Well when in "guy mode" I do all the things that guys do.I have a white collar job that keeps me locked up from 9-5ish so on the weekends I like to get dirty. Yes, that too but I paintball, get grimy doing work, the normal guy stuff. I do most everything one would expect a "normal" guy to do. However, as Ashlee (the name I decided to use is the name of a female friend who I'm still friends with) I absolutley adore femininity. The fragrances, clothing items, curves, softness all of it. I love leafing through a Cosmo or Glamour magazine. I adore the outfits and scent of the perfumed pages (BTW my favorite perfume is Victoria's Secret "Heavenly" I love wearing makeup when I do and MAC cosmetics are the best!!. I think lipstick is the best and sexiest cosmetic I apply, I have a favorite red from VS that just feels magical going on. I "borrowed" it from a female friend as I loved the color. I'm sure she hasn't missed it!! I love to be as beautiful, feminine, alluring, sexy and as passable as I can be when I am dressed as Ashlee. I think I look best as a brunette but I like to mix it up a bit with different looks. I am looking forward to my next makeover and I hope that can be fairly soon. The whole experience of walking into the studio as a guy and being transformed on the outside into what my insides feel I am is just such a wonderful feeling. The final reveal when you look in the mirror after the work is completed is truly mind-blowing. If it weren't for the fact that my mouth is moving when I talk while looking in the mirror, I wouldn't know it was me staring back! I like getting on the net and learning about others like me who are TG. Finding websites with "how to" categories in them like makeup application and practicing the techniques is a lot of fun. Pulling a pair of pantyhose over my freshly shaven legs is an electrifying feeling. Slipping my legs into some sexy high heels and walking around. The whole female mystique I guess. Every guy should try crossdressing just once in my opinion.
Music
music of the 80's. The 80's were the best, most of the music on my ipod is 70's and 80's. The memories they bring back hearing them.... Myspace Layouts
Movies
comedies. Will and Grace is a favorite.
Television
action/adventure and sit-coms. Seinfeld, Wings, Will and Grace, Love Boat (cheesy I know) oh gosh, i could go on and on.
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Hi! I'm "Ashlee", a part-time, in the closet girl. What that means is to outward appearances I may look like what I hope is a fairly attractive female the fact is I'm not. Looks can be deceiving as they say. I must inform you (especially the guys) that what I'm holding back from you is the fact that I'm actually a guy! It's true, I actually stand up in the bathroom. The thing of it is that I'm a crossdresser. Check out who made me and others like me possible at www.austinsangels.com and tell him what you think, tell him "Ashlee" sent you!
Please don't pass judgment on me or people like me. Don't label me as "gay", "queer", "sick" (I could go on and on with the labels) because I'm not, in fact most cross dressers are straight up hetero men who lead normal lives. I'm one of them. We are born this way ok? I didn't decide to have an attraction to wearing women’s clothing or wanting to emulate women. It's not like I flipped a switch and decided to be this way because it's something we're born with. In describing myself I'd tell you that I'm just your average, ordinary, run-of-the-mill, "normal" guy but with one little exception: I just happen to enjoy very much getting dolled up and dressed in the clothing of the opposite sex and being as feminine and beautiful as possible from time to time (not often enough - believe me). If I were your friend (as guys) and we were out and about I may be talking to you about sports or whatever but I'm secretly admiring the clothing and makeup application techniques of the women we're walking by. I might even steer us through the makeup counters of the mall to long after the products and acquire makeup tricks of the salesgirls.
I recently went out dressed as a female to a Halloween party. What a great time that was and such a thrill! From a young age I knew I was "different". It started with trying on pantyhose at a relatives house at about 6 years old. I've been hooked on pantyhose since! I clearly remember doing this - and unfortunately getting caught doing so. Since I was just a kid no one really gave it much of a thought or made anything of it except to dismiss it and laugh it off as such. I don't think my family would've realized back then that their son "L" was not going to grow up to be the male they thought he should be - but I did. From there not too much happened that I can recall, it all sort of came together when I was in like my early teens. I ever so slowly progressed secretly and carefully. As I grew older and saw what boys "should" do and what girls should do I would hide my secret. When the chances arose however I would wear the clothes of my older sisters. I've had the wonderful opportunity to house sit a few times for just a few days to upwards of a week or more and I was absolutely beside myself with joy for at my disposal was a chance for privacy along with the wardrobe and makeup of 2 females and a chance to experiment.
I can't explain why I have this compulsion; I wish I could. There's no harm in it however society has different views on it. Like I said, I was born this way and it's a condition that's not going to be cured so I may as well accept and deal with it. Suppressing it only makes it worse and the pressure builds up. I do hate the fact that I was born this way and wonder why I am a "cross dresser". It bothers me (a little) that I am turned on by the thought of wearing women’s clothing & makeup and becoming for a time - a woman. I wish I could do it all the time without prejudice. I'm fully attracted to females though. Becoming my female self is just a harmless release of sorts from the stresses that life produces. I've kept this little bit of 411 well hidden all my life until I took the bold step to experience my makeovers and go to a party as a female (very well received I might add). I'm glad I've done these things. I want to do more! I never knew what I could look like if I were to have been born female. Thanks to myspace for the opportunity to connect with others like me. I'm so very envious of those of you who have and continue to go out en-femme regularly. I'm fascinated by the whole mystique and process of a guy being transformed into a gorgeous babe. I love it! I have a lot of pics but have only pasted a few here. Please note that I'm not up for meeting any men at all so please don't ask - sorry! :( {GG's however need not worry} Guys, it's nothing personal o.k.? Just try to remember that you aren't looking at a true female but a normal guy just like you creating the illusion of a female. If you wish to be a friend, please be genuine and honest in your intentions if you send a request. Post a decent message in your request; keep it clean ok? The "hey, I'd love to suck your ___" has been done before. I'm also very flattered that I gave you some "wood" as well. The more flattery you express the better in your messages! I'm quite adept at using the delete button my computer and I use it frequently. Any and all who are transgendered (CD/TV/TS) are welcome. Any alumni of the famous "Jamie Austin" is an automatic add. All genetic females are especially welcome. Also, for the record please note that I'm straight as an arrow. Please don't fill up my comment section with the "thanks for the add" things. (your welcome for the adding)
Proud member: www.Vickirene.net, page 659
http://profiles.urnotalone.com/ashleesue
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Come on! let's be serious here, it's actually who wants to meet me? I would like only to "meet" genuine, nice people who want to be my friend and get to know me via myspace, especially other t-girls, drag queens and genetic females. Any alumnus of the famous "Jamie Austin" who's been through his transformations is especially welcomed here. Again, please take note that I'm not interested in meeting any guys so please don't even bother asking. I'm straight as an arrow but I have this desire to take on the persona of a female from time to time.
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