Yeyo Mondragon

HEROES DONT REALLY CHANGE BUT IN MY LIFE I SEEM TO GAIN MORE AND MORE WITH EVERY NEW EXPERIENCE I GO THRU. CHAZ LAMORIE WILL FOREVER BE A HERO TO ME AND JUST THE THOUGHT OF HIM NOT BEING HERE WITH ME NOW IS HARD TO SWALLOW, ITS RARE TO HAVE SOMEONE SO CLOSE TO YOU THAT EVERY THING YOU SAY IS AN INSIDE JOKE. AND EVERYTHING YOU DONT SAY MEANS SOMETHING. I MISS MY BOY IN A WAY I HAVE NEVER MISSED ANOTHER HUMAN IN LIFE. ITS BEEN NEARLY 5 YEARS SINCE HIS PASSING AND EVERY DAY IM REMINDED OF HIM IN A MILLION WAYS AND ITS LIKE HAVING YOUR HEART RIPPED OUT OF YOUR BODY AND THROWN IN A VOLCANO OF ACID. I CAN SAY WE HAD A BLOOD BROTHER RELATIONSHIP AND I WOULD HAVE TOOKEN HIS PLACE AT THE TIME FOR HIM TO STAY HERE IF I HAD THE CHOICE WITHOUT ANY HESITATION.. AND I KNOW HE WOULD HAVE DONE THE SAME FOR ME AND WHO KNOWS MAYBE GOD SPOKE TO CHAZ AND GAVE HIM THE CHOICE BETWEEN HIM OR ME AND HE TOOK IT. FUCKS ME UP EVERYDAY. I WILL MAKE SOMETHING OF MYSELF AND ALL THE CRAZY DREAMS ME AND HIM HAD WILL BE FULFILLED EVENTUALLY. MY FATHER IS A ROCK FOR ME. NEVER HAS HE LOST HOPE IN HIS SON WHEN SO MANY OTHERS HAVE. TIME AFTER TIME IVE PUT HIM IN THE POSITION WHERE MOST PEOPLE WOULD HAVE BEEN FORCED TO GIVE UP AND WASH THERE HANDS WITH ME. ITS UNBELIEVABLE TO THINK HOW SUPPOTING HE IS TO ME. WHEN I RETURNED TO PRISON ON A VIOLATION IN JANUARY I COULDNT SHAKE THE FEELINGS THAT I HAD OF BEING NOTHING BUT A HUGE DISAPPOINTMENT TO HIM. I COULDNT SLEEP CAUSE I FELT LIKE I LET HIM DOWN AND EVERY ONE ELSE THAT EVER TOOK A CHANCE ON MY ASS. MY FATHERS A HERO AND HAS BEEN FOR ME FOR A LONG TIME... HE IS A HERO TO MANY OTHERS AS WELL AND HIS INFLUENCE HAS CHANGED MY LIFE AND MADE ME THE GROWN ASS MAN THAT I AM TODAY. MY FAMILY IS INCREDIBLE. I HAVE SOME OF THE MOST RESILIENT AND QUIETLY STRONG WOMEN ON EARTH IN MY LIFE. MY MOM SEEMS LIKE A KITTEN BUT SHE HAS BEEN THRU MORE IN HER LIFE THEN MOST PEOPLE COULD IMAGINE. SHE IS A BEAUTIFUL STRONG FORCE AND I AM GLAD TO HAVE SUCH AN INCREDIBLE WOMAN AS A MOTHER. MY ELDEST SISTER HAS ALWAYS WANTED THE BEST FOR ME AND DOESNT ACCEPT ANYTHING BUT WHAT SHE KNOWS IS THE BEST FROM HER LIL BROTHER AND I LOVE HER FOR THAT BECAUSE SHE HAS BEEN A DRIVING FORCE IN MY LIFE AND GIVEN ME THE CONFIDENCE IN MYSELF THAT I NEEDED TO BECOME WHO I AM... AND SHE SAW IT IN ME AT A VERY YOUNG AGE WHEN I DIDNT SEE IT IN MYSELF. I IDOLIZED LOCAL D BOYS AND HUSTLERS AND MADE THE DECISION TO GO THAT ROUTE JUST TO EAT WHEN I WAS SURROUNDED BY PEOPLE IN MY OWN FAMILY WHO WERE IDEAL ROLE MODELS. I LOVE HER FOR TRYING TO REACH ME AT A YOUNG AGE AND IM GRATEFUL LOOKING BACK. LEAH IS MY HEART. CANT REALLY EXPLAIN IT MUCH BETTER THEN TO SAY SHE IS THE CLOSEST PERSON TO ME AND IM PRIVILIGED TO CALL HER MY SISTER. SHE IS ONE OF THOSE PEOPLE THAT SNEAK UP ON YOU AND JUST DO IT ALL RIGHT. SELFLESS, THOUGHTFUL, WISE, HELPFUL, A SHOULDER TO CRY ON OR AN EAR TO LISTEN. SHE IS A HERO TO ME BECAUSE WE ARE SO ALIKE BUT SHE WAS BLESSED WITH BETTER DECISION MAKING SKILLS THEN MYSELF. IN THE PAST 2 YEARS I HAVE SAT BACK AND WATCHED HER EVOLVE FROM A YOUNG GIRL INTO A INDEPENDENT, STRONG AND UNCOMPROMISING WOMAN. SHE WILL SHINE AND ALL THOSE PEOPLE WHO DID NOTHING BUT BRING HER DOWN AND TRY TO PREVENT THE EVOLUTION OF A MONDRAGON YOU WILL BE OVERSHADOWED AND EVENTUALLY FORGOTTEN. BEING YOUR BROTHER MAKES ME PROUD AND YOU ARE A HERO FOR THAT