movies, sports, music, concerts, hiking, sleeping, anything new
Music
Variety. Some days I like to hear 50 Cent. Other days I bust out some Shins, Interpol, Gorillaz, MCR, Ben Harper, Sublime. And of course you gotta have your oldies.. like The Police, The Grateful Dead, Rolling Stones, Eric Clapton, Van Morrison, Bob Marley, Jimmy Buffet.. there is a lot more but Im not feeling an essay.
"You put the lime in the coconut.."
"Gorillaz - DARE"
Movies
According to my screenname I am guessing Donnie Darko and The Butterfly Effect are some of my favorites. American Psycho, American Beauty, Pulp Fiction, Reservoir Dogs, Edward Scissorhands, A Clockwork Orange, Reqiuem For A Dream, Big, Road To Perdition, Trainspotting, Garden State, Natural Born Killers, once again theres a lot more... but the list hopefully will never end.
Television
I admit it.. I like Smallville, Scrubs, Sopranos, Simpsons, Family Guy, Sealab 2021..yeah theres probably more again but I dont glue myself in front of the tv anymore.
Books
Just about anything by Stephen King, Dean Koontz or Christopher Nolan.
Heroes
Spiderman, Batman and good ole Frank Castle. Then of course you have Trent Reznor, Kevin Smith and Stephen Spielberg. Followed by my father and finally... myself... because I am after all... A GOD.
About me: Future filmmaker baby, oh yeah! Hopefully I start my future at Full Sail in January.
(UPDATE)Josh's new adventure is to watch over all of us and help guide us down the right path as he did when he was with us.!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Sorry it's been so long since I have written, you know that I think about you every minute of every day. Just don't always know what to say. I've been working on some pretty good sized jobs, so it keeps me worn out most nights. Miss having you helping me. Holidays are just about here and wish I could look forward to them but just not the same without you. Love you forever and waiting for the time when we can be together again. Dad
danny just turned 1 in october, and he's so big. he's already 3 feet tall!
i'm going to school for my associates in business with a concentration in criminal justice. after i get my associates, i'm going for my bachelor's to eventually become a forensic pathologist.
just wanted to come and show some love to you.
love you joshy!
p.s. danny got the CUTEST vintage batman, and spiderman shirts for his birthday. you'd love them <33
Hey Buddy, I've been stuck in a real funk this week. I spend a lot of time in your room listening to your music and wishing that this last 3+ years were a BAD dream. I'm stuck on your book of your life from your perspective and need help. I can't feel you with me and it is hurting badly. Please give me some inspiration. DAD
I write about you almost every day on my blogs on SparkPeople.com. It's a site to help your mommers drop some pounds...I've done great so far since I joined in mid June..that's 24 lbs down..yay mom!
I love you son....I share you with all of my spark friends...I post your pics and tell them how much I love and miss you. You are very much alive in my world son...and I hope I'm alive in yours as well...big hug and big sloppy kiss to you my angel guy! Love....mom
Well, I have been working on my other book that is kind of your life with your point of view, hope you can guide me through with this one. wish I could figure out an alternate ending that left me happy. Dad
Oh, I forget to tell you that I drug your 2 plus years of Beanie Babies out of the garage and decided to catalog them. Wish they were worth half of what we paid back then. Here's a pic of all 200 of them
Hey buddy, just got back from working on Marcy's pooldeck and driveway, remember when you and I originally did the driveway, also since it is next door to our old house it brought back a lot of memories, I'll be there most of the week so I know that you will be on my mind even more than usual, I miss and love you more than ever. Dad
I just wanted to stop by and say Hey! Show you some love <3.
Marcus will be 5 months on Oct 1st. Growing up so fast. Next I know it he will be a teenager . lol Dreading the day! He laughes and smiles all the time now, but im sure you already new that.
Everyone is doing really good. Sara, Chrissy, Amy and Casey are all in school. All the babys are healthy and growing up. There all beautiful. I guess parenthood looks good on us. lol Weird as that sounds.
It's strange how emotions seem to hide in the background until you feel as though you have finally passed that point where things don't hurt as bad anymore. I thought I was getting to that point until today. after I finished work, and was driving down the road, I looked up at your picture that is on my visor and the emotions came out of hiding. I felt as though it was today that I realized that I had lost you. It hit me as hard as it did almost three and a half years ago. I know now that the pain will never go away, it will only hide and wait to remind me how very much I miss you son. Dad
Were back home and I sat on your computer today. Wish you were here to help me get through all the bullshit of figuring out how to get the internet on the laptop. Actually I just wish you were here, period. Miss you much. Dad
Well, I just printed out the book, I think I have gone over it so many times that it isn't funny. I decided that no matter how many times I try to improve it, I will never come close to your brilliance when it comes to writing and expressing your feelings. I need to have someone totally impartial read it and see what they think. I love you. I miss you. I hope you are having the time of your life without all the petty bullshit that goes on down here. Remember that when it is my time to join you , you need to be the one to come to collect me. Look forward to seeing your beautiful face again. Dad
Hey buddy, I was just talking to Andrea online at facebook instant message. always enjoy talking to her. It always makes me fill like you are a third party on the line listening to he conversation. I am waiting for you to instant message me. mom says that the spirits communicate through airwaves so I know that if there is a way it will be you that finds it. I miss all of your stories. I love you. Dad
Your mom and I went to Cameron's mom's memorial yesterday, we set back behind him and his dad. watched Cam sit rubbing his dad's back and it made me cry thinking how you always had your arm around me everywhere we went. miss you sooooo much. Didn't know her but sure wish we would have, she sounded like a special lady who cared deeply about others. Hope you are hugging her now and showing her the ropes. Don't know what this little glitch with my heart is but know that if it were my time you would tell me so that I could prepare. Still things your mom and I need to do and as much as I want to be with you again, need to be here for her. Love you son
Marcus is getting so big, he's 2 months now. He's smiling and laughing now. I remember the day he was born. He was so beautiful and he's getting more handsom by the day. I now understand how your parens felt about you. Having a son is the best thing I have ever experienced. He is my love and I know you are with your parents. I cant explain it. He's perfect, he was just what I needed in my life to be whole. I only wish you were there to meet him because I know you would have loved your nefew. I hope your watching over him. I promise that I will tell him about his uncle joshie. Your memory will not fade with me. I will tell him what a wonderful person you are. I can't tell you how much I miss you. Thank you so much for being my friend for all those years. I am truly blessed to have met someone as wonderful as you.
Hey buddy, had dinner with Tim,Dan, Brad,and Gerry. Talked about some of the old times they had with you and what they are planning for the future. Tim has been in China, which you already know. It was great to see them but it still breaks my heart that you weren't sitting there talking about your future and what film you would have been working on. Oh, by the way thanks for the story of my past life in the mob. You were a one of a kind and I miss you terribly. Dad
and so....last night was so weird, I went to your side of the house to use the bathroom..and I got the strangest weird burny type smell...the same one that I smelled so strongly right after you left us...beside our bed when I laid down for the night trying my best to fall asleep but laying there in absolute shock not believing that you could possibly be gone. I know that smell was you, I've read all about it in books about the afterlife. I know you were doing your best to comfort me and explain to me how sad you were to be gone. I know you still like to 'hang out' in your room I could just feel you and I know for sure you do your best to let me know you are still very much around us and your friends sending us your love. I love you my big beautiful brown eyed son, I surely do! Your mommers
Josh, tomorrow is father's day and I read all of the articles in the paper showing 3 generations of father, son, grandson. I can only wish that it were us sitting there posing for that shot. I will never understand why things played out the way they did in terms of our lives. I used to think about all of the things we would be doing when you finally found your calling in life. I could imagine you as a wonderful father, because your heart was so big when it came to caring for others. I only wish you would have given yourself some of that compassion. God knows you had enough of it to spare. But life has a funny way of throwing unexpected curves and pitfalls into our journey. I only know that no matter how bad I want to stop this pain of missing you in my heart it will never go away. It is something that I will carry to my grave. I thank God for your mother, because she is the only reason that I can see for enduring this profound sense of loss that is constantly with me. I love you son
Happy Birthday my beautiful son...wow...I've lost a year in my earlier post..I was thinking it was your 25th...how the heck did that ever happen...your mom is getting senile!?!..or just so sad her brain isn't registering correctly..you are 26 today...a grown beautiful man gracing the universe somewhere! I wish so much it was here in our world. What have you learned, who are you teaching, what have you seen? I've read a zillion books on the afterlife, so I know the soul never dies and it always watches over the ones that it loves. I know when you are ready you will come back, but maybe not necessarily to this dimension because earth is the hardest plane to come to. I know you pick your parents before you come so thank you for selecting us with all of our flaws, and I'm sorry we weren't always as nurturing as we should have been. Thank you for the awesome love and beauty that you brought to our world for the 22 short years you were here. I believe more than ever that the "good die young" and you stuck around for your dad and I probably longer than you really wanted to hang out. Your dad's book is done, your film is done, I'm working on my book every day, and it will be done. Your own book will go out into the world in your own beautiful words, poems and scripts you will continue to inspire, love, and teach others for as long as time itself goes on. I hear you every day we see you every day "Doesn't he look alot like Josh?" "Joshie would LOVE this movie" Josh would have been all over that" Your soul lives on in our hearts, minds, and of course your friends!
We love you son, Happy Birthday, you gorgeous hunk of wisdom, brains, and beauty! Now blow out all of your candles and make a wish...it will come true!
Son, tomorrow is your 25th B-Day and I cannot believe your not here. I miss you as much and probably more than ever. I have been reading some of your mom's book and wish I could write with a more positive outlook like she does, Fortunately you got your writing talent from her, and unfortunately you got your depressed nature from me. I love you and please don't feel like my pessimistic attitude is in any way your fault. You stuck around and put up with more than most would have to please me and you are my hero
Joshie: Your dad and I had such a scare today your precious cat Keanu was vomiting and spitting up mucus...he couldn't breathe..we were desperately looking for our friend the vet's emergency # since it was Sunday. He kept coughing and wheezing trying so hard to breathe...we were afraid he was a goner..wanting to come and join you...but all of a sudden another big cough and a big ole hairball came up...but he is still acting pretty feeble and not at all like himself....I pray he will be okay...I know you'd prob like him to be by your side...but you know how much we love him...especially your big ole softie dad...I'm hoping you don't need him yet...we just can't face another loss in the month of May buddy...we love you son rain down your love on us all okay, okay...much love your mommers
Love....mom
. lol Dreading the day! He laughes and smiles all the time now, but im sure you already new that. 
