Brian is playing 7head show THIS SUNDAY!'s Interests
General
Treebeard concrete, chicken wire, spray insulation, paint, speaker, CD Player (he says phrases from the films), etc. 2004
Elizabeth Collection / Artisans Gallery Rochester, NY
My interests include...
God, family, friends, love, life and life to the fullest, music: making it / loving it, recording engineering, art in general, oil painting, film, photography, dreams of traveling
rest in peace, Charlie.
From the Cotes:
I thought you all might enjoy reading these
quotes Whitney culled from Charlie's journals:
October 1st, 2005
What you are is a miracle
that has graced my heart for what reason
I don't know. The way you live is a lyrical
work of art and I can't look away.
November 30, 2004
It’s like blowing in the wind,
the leaves in the fall.
Can’t stop me if I drift
blending into it all.
2002
But let’s face it, we’re all dying a little bit
everyday ‘till we end up back where we
belong. Let’s all dance into our graves...
2005
Certainty is the cage that keeps us safe
from curiosity. I’ve been released from
the cage. I am the songbird
And I am flying for the window,
I know it’s closed but I plan on
breaking through.
2004
It’s funny how we call survival a blessing
when death would be so much greater.
2004
I’m still waiting for the answers to come
falling at my feet. I’ll pick them up and
look them over but all I’m going to see
is that no one knows the answers.
April 28, 2005 “Brown and Blue Eyes”
Brown eyes, if you’re listening in there,
I’m sure you’re aware
that time Is on your side,
but not if you throw it away with regret.
Blue eyes, if I choose to compare,
you’ll notice I stare
You’re everything I needed,
just pull me through I promise that
I’ll beat it.
September 16, 2004 “Wings”
I want to be the passenger
Let someone else drive
because I’ve got enough to do
so girlfriend’s got her wings.
There are better things than
falling in love,
like being loved
and loving someone.
There are better things
than having control:
living out your soul,
find that someone.
2004
It’s such a difficult burden to carry,
but it is also a motivating one.
While cancer usually associates with
a looming of death, it also provokes a
will to live. I am always encouraged by
my parents and girlfriend, who have
been my greatest supporters since my
diagnosis, to fight even when I am
exhausted from treatments because
I am loved.
March 3, 2004 “Death Cab”
Relying on uncertainties, ignoring
statistics. Using just my fingertips
to measure all the distance
between now and when its over.
Revised April 2, 2004 “Look Up”
Look up, it just might surprise you
I think we’ve found your cure.
Don’t know where we’re going-
doesn’t matter,
Why do we need to be so sure?
Where we’re going- it’s a better place
But I can’t say for sure.
Either way, don’t we know it’s for the
better? And there’s no need to
feel so insecure.
The cure is the disease
that brings everyone around you
caring for what they don’t understand.
Helping with the load that’s just too heavy
to carry alone.
It’s like a coffin,
we’re all on a handle.
The second it drops is the one
we all fall down.
Don’t cry now
Don’t cry ever
Dehydration is far to clever,
empties your eyes and leaves you tired...
JOURNAL ENTRY 6/13/2005
Whenever people level with me
and say how hard it must be for me
to endure these harsh treatments,
and that they admire my spirit and
strength, I usually want to reply that
these treatments are hardly brutal
and are all worthwhile if they mean
that I get to spend more time on
earth with all the people I love and
[those who] have shown so much
caring love throughout my life and
this treatment. It is almost
impossible for me to refrain from tears
every time I think about the incredible
amount of love people have shown
me. And if this experience has shown
me anything, I think it’s shown me
that God encourages us all to love in so
many ways, even tragedy. It’s incredible
how many people I don’t even know have
shown me love and kept me in their
prayers. Also, as tacky as it sounds,
I think that if people could give everyone
the love that I have received so gracefully,
then the world would be such a better
place to live in.
JOURNAL ENTRY 9/12/2005
I think, normally, when someone
knows that
they’re going to die, that the typical thing
for everyone else to do is prepare them
for death. I think, in my case, and hopefully
any other faithful person’s, that it’s much
more appropriate to prepare the others who
must deal with the person’s death.
I’ll try to leave you with everything
you need. I’ll be taken care of when I get
where I’m going.
JOURNAL ENTRY 9/24/2005
So I was thinking today, after hearing
about Julie Lynch’s sort of self-realization-
coming to terms with life experience, that
I’m not sure what conclusions I’ve come to
about life. I know I’ve learned a lot of
valuable lessons and such over the past year,
but I don’t feel so wise as the people you read
about or hear about that come to complete
terms with life and death and find profound
understanding. I think what I’ve ultimately
found is that there isn’t much that can be
understood-especially when it comes to what
I’m experiencing now. Maybe that means that
all those other guys were just making stuff up
to sound or feel profound, themselves. Cuz I
have to admit, I think I’d feel a little more
complete, myself, if I could bring myself and
those around me to a new level of
understanding- one that would ultimately allow
us to better cope with all this. Maybe I feel
obligated even...
JOURNAL ENTRY 9/27/2005
* * * last entry
I don’t like feeling pain. I hate showing
my pain even more, though. I don’t like
having people worry about every ache, pain,
or cough I feel. Sure, I am grateful for their
concern, because every once in a while, I do
need help. I just feel like my state of health
affects others states of emotion or happiness.
I wish I could ignore the pain so they wouldn’t
have to see it and worry so much.
Okay, I can’t keep my eyes open any longer.
Cancer spray insulation and oil on panel 2005 for Charlie
Music
Ryan Adams, The Agony Scene, Tori Amos, Fiona Apple, Appleseed Cast, Architecture in Helsinki, Louis Armstrong, As Tall as Lions, At the Drive in, Aunt Betty's, Beastie Boys, The Beatles, Beck, Beirut, Belle and Sebastian, Ben Folds Five, Billy Talent, Bjork, Blackalicious, Blindside, Blonde Redhead, Blenderhead, Brandtson, Bright Eyes, Built to Spill, Burning Airlines, Johnny Cash, Cave In, Centaur, Channels, Chicago, Cibo Matto, Coheed and Cambria, Coldplay, Cool Hand Luke, The Cooper Temple Clause, Crash Rickshaw, The Cure, Dameria, Danielson Famile, Death Cab for Cutie, Demon Hunter, Denison Marrs, Dismemberment Plan, Don Caballero, Drive Like Jehu, Eisley, Elliott, Jeremy Enigk, The Exit, Extol, Failure, Faraquet, Film School, The Fire Theft, Five Star Riot, Flick, Foo Fighters, For Love Not Lisa, Frodus, Fugazi, Further Seems Forever, The Gloria Record, God Lives Underwater, Evan Goodberry, Grandaddy, Green Day, Gregory Paul, Helmet, Hey Mercedes, Hum, Idlewild, The Innocence Mission, Interpol, Iron and Wine, Michael Jackson, Jacobstone, Jars of Clay, Jawbox, Jawbreaker, Jejune, Jets To Brazil, Jimmy Eat World, Jump Little Children, Juno, Damien Jurado, Karate, Keane, Kenna, The Killers, Michael Knott, Led Zeppelin, Les Savy Fav, The Life and Times, Living Sacrafice, Lovedrug, Low, Luna, Luxury, The Mars Volta, Matmos, Mercury Radio Theater, Me Without You, Mending Point, Mineral, The Mint, Mira, Moby, Model Engine, Modest Mouse, Mogwai, Morella's Forest, Morrissey, Mortal, Allie Moss, Mum, Muse, MUTEMATH, MxPx, My Hotel Year, The Myriad, Nirvana, No Doubt, No Knife, Northern Room, Norma Jean, ON, Orbital, Paloma, Pavement, Pedro the Lion, Perfect Circle, Pinback, Pink Floyd, P.O.D, The Police, Poor Old Lu, Portishead, The Postal Service, Primus, Prince, The Prodigy, Project86, The Promise Ring, Puller, Annie Quick, Radiohead, Raft of Dead Monkeys, Rage Against the Machine, Red House Painters, Django Reinhardt, R.E.M., Renouf, Rival Schools, Roadside Monument, Rooney, Saxon Shore, The Sea and Cake, Self, Sensefield, Serene UK, Sevendust, Seven Storey Mountain, Shiner, Sides of the North, Sigur Ros, Silverchair, Frank Sinatra, Smashing Pumpkins, The Smiths, Elliott Smith, Snapcase, Snow Patrol, Soundgarden, Sparta, Speaker, Regina Spektor, Aaron Sprinkle, Jesse Sprinkle, Starflyer59, Stavesacre, Gwen Stefani, Sting, STP, Sufjan Stevens, Sunny Day Real Estate, Superdrag, RJD2, Rosie Thomas, Thrice, Justin Timberlake, Time to Fly, TLC, Tristeza, Two Thirty Eight, U2, Underoath, Unsung Zeros, John Vanderslice, Viva Voce, Tom Waits, Weezer, Wilco, Denison Witmer, and so on...
Movies
Amelie, Bottle Rocket, Rushmore, The Royal Tenenbaums, The Life Aquatic with Steve Zissou, Waiting for Guffman, Best in Show, A Mighty Wind, Fight Club, Swingers, Suicide Kings, Dancer in the Dark, Seven, Red Violin, The Matrix, Star Wars, Lord of the Rings trilogy, High Fidelity, Boondock Saints, Trainspotting, Lost in Translation, Edward Scissorhands, Batman, The Fifth Element, What About Bob, Office Space, Clifford, Being John Malkovich, Garden State, Anchorman, Pieces of April, Back to the Future trilogy, Down With Love, Grosse Pointe Blank, Indiana Jones trilogy, Napolean Dynamite, Dark City, Big Fish, So I Married an Axe Murderer, Donny Darko, Twelve Monkeys, Snatch, Good Will Hunting, Punch Drunk Love, Contact, Leon The Professional, Spirited Away, Traffic, Saving Private Ryan, Braveheart, Memento, The Usual Suspects, Terminator trilogy, Rounders, and more...
Television
The Office (bbc and US versions), Survivor Man, shows about shark attacks, tornadoes, and other shocking and/or exciting things. The Planet Earth Series is grand!
Books
Scripture, The Screwtape Letters (CS Lewis), Mere Christianity (CS Lewis), Disappointment with God - Three questions no one asks aloud (Yancey), Naked (David Sedaris), Telling Yourself the Truth (Backus), The Siren Call of a Dangerous God - Essays in Evangelical Dialectic (Ryan), The 7 Habits of Highly Effective People (Covey), Behind the Glass (Howard Massey), One Flew Over the Cuckoo's Nest (Ken Kesey), Neon Vernacular (Komunyakaa), Burning in Water Drowning in Flame (selected poems Bukowski), The Little Prince (Antoine de Saint Exupéry), How We Are Hungry (Dave Eggers), A Heartbreaking Work of Staggering Genious (Dave Eggers)
Heroes
My Father and Mother, my brothers, my good friends, Charlie Cote' Jr, Charlie Cote' Sr, Chris Lord-Alge, Andy Wallace, J Robbins, Jeremy Enigk, anyone humble and selfless, people who love truly.
ya bmoore my dad said he is unable to sell imagine moore due to the fact that they are only local and dont have a deal with a distributor so its illegal
it's not your birthday here yet... but it is officially your birthday on that side of the country... HAPPY BIRTHDAY! i hope you have a great day. wish i could spend it hanging out with you.
Saturday, September 13th* following the Saturday night Northgate service [about 7:30pm]
held at Manda & Mike McGrath's house 7150 Townline Road Bergen NY 14416
lots of yummy food even more amazing people
directions: turn left out of northgate parking lot travel about 5 miles turn right onto route 262 townline road travel almost 5 more miles house is on the right [if you drive by the high school, you've gone a tooch too far]
*technically speaking September 13th is still summer.
