Chili Willie

About me:

I am a fairly simple guy, that has been hurt a lot of times. Ive been married twice, and divorced as many times. I have two great kids, both boys. My boys I will always cherish, no matter what (though I do wish they wouldn't buck against people that enter thier parents lives, they can be good people, and fighting with them can strain even good people). I have tried the "wait after the marriage is over... it takes time" method, both with my first ex-wife, and the preceding ex-girlfriend. I found it only made me lonely. This time, I tried everything I could to save what had been promised me the last time I would have to look. I had already started looking, even in trying to save what I had, with little success. My second ex showed up at my job, flaunting her new boyfriend and I was crushed. I almost left the state, my job, and everything. That was when I fully notice someone that had been there a couple of days. Yes, I can be blind, and an idiot. This person has been a wonderful friend in my time of need, and has made me smile more than I have in a while - she even had me smiling enough to show teeth, which I never do (glad no cameras were pointed at me or there would be proof it can happen). I don't know where this will go, and I know that letting it go anywhere is against conventional wisdom, but true matches dont happen every day, nor is there such a thing as coincidence. Other than that, I am a guy with a big heart, and lots of love to give. One friend called me codependent, and she is right, I need someone to complete me. I have lots of small issues, and some subscriptions. Some I'm working to resolve, some are part of who I am, and some I am still learning about. Life *is* change, some good, some bad, some just are. We all change, but to stay together in any relationship, be that friend, lover, or mate, we need to be accepting of changes in ourselves and others.