billy Al Bachir

About me:

Hello stranger! So my name is Billy Handika Putra,21 years old, i live in jakarta, i was born in london,i speak english,lil bit german & arabic. Somethin important that u guys must know,i was born as an Arabian Addict! Let me start off by saying, this is my revelation, and these are my thoughts. I am a very confused boy. My life is a continuous roller coaster ride that can never stay on its right tracks. For it is always moving backwards or going down those steep hills we fear. Fear is merely an excuse to get away from somethin..when we know we are strong enough to handle what comes our way. I've learned to over come the paths that have changed my life dramatically and keep the once out of roller coaster ride back to its regular movement. Sometimes I may seem strong.. but I am weak. Maybe the weakest person you'll meet. Don't understand what I mean by that? I wouldn't expect you to. I am a dreamer and I see things different then others. My imagination can be wild..but at least it shows I have dreams. Like the dream of being the first man ever to fly with his bare arms and nothing on his back. Do you ever wonder...where that bird is going that was once staring you in the eyes begging for food? Could you imagine how much freedom they have? They get to go anywhere in the world without being told no or being held back. They are free. But, as humans.. we are not free. We have laws, ways of living, rules, parents, guardians telling us what to do and what we cant do. We'll never be free for we'll always have someone breathing down our backs. I complain a lot and I can never seem to shut up. Its like they say.. some can hold their tongues..but many let their tongues drop. Thats why its hard for me to automatically trust someone. You can give me your words of sympathy and say you will never betray me.. but seriously before you go on yelling that rubbish..think about what time you're in right now and if you're not going to use it against that person later on in life. Feelings aren't meant to be toyed with. The heart is a fragile thing. I'm not the type to hold a grudge for I easily forgive but keep in mind I will NEVER forget. When all seems bad, I'm learning to go along with being optimistic. Seeing the good in everything and not the bad that keeps you pessimistic. For wasting your time on depression doesn't let you experience the greatness waiting for you in life. I am constantly laughing at ridiculous things for my sense of humor is above average. I can be extremely immature and act like a complete dork that's still the age of 10 but it is who I am and I wont let anyone phase me. You are who you are and this is who I am. Don't like it? I could care less about trying to improve myself for anyone but me, myself, and I. You give me respect, I respect you just as much. I do not judge someone on how they appear or if they're up to date on today's fashion and all that stupid none sense that everyone feels the need to judge someone on. I am about attitude :)