movies, sports, music, concerts, hiking, sleeping, anything new
Music
Variety. Some days I like to hear 50 Cent. Other days I bust out some Shins, Interpol, Gorillaz, MCR, Ben Harper, Sublime. And of course you gotta have your oldies.. like The Police, The Grateful Dead, Rolling Stones, Eric Clapton, Van Morrison, Bob Marley, Jimmy Buffet.. there is a lot more but Im not feeling an essay.
"You put the lime in the coconut.."
"Gorillaz - DARE"
Movies
According to my screenname I am guessing Donnie Darko and The Butterfly Effect are some of my favorites. American Psycho, American Beauty, Pulp Fiction, Reservoir Dogs, Edward Scissorhands, A Clockwork Orange, Reqiuem For A Dream, Big, Road To Perdition, Trainspotting, Garden State, Natural Born Killers, once again theres a lot more... but the list hopefully will never end.
Television
I admit it.. I like Smallville, Scrubs, Sopranos, Simpsons, Family Guy, Sealab 2021..yeah theres probably more again but I dont glue myself in front of the tv anymore.
Books
Just about anything by Stephen King, Dean Koontz or Christopher Nolan.
Heroes
Spiderman, Batman and good ole Frank Castle. Then of course you have Trent Reznor, Kevin Smith and Stephen Spielberg. Followed by my father and finally... myself... because I am after all... A GOD.
About me: Future filmmaker baby, oh yeah! Hopefully I start my future at Full Sail in January.
(UPDATE)Josh's new adventure is to watch over all of us and help guide us down the right path as he did when he was with us.!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Marcus is getting so big, he's 2 months now. He's smiling and laughing now. I remember the day he was born. He was so beautiful and he's getting more handsom by the day. I now understand how your parens felt about you. Having a son is the best thing I have ever experienced. He is my love and I know you are with your parents. I cant explain it. He's perfect, he was just what I needed in my life to be whole. I only wish you were there to meet him because I know you would have loved your nefew. I hope your watching over him. I promise that I will tell him about his uncle joshie. Your memory will not fade with me. I will tell him what a wonderful person you are. I can't tell you how much I miss you. Thank you so much for being my friend for all those years. I am truly blessed to have met someone as wonderful as you.
Hey buddy, had dinner with Tim,Dan, Brad,and Gerry. Talked about some of the old times they had with you and what they are planning for the future. Tim has been in China, which you already know. It was great to see them but it still breaks my heart that you weren't sitting there talking about your future and what film you would have been working on. Oh, by the way thanks for the story of my past life in the mob. You were a one of a kind and I miss you terribly. Dad
and so....last night was so weird, I went to your side of the house to use the bathroom..and I got the strangest weird burny type smell...the same one that I smelled so strongly right after you left us...beside our bed when I laid down for the night trying my best to fall asleep but laying there in absolute shock not believing that you could possibly be gone. I know that smell was you, I've read all about it in books about the afterlife. I know you were doing your best to comfort me and explain to me how sad you were to be gone. I know you still like to 'hang out' in your room I could just feel you and I know for sure you do your best to let me know you are still very much around us and your friends sending us your love. I love you my big beautiful brown eyed son, I surely do! Your mommers
Josh, tomorrow is father's day and I read all of the articles in the paper showing 3 generations of father, son, grandson. I can only wish that it were us sitting there posing for that shot. I will never understand why things played out the way they did in terms of our lives. I used to think about all of the things we would be doing when you finally found your calling in life. I could imagine you as a wonderful father, because your heart was so big when it came to caring for others. I only wish you would have given yourself some of that compassion. God knows you had enough of it to spare. But life has a funny way of throwing unexpected curves and pitfalls into our journey. I only know that no matter how bad I want to stop this pain of missing you in my heart it will never go away. It is something that I will carry to my grave. I thank God for your mother, because she is the only reason that I can see for enduring this profound sense of loss that is constantly with me. I love you son
Happy Birthday my beautiful son...wow...I've lost a year in my earlier post..I was thinking it was your 25th...how the heck did that ever happen...your mom is getting senile!?!..or just so sad her brain isn't registering correctly..you are 26 today...a grown beautiful man gracing the universe somewhere! I wish so much it was here in our world. What have you learned, who are you teaching, what have you seen? I've read a zillion books on the afterlife, so I know the soul never dies and it always watches over the ones that it loves. I know when you are ready you will come back, but maybe not necessarily to this dimension because earth is the hardest plane to come to. I know you pick your parents before you come so thank you for selecting us with all of our flaws, and I'm sorry we weren't always as nurturing as we should have been. Thank you for the awesome love and beauty that you brought to our world for the 22 short years you were here. I believe more than ever that the "good die young" and you stuck around for your dad and I probably longer than you really wanted to hang out. Your dad's book is done, your film is done, I'm working on my book every day, and it will be done. Your own book will go out into the world in your own beautiful words, poems and scripts you will continue to inspire, love, and teach others for as long as time itself goes on. I hear you every day we see you every day "Doesn't he look alot like Josh?" "Joshie would LOVE this movie" Josh would have been all over that" Your soul lives on in our hearts, minds, and of course your friends!
We love you son, Happy Birthday, you gorgeous hunk of wisdom, brains, and beauty! Now blow out all of your candles and make a wish...it will come true!
Son, tomorrow is your 25th B-Day and I cannot believe your not here. I miss you as much and probably more than ever. I have been reading some of your mom's book and wish I could write with a more positive outlook like she does, Fortunately you got your writing talent from her, and unfortunately you got your depressed nature from me. I love you and please don't feel like my pessimistic attitude is in any way your fault. You stuck around and put up with more than most would have to please me and you are my hero
Joshie: Your dad and I had such a scare today your precious cat Keanu was vomiting and spitting up mucus...he couldn't breathe..we were desperately looking for our friend the vet's emergency # since it was Sunday. He kept coughing and wheezing trying so hard to breathe...we were afraid he was a goner..wanting to come and join you...but all of a sudden another big cough and a big ole hairball came up...but he is still acting pretty feeble and not at all like himself....I pray he will be okay...I know you'd prob like him to be by your side...but you know how much we love him...especially your big ole softie dad...I'm hoping you don't need him yet...we just can't face another loss in the month of May buddy...we love you son rain down your love on us all okay, okay...much love your mommers
To my darling: It's Mother's Day again my sweetheart, the third one that has rolled around since you have been away. I say away because you are not gone, only out of visual sight for the time being. Your beautiful orchid that you bought me as my last Mother's Day gift is blooming...right on cue at your direction I am sure. Josh you brought so much joy and love and laughter into our lives and into all of your friends lives as well. We miss your sweet charm, your lopey little walk, your big laughter that came from your chest deep down and genuine..darn..it makes me mad I have to stop typing and look up the correct spelling of words...I always could just yell Josh...how do you spell,,,and you always knew..you were my little walking dictionary! I miss you my darling...so VERY much! I wonder what you would look like on your 26th birthday coming up this May 31st...more handsome than ever I am sure..would you be married by now, would I be a grandma? I play these scenerios out in my mind's eye. I still talk to you every day, I still say good morning as you are the first thing on my mind when I wake up..I still say good night because you are the last thing I think about. I wonder where you are now and what you are learning. I wonder who you are hanging out with and what you are teaching. I know you are still teaching because your destiny is that! I love you son, I admire you sweets, I appreciate all of the lessons you gave me and I know you are sending me love and good wishes on this day that you ALWAYS made so very special for me...I hope your orchid lives on for many more! Love, Mom
I had my baby shower last Saturday and your beautiful mother came. I was so happy to see her again. It was a really good day, spending time with all the people I love. I'm so close to having this baby. I have less than 4 weeks. Can you believe that... Crazy lol. I'm naming him Marcus James and he will be taking my last name. Not to much other than that has been going on in my life. I have grown to have NO life at the moment. I miss you so much, and your going to be an uncle (again) lol. Thank you for the gift!!!! I love you
Hey, sweet angel guy! I haven't written you much, but you know I talk to you EVERY day in my thoughts and you talk to me. I believe every time I am thinking of you...it is really you who are contacting me to remember you! I've read about 100+ books on the afterlife and EVERY single one of them reinforces the fact that though the body may fade away the spirit lives forever and that we share many lifetimes together within our circle. I know that to be true. I went to a psychic who told me that in a former life I had been the one who left you and you had to continue on without me ...this time to complete our karma you left me and I have to find a way to continue my life without you. Karma sucks my beautiful son! But she said you were giving me a purple heart for courage because you are so proud of your dad and I for continuing on with your mission! We WILL let the world know how awesome your talent was, and we will share your lessons to help others...it is OUR KARMA.
Mom and I were watching Smallville the other night and she had to back up the tape to see an extra that looked like you and had the same habits you had. Made me sad but she told me it was just your way to say that your watching us as well. Miss you Dad
Well Josh, it's my birthday and I'm another year older and another year without you has gone bye. We are going to see Watchmen today and I will imagine that you are sitting beside us giving a frame to frame critique. Love you
hey joshy poo. i was just thinking bout ya. Danny is almost 5 months old, has 2 teeth, and loves mashed potatoes lol. Well, i love and miss you dude, and i think about you everyday. xoxo
I JUST WANTED TO TELL YOU THAT I AM STILL EDITING YOUR BOOK BUT I READ SOME OF YOUR MOTHERS BOOK AND MAKES MINE LOOK PALE IN COMPARISON SO I HOPE YOU CAN HELP ME MAKE MINE WORTHY OF FINISHING. I AM ALSO PUTTING YOUR FILMS TOGETHER ON THE MAC. WISH SO MUCH IT WAS YOU AND ME EDITING OTHER MOVIES INSTEAD OF MY AMATEURISH ATTEMPT. PLEASE MAKE ME STRONG ENOUGH TO DO A GOOD JOB WITH IT. I MISS YOU AS MUCH TODAY AS I DID THE DAY WE LOST YOU SON. YOUR DAD
Today's my big 21st birthday! The day I have been waiting forever. I cant drink though since I have a baby growing inside of me. It sucks but im happy the for the reason I cant drink. The babys moving alot lately. I found out yesterday that im going to be having a baby boy. I can't wait! He's due May 1st.
I love you and miss you! *Think about you everyday*
I just watched a movie, and the main character reminded me a lot of you...he looked like you, especially with the hair cut that u used to rock......i still think about you and miss you everyday! "Maybe we will meet again further down the river, and share what we both discovered"
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