Larissa S

About me:

Most of you know me personally.. Or at least think you do. For my oldest friends, I say this - Some of you I havent seen or spoken to in a long time. I havent forgotten any of you, I say that with sincerity. I may not have always been easy to understand, or figure out. I dont usually overflow with emotion, and I certainly dont consiously wear my heart on my sleeve.
That being said, maybe you never knew what you meant to me. Maybe I forgot to tell you or say thank you. I have been more aware of myself and my faults of late. How I expect my feelings to just be known and understood.. and am confused when they arent. When I have tried to express myself its hardly ever been in the right way. Ive allowed Anger, frustraightion and self doubt to build to over flowing always holding it in until its just to much.. and that never comes out in any good way. I have screamed and fought with some of you, as well as cried, laughed , sang and danced.. I have hurt more then a few of you with cold words intentionally or not. My soul is not all dark. You have seen me at my best and worst..
I ask for forgivness. From all of you. Im sorry even if I never did anything wrong by you - because at the very least, I could have done more as a friend - called, written or visited. Im not quite sure how, or if I can make it up to any of you. But Im willing to try even if it is impossible.
What can I add for people who dont know me in person or just met me? I enjoy writing , love animals, have an appriciation for nature. Ive always felt a little adrift and am still trying to find a direction in life. Hoping I Find it before its too late to follow where ever it leads.
I was in a relationship for the better part of a decade. Was engaged, but never married.No Kids just cats - Zelda 10, Link 8, and Church 2 1/2. I love them like they were children, even through I might not pay as much attention to them as they would like. I am not looking for anyone, Im not interested in being "fixed" or "hooked" up with anyone, so dont ask,or suggest - just leave me be. I gave my heart and theres no take backs .
I belong to a Ghost hunting group here in Buffalo, I formerly belonged to one in Massachusettes. I was also a member and participated in NERO - live action Roleplay and planning on getting into Dagohir soon. Video game obsession for roleplaying games like FinalFantasy, Arc the Lad, .Hack etc. World of Warcraft Zombie.