Ash Shaw

About me:

"Burning feathers, not an angel - Heaven's closed, Hell's sold out." (Sonata Arctica, "Broken")

I never claimed to wear a fucking halo.

I am not perfect; I am human.

"I must not fear. Fear is the mind-killer. Fear is the little-death that brings total obliteration. I will face my fear. I will permit it to pass over me and through me. And when it has gone past I will turn the inner eye to see its path. Where the fear has gone there will be nothing. Only I will remain." - Frank Herbert, Dune.

I am coming out of the throes of a long and painful strife, no longer pinioned and stifled by that which I should have changed long ago: for those of you who know me, I seek no condolences, for all my choices have been my own choices, and I will feel no regrets, only hope for a many-colored future.

I am positive and working towards positive goals in my life.

I hate stereotypes. I would appreciate them not being used on me. I am in no cliques, nor will ever choose to be. I am me, and I will only be me; your opinion will not change it. The only person with the ability or choice to change me is me.
If anything I am me. A little lust, a little love, a little dark, a little glitter, a little gothic, a little romantic, a little victorian, a little metal, a little apathy, a little hate, a little pain. And in the end, I'll have no regrets, and I will do it all over again.

I'm a fantasy artist and a writer, a doom-thinker on occasions. I love art, literature, sex, music. I have affections for handcuffs, chains, whips, and electricity. I'm very into music of many types, but mostly metal (heavy and power metal mostly), opera, and folk music. I like weaponry, razor blades, and candle wax. Kilts are hot if you have the legs for them. Bite me right and I might love you.

I am loyal. I am honest. I have learned to my own pathetic demise that these things are rare in others, so I value them.

I despise: cheaters, liars, abusers, hypocrites. Fuck me over, I ignore you. Fuck my friends over, and I am much more inclined to hurt you.

Quotes:

"Let's ban Humans. They all suck anyway."

"There are plenty of people I'd run a stop sign for, providing they were in the intersection at the time."

"The web is a dominatrix. Everywhere I turn, I see little buttons ordering me to submit."

"Semi-automatic weaponry is my God-given right."

"Don't piss me off. I'm running out of places to hide the bodies."

"Truly seeing beauty is the ability to see it even in the coming doom. Dancing the last dance while the walls are crumbling around you."

"Never knock on Death's door! Ring the bell and run away! Death really hates that."

"Do not meddle in the affairs of dragons, for thou art crunchy and taste good with ketchup."

"The world's only useful point and click interface is a .44 magnum."

"I will never understand the attraction men have to toothpicks with watermellons surgically attached to their chests."

"The tower in the Tarot is the symbol of destruction. The tower is distinctly phallic. This must be the reason men are so destructive." -Lindsay Archer, loosely paraphrased by me

"To love at all is to be vulnerable. Love anything, and your heart will certainly be wrung and possibly broken. If you want to make sure of keeping it intact, you must give your heart to no one, not even to an animal. Wrap it carefully round with hobbies and little luxuries; avoid all entanglements; lock it up safe in the casket or coffin of your selfishness. But in that casket- safe, dark, motionless, airless--it will change. It will not be broken; it will become unbreakable, impenetrable, irredeemable. (C.S. Lewis)

"Everyone is a moon, and has a dark side which he never shows to anyone." (Mark Twain)

"Religion is a byproduct of fear. For much of human history, it may have been a necessary evil, but why was it more evil than necessary? Isn't killing people in the name of God a pretty good definition of insanity?"(Arthur C. Clarke)

I became insane, with long intervals of horrible sanity." (Edgar Allen Poe)

"Suicide is man's way of telling God, "You can't fire me - I quit." " (Bill Maher)

"I'm glad some people have that faith. I don't have that faith. If there is a God, a caring God, then we have to figure he's done an extraordinary job of making a very cruel world." (Dave Matthews)

"The most important things are the hardest things to say. They are the things you get ashamed of because words diminish your feelings - words shrink things that seem timeless when they are in your head to no more than living size when they are brought out." (Stephen King)

"The best thing one can do when it's raining is to let it rain." (Henry Wadsworth Longfellow)

"My view is that if there is no evidence for it, then forget about it. An agnostic is somebody who doesn't believe in something until there is evidence for it, so I'm agnostic." (Carl Sagan)

The Dirty Little Secret Deliberate Gentle Sex Master (DGSM) Innocent but fundamentally sexual, like the word "finger". You are the Dirty Little Secret. Few women have the confidence for sex mastery, and among nice girls, like you, it's almost unheard of. So congratulations. You've had plenty of adventures, but you've remained a kind, thoughtful person. Your friends appreciate your exploits. They even live vicariously through you. You seek pleasure, but you're not irresponsible. You are organized and cautious, and you choose your lovers wisely. One, you don't like dirtbags. And two, you like to maintain control. Or at least lose it selectively. You might notice that older men single you out. They have an eye for your sensual nature. Take it as a compliment. You enjoy making people happy, and it's inevitable that many guys will fall harder for you than you for them. You're not completely comfortable in a serious, long-term relationship right now. Our guess is that the key to extended happiness will be finding a responsible, but kinky, mate.