Jenny !Verstorbene? I want the Dead Lovers of the world to hear our Laughter, and grow sad. I want a breath of our Passion to stir their dust... To wake their ashes into pain. Posted 5 hours ago view more
The Name Ish Jennifer, but I go by a few other nicknames.
[Jenny, Jenno, Jenner, etc.]
Talk To me,
I'm a Junior at LVHS,
I left AJROTC as a Platoon SrGt/ SrgT 1st Class
I'm also in orchestra. I love my Viola.
Been through a lot with the people in my class..
I love music,
Singing and Dancing, Even though no one hears/sees it..
Colorful things catch my attention GREATLY
If its shiny I like it.
My memory is pretty shitty, So apologies in advance.
The months are flying by so quickly nowadays its scarey...
I love being Affectionate, and being Lubbed on,
I'm very affectionate towards my Friends.
I love dreaming,
Cause all I do is sleep.
I dont fear death,
Its not like itll never come.
Its like.... You can fuck and never get AIDS,
But you can't live without Dying.
.....
I Hate surprises.
Love Spontanuity,
Love anyone who can show me a good time.
Hate Deceit.
Love my Friends,
Love my Family,
Love my Lego's
And,
Love every second Im outta this hell hole.
Vegas is No Fun whatsoever,
I wanna live where its more green that it is grey.
Im an ok person.
Nothing too spectacular.
My moods Change constantly,
Not like I have an extra personality to me though.
&& Idk what else,
Fuck with me, or any of my 'Circle'
Then I'll def. fuck with you...
I'm bent on causing a great amount of chaos to few and Id like to prevent or hold off any Horrific events as long as possible...
Piece together the words:
JORDAN
ON [&Engaged] :
07/28/07 ~ 09/20/08
11/25/08 ~ 6/22/09 ~ ....
...Can't even keep track of all the Days anymore.
He Means Everything To Me!
He Always has a Place in my heart...
&&I always miss him .
But Times like these, We need to be strong
Pissed off and impatient At the Current Situation.
(as always)
All the small things....
The "moments" & the Inside jokes..
We will be together forever,
And thats the TRUTH.
;;CheeseandBrains,
;;Peas&&Carrots.
;;"I'll Keep you warm."
........
I Love You.
To Be Continued.....
Number 1?
(Written by meee)
I know I'm not the only one,
But can I be your Number one?
I wish I knew why you're the one
But Please, Can I be your number one?
How do I keep up with something I never see,
Is it possible to leap up to see?
Cause, it's more than I can process,
This time I can't process--
Who made you their Number One?
Can't help you wake up,
Why can't we just make up?
No need to break up..
Can't help it babe, I can't just wake up.
That's for my Number one,
Too bad I'm not truly your's.
I know I'm not the only one,
But how can I keep up with someone I can't beat?
And all this data, I can't process,
Why don't you wake up?
Babe, it's not time to break up, But babe--
Please just wake up?
It's lonely being the only one,
Knowing I'm not your Number one.
Babe, I can't process that there's someone to beat.
Cause I'm the one that can't wake up,
Not warmed up to Number One..
♥
!~~~~~~~~~~~RanDom ShiT,~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~!
"Never say forever cuz forever isnt real...forevers what you think, and forevers what you feel...And if you say forever, please promise that you'll try...But never say forever, cuz forever makes me cry..."
February
My home shrinking in the distance. (it's just my time to leave. it's not the time to cry.)
I'm leaving but I'll return (did you think before we got it)
Every time you breathe I hope you think of me.
Those are the words you told me, told me.
No question. Why I have to leave. (I think it's time to leave)
One Reason, only for a dream. (I think of what I'll see)
This moment feels like destiny. (I want to tell you why.)
Won't you tell me, tell me.
You want me to always remember.
I promise I always will.
You'll watch and you'll wait for my return.
I promise I'm coming home.
For all the lonely nights when you're not feeling alive.
Look towards a midnight sky and wait for sunrise.
This is the life we live the only one that we know.
It seems to never end, never end.
You want me to always remember.
I promise I always will.
You'll watch and you'll wait for my return.
I promise I'm coming home.
You know that I can't resist this. (It's not the time to grieve. It's not the last good bye.)
I'm destined for roads unknown. (did you think before we go it)
Every time you breathe I hope you think of me.
Those are the words you told me, told me.
So when will it end?
When will it end?
When will it end?
When will it end?
Sometimes I don't know where I am, where I'll be.
Feels like I'm so far, far away, far away from home.
Things Aren't So Beautiful Now [Part 2]
Scene begins as a telephone rings.
Chokes a gasp at the awful news it brings.
A phone call she's been avoiding.
She knows he's reached the end.
Hooked up to the respirator.
It breaths life into my callused lungs.
My heart beats getting fainter.
I know my time has come.
It's getting colder been trying to show her that I'm not the one
to be there beside her now I'm crossing over
can no one console her? alone she'll remain
with no way to end this pain.
Now I realize the things that I, (All of the things that I wanted in this world)
the things that I've done to you (What have I done to you)
Why you gave your love with all your heart. (Hands went way to fast)
With all that a heart could give.
Intentions that you'll never know
the reason why I have to lead astray
I gave you a life time of pain and remorse
(Mistakes that were never yours)
The wrong in my life can never be right.
(It flashes before my eyes)
[Spoken:]
(How did he come to this,
His mind is working harder then ever before,
Thousands of thoughts in seconds,
His last thoughts were of her...
And how he and he alone had destroyed the once
vibrant spirit he had inherited so deeply.
The last pain he had ever caused is to the only
woman that had ever loved him..)
Bright light is calling me upward. (All alone)
I follow and leave you below (A ghost for now)
Now you're all alone. (All alone)
And I leave you with nobody by your side. (A ghost for now)
Not to hurt you ever again (All alone)
Never break your spirit for me. (A ghost for now)
Now I'm all alone. (All alone)
Still cherish the things that you have given to me. (A ghost for now)
Bright light is calling me upward (All alone)
I follow and leave you below (A ghost for now)
Hold Me Down
I found a letter that said:
"I'm sorry that you were asleep when I wrote these words down,"
You'd think I'd ought to be used to that by now.
Save for a few of those late night episodes,
Missed opportunities, and "I Don't Cares,"
There's not a lot that I feel obliged to share or talk about.
I'll have my brother stop by this Saturday to pick up my things,
Just make sure you're not there.
This may sound bad, and don't take it the wrong way..
I love you, however,
You hold me down
You're the echoes of my everything,
You're the emptiness the whole world sings at night.
You're the laziness of afternoon,
You're the reason why I burst and why I bloom.
How will I break the news to you?
Cancel our dinner with Max and Coraline,
feed Jacky's gerbil and try to stay clean.
We'll talk it over after I've had some time alone to sort it out.
You hold me down
You're the echoes of my everything,
You're the emptiness the whole world sings at night.
You're the laziness of afternoon,
You're the reason why I burst and why I bloom.
You're the leaky sink of sentiment,
You're the failed attempts I never could forget.
You're the metaphors I can't create to comprehend this curse that I call love..
How will I break the news to you?
I Love this boy with all my heart.......
Your EQ is 147
50 or less: Thanks for answering honestly. Now get yourself a shrink, quick!
51-70: When it comes to understanding human emotions, you'd have better luck understanding Chinese.
71-90: You've got more emotional intelligence than the average frat boy. Barely.
91-110: You're average. It's easy to predict how you'll react to things. But anyone could have guessed that.
111-130: You usually have it going on emotionally, but roadblocks tend to land you on your butt.
131-150: You are remarkable when it comes to relating with others. Only the biggest losers get under your skin.
150+: Two possibilities - you've either out "Dr. Phil-ed" Dr. Phil... or you're a dirty liar.
"Ill call the bluff. There aint no sleep tonight. Lets get roughed up. Ill save ur light. Ill die for u."
------Removed:07/27/07
"Raining Is Not When Heaven Descends It's Tears To Us.... Its When The Tears We've Sent To Them Are Sent Back."
------Removed:08/01/07
"Listening To The Nothingness Of Air Thats Building Up Inside Then Blowing Out And The Statics Of Our Own Life's False Fabrications......."
------Removed:8/25/07
"Don't Tell Me That I Am Not The Best Form Of Sin For I Have Felt All Seven And Still Live With Purity. I'm Sin In It's Own Divine."
------Removed:9/3/07
"There once was a man who lived with a duck. The goats all ran by and he gave them a-- pluck of the grass that grew in the front, the girl came over to show him her-- blunt conversation so wuuuuttt the FUCK?"
------Removed:9/8/07
------Icons up 'Til 10/10/07
"They asked if I wanted to live it down and I said, "No, I'll just live a god damned lie. There is no living down... 'til you're dead that is..." ..Living.Death's.Ultimate.Lie..."
------Removed:11/02/07
"No one knows you better then yourself. Who's my other half...?"
------Removed:11/10/07
"Other ppl may be able to cheer you up, but it's up to your own self to be happy. If your miserable for such a long period of time then that's your own fault... [you can't always depend on other ppl, So why depend that much at all?]"
------Removed:12/01/07
"Anger is only Depression without Enthusiasm. And Frustation is like Anger, right? I guess I'm Just always Frustrated, If not Apathetic."
------Removed:12/20/07
"Wisdom is established with time, The young and foolish grow into wise seniors. One born with wisdom dies early. One who is never blessed with wisdom brings misfortune to event. [???]"
------Removed:01/04/08
"You turn away from me in my own dreams. Is it a sign that you've truly given up on me?"
------Removed:01/09/08
"Shove that sympathy you had for me down your own throat. I know you never meant it."
------Removed:01/26/08
"Take it, like Pen To Paper."
------Removed:03/08/08
"I'm my own worst enemy, I'm my own best ally. I can only give myself full trust and consent, no one else. I can decieve myself, and beat my own self up for it. I'm everything I want, and Everything I dont need. I cant stand, but can also tolerate myself."
------Removed:04/06/08
"I wish I knew what this Sickness felt like, I wish I knew what it was like to be Dead. I wish could say that I have felt at least one of the two. But I dont exactly think Id be Lying."
------Romoved:04/14/08
?? When most famous people die, they are remembered for what they did. People executed for what they did are only reminders. When I die I'll only be the reminder of what was; not remembered for what all I did. ??
?? If You Smiled At Me In Your Sleep, Leave All The Dreaming To Me, Turn Out The Light. I've Got To Find The Reason To Believe In, My Reason To Leave It. S&B ??
"To all the Birds in the world! Fly High and Free and Try Not to Die..."
"Was It Worth It In The End?." "It seems like things are getting better, It seems like we cant catch a break." "My imagination keeps me going cuz im at a dead stop in real life." "Ich werde immer lieben Sie. Ich verpasse Sie." "Ich werde immer lieben und werde Sie verpassen." "Ich Liebe Sie!!!!" "The truth is that it rains in heaven, All day long." "And she wished that She could Wait forever...." " It stretches past what we can see, but its something we won't ever understand. You can make me realize, but you can't make me believe." "_ich würde für niemanden sterben_ " "The adventures of Giraffe and Zebra: Off to ebay!" "Never say forever cuz forever isnt real...forevers what you think, and forevers what you feel...And if you say forever, please promise that you'll try...But never say forever, cuz forever makes me cry..."
"In A Valiant Anomaly [He is Everything to me,. GRAH! I miss him so much!] ::Er macht mich heiß:: Lol"I Fear The internal Bleeding, but I don't fear The Death, I fear That it's bones are Breaking, And I fear there's nothing left. "
>>"The strange mixture of physical distance and emotional closeness of online affairs is what makes them so intense," says Hara Estroff Marano in "Cyberspace: Love Online" an article on PsychologyToday.com.<<
>>"Depression is just anger without enthusiasm" and such is the case with many self injurers. I never had the will to hurt anyone else, all I could do was to harm myself. All I wanted was to feel the razor blade glide effortlessly across my skin, shedding crimson beads of my own existence.<<
>>"The theory is that self injury releases endorphines(which are your body's natural pain killers) and overtime the body gets addicted to these pain relieving neurotransmitters The impulse to self injure arises form a craving for endorphins."<<
--motto [Nemo me impune lacessit] is often translated as roughly, (None provokes me unpunished)--
haha you wish you had drugs. i more than likely did not do them. was it the back part of a packet??? ugh! we have a test for that class tomorrow don't we?
why are you always wondering about the 'right person' xD
yes its pretty much a costume party....but its gonna be big. its not those average 'cousin birthday' type thing. we already spent 2k mostly on food :O so I wouldn't recommend crashing it lol
awww am sorrry :/ i hurt a lot of people today ahahaa.
SUGAR MUFFIN! you should go read my bulletin about my all girls day idea. love ya
-Adri
nope, i figured this year isn't that special lol.
i'm saving my energy for next year >:)
thank you :D it wasn't too late, lol.
sooo there's goint to be a party tommorrow :D
your not supposed to drink liquor though Dx
but its at the corner of trango and pikes peak...ill explain more later :D
haha you wish you had drugs.
i more than likely did not do them. was it the back part of a packet???
ugh! we have a test for that class tomorrow don't we?
i have no idea what your talking about...what 5 list of laws??? was i absent that day.
did you read what i replied to the comment?
a loooot of people. seriously
well it wasn't ALL for food.
I mean we have a jumper(but trust me its not the average square one), a dj, decorations,liquor! but I don't drink much....so yeah prettty big party
hey whats up y didnt answere my text
why are you always wondering about the 'right person' xD
yes its pretty much a costume party....but its gonna be big. its not those average 'cousin birthday' type thing. we already spent 2k mostly on food :O
so I wouldn't recommend crashing it lol
whyyy not?? :/
sorry for the wait! dam phones acting up!!
so were you serious about going to the party :D
might as well be bumping all the body parts! haha
oh wait....i think theres already a word for that xD
eww! that's hella nasty haha your sick xD
just picture it! haha
haha I had one of those yesterday xD
didn't end up well though....
but I clamed my territory :D wooo!
oh yeah I'm left too :D lefties are they best arnt they? xD
I always have the right person! :D
your just trippin girl xD haha jk
aww you suck :/
...oh well mabey tommorrow then :P
I honestly thought for a second....he was going to rape me.
he had the craziest look in his eye...
and in one moment he said 'ok, lets do this' xDDD
:O
I was watching cops xD
no way! he's like one of my fav. actors! haha
stepbrothers XD
haha luck :D
what kind of movie is that???
no I have the right person :D
ohhh! the craziest thing happened now...i found my cuz secret stash of snacks xD so I'm gonna eat tonight! haha
ugh me too xD people are just stupid and lazy
I like your sence of humor and intellegence. it fasciante's me :P