.. ...Fibromyalgia, Chronic Fatigue, Chronic Myofascial Pain, Mycoplasma(possibly gone), Severe gait disturbance, Multiple Chemical Sensitivity, Allergic to a chemical in black dyes(in clothing, makeup, oils, gasoline, hair dyes, etc) Orthostatic Hypotension, possibly Hypoglycemia, Anemia, Lymes Disease, and I am usually fighting off more minor viruses as well. I also have major & minor depression, anxiety, and insomnia.

It's difficult to explain..

There's many elements of Physical health, Mental and Emotional health, and Spiritual health(one that went ignored by me for too long).. without the synergy of all of these, including their varying elements within each system, there is no "health" or "healing".

These are my main practices/treatments/therapies:
I see a Naturopathic Dr.(1x/Week) that works with Homeopathic Remedies.
I also see him as a Chiropractor about twice a month
I see an Occupational Therapist twice a month, that works with electro-acupuncture machines and Microcurrent for my pain/tightness and other symptoms, she uses Trigger Point Release Therapy and Cranio-Sacral Therapy also.. as well as other techniques.
I take Glyconutritional Supplements (up to 3x/Day) through Mannatech.
And other supplements
I work with meditation/relaxation techniques; Reiki, Reflexology, visualizations, and other healing techniques.
I practice conscious gratitude, letting go, and non-attachment.. as well as many other positive lifestyle changes. I try to eat as health-conscious as I can. I'm on a high salt intake diet for my low blood pressure & Autonomic Dysfunction. I use an Ionic Footbath twice a month, currently.

I am prescribed an Alpha Stim 100(cranial electro-therapy device) for depression, anxiety, insomnia, & pain.(Its a god-send).. I use this daily for at least 2 hours.

I must spend at least 80% of my day resting, stretching, and just enjoying a peaceful environment.

I'm a level 2 Reiki practitioner and work with self-treatments daily

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I'm 24 and have been dealing with major health issues since 1999, living at home with my mom as a dependant adult, unable to work or school, though I'm definitely on the road to recovery, it's a slow process with many ups, downs, and let downs, but with Much progress overall.. Healing isn't ever easy, quick, or mindless..it's a personal journey we all must take action in getting through. It's a major learning process, I can either fall and give up or keep going, no matter what... It's well worth the wait and effort for me.

. I am overcoming these illnesses.. I appreciate what I've been through, and it's transforming me into someone I admire in many ways.

What keeps me going is a lot of hope and faith in the things "I" believe in, including myself and my dear friends, love, the beauty I see, the future I imagine, my own spirituality.

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I am learning all I can about modeling and photography. I plan to venture into modeling and photography, possibly acting as well. I will be working with different photographers, as my health allows, to gain experience, and start building a portfolio.. I may start contacting some agencies as well (when I can).
I do not want to limit my work to only more "gothic" styles and shoots.. I'm open to more mainstream styles as well. My own personal style changes and I never limit myself to one look, though I completely adore many of the gothic types of fashions(as you can see). I love creating beautiful, creative, almost surreal, images that reflect my inspirations and the beauty I see in this world.

I used to always be in choir in school, usually a First Soprano, I may continue working on my own "music" projects or consider joining a band at some point... I'm not sure yet. I love to sing though I have a bit of stage fright.

I'm learning a lot about alternative healthcare (through my own health battles) and different types of treatments, and the field interests me as well, especially different types of healers, energy work, and alt. therapies.. possibly even working with animals.

I've started creating some of my own designs for jewelry and accessories, as well as model horse blankets/accessories, and I've come up with an interesting gift card making style that I may continue working with.

I'm a writer, I've almost always written poetry and lyrics. I plan on putting a book together(probably many). I constantly journal, expressing, releasing, and finding many of my answers and guidance through my writing.

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I strive to show kindness and respect.
I am generally a very sweet, caring, forgiving, understanding, supportive, loving, genuine person. I hardly ever get angry and I couldnt dream of being mean or cruel.
I'm also shy at times, and can be stubborn, though if something is good for me I'll pick it up eventually anyway. I try to be there for those I care about, but I will take my own energy levels into consideration..
Helping someone must never include "draining" my own energy.. noone is helped then.
I will not allow too much negativity to surround me for very long, and Im very sensitive to feeling it.

.Random: I like fruits, veggies, water, tea, chicken alfredo pizza, italian soda, strangeness, playfulness, roses, sitting by a lake, enjoying or photographing nature, cuddling, animals, people, bonfires, synchronicity, being around animals,esp. horses, sporty cars, beautiful elaborate clothing, unique styles, jewelry, accessories, dance, intuitive & psychic awareness/development, realizations, the sound of Harley motorcycles(and riding on the back), drumming circles, the scent of peppermint, Dragon Veins stones, vintage Sari/wrap skirts, wrap pants.. ..
I would love to travel, write, model on a more substantial level, go to spiritual/new age/holistic expos, events, gatherings, shops.

.I consider myself a dork, and can be very childlike (when comfortable).. and I adore some of my friends for being dorks and too.

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