he thinks im strange but likes me anyway, i think hes to good to be true- but im not afraid to try anymore. Everyone deserves LOVE.Mood: always STARVING!
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I'm an excited mother-to-be, dating an amazing guy who i am head-over-heels for all the right reasons and none of the wrong ones. He touches me inside and out with his natural personality traits and inspires so much in me words can't possibly describe all of it... He is my angel, my superman, my lover, and my confidant-
^_^
love you babe...
I just want TRUTH, HONESTY, and LOVE to make my life worth the effort.
I'm turning 21 in 1 month, (woot), im not a big party/drink person but i LOVE to dance, its so freeing. Im the eldest of 9 (no lie!) and i dont get to see any of them very often. Uh, im kinda crazy, have this 'want to know everything' attitude which most people take for a 'know-it-all' attitude...Though i am pretty smart huh? lol
I like people who can get me to loosen up and go with the flow. I don't like large groups of people focusing on me, but I'm not afraid to speak my mind or stand up for what i believe in. Ill argue with you till the end of time if its important enough to me, but mostly i just like debating with people and exchanging ideas. Its rare and a treat when someone sticks it out long enough to change my view of something.
....and I'm a sugarholic vegetarian who doesn't eat eggs. I crave Boba, love Starbucks, and have an odd affinity for sour power strips and chinese candy.
and well...i guess I'm just a crazy me, who treats my friends as family and secretly loves to be cuddled. ^_^
I wanna....
go drive around the city for the hell of it
play hide and seek in wal-mart at 2 am
Late night movies and cuddles
Walking aimlessly when im frustrated/ bored
I LOVE TO ORGANIZE THINGS, part of my o.c.d complex and SOMETIMES MY A.D.D. KICKS IN and ill go online finding meanings and dictionary explanations of words. I love definitions for things that your hard pressed to explain. It makes me think of all the ways there are to express ones self. I SOMETIMES HAVE TROUBLE WITH WORDS, in an unexpected situation or when im very emotional i tend to stutter a lot trying to piece the words together in such a way another person might stand a chance of seeing it how i do WITHOUT BIAS.
IM ALWAYS WORRIED about everything, everyone i know, every problem that exists in my mind is another obstacle to overcome before i can relax. I know LIFE IS TO SHORT to be bothered by everything, but to many people suffer to ignore the problems not directly related to you. This is how i see the world, and this is how the world drives me mad. It throws its problems at me, with no solution and very few willing to try anyway. Its mind boggling, to want to hate people, but in AN ATTEMPT AT INNER WISDOM i see that we are all humans and flawed and to accept another's flaws means they can accept yours easier... you never understand another's plight until you undertake the same burden. Its not seeing things how they do, its living the life they live and knowing that UNDER THE SAME CONDITIONS, with the same life and history that you would have MADE THE SAME CHOICES AND MISTAKES. After you view everyone's choices as a result of life, its harder to hate people you don't know, to hurt the ones you do, and to ignore the ones you never will or want to meet.)))
..My accomplishments:..
I just finished my Food Handlers Course and now have my certificate! Ive been TABC certified (though it recently expired) and won 2nd place in the Regional Tennis Competition in High School.
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..Goals:..
..join the peace core,..
I still want to skydive, learn to defend my body in addition to my thoughts, become an artist of food, and help those people we've all shunned at some point in our lives. But in addition to these goals, i came to realize the difference of who i was when i started this list and now.
I still want that beauty and soul awakening feeling of travel, awe inspiring views, witnessing something majestic, acomplishment, failure, and love of new things in new places. Still, ive come to realize i became attached to the daily life i hold and when offered an out, came to see it wasnt as easy as packing what would fit in my car and taking off anymore. My time of emo and angsty "i want out of this city" has transitioned into a more matured person and maybe a more clingy one too.
The two saddest truths in life: There is no Santa Claus, and sex is not love.
achieve black belt status,
run my own restaurant/ bakery,
open a homeless shelter/ abuse relief home,
own my own house,
sky dive,
scuba dive,
hang glide,
mountain/ rock climb,
earn a masters degree,
travel around the world.....
PLAYLIST.COM ~~ ChildOfPortugal for my music playlists.
5 FINGER DEATH PUNCH
(the bleeding )
10 YEARS
(wasteland)
AEROSMITH
(dude looks like a lady, dont wanna miss a thing, janie's got a gun)
AKON
(i wanna love you, lonely)
ALANIS MORISSETTE
(i'm a bitch, head over feet, you learn, hand in my pocket)
ALL-4-ONE
(i swear, i can love you like that )
ALICE DEEJAY
(better off alone )
AMBER
(sexual [li da di])
A PERFECT CIRCLE
(annihilation, cry for you, judith, weak and powerless, counting bodies like sheep)
AVENGED SEVENFOLD
(bat country)
AVRIL LAVINE
(first 2 cds)
BEYONCE
(irreplacable)
BILLY IDOL
(in the midnight hour)
BJORK
(army of me, {with tori amos} wrapped around your finger)
BLINK 182
(i miss you, all the small things)
BLUE MAN GROUP
(sing along)
BLUE OCTOBER
(hate me, calling you, into the ocean )
BLUE OYSTER CULT
(im burning for you)
BLUR
(song 2)
BODYROCKERS
(i like the way you move)
BON JOVI
(livin on a prayer, you give love a bad name)
BOYS 2 MEN
(one sweet day w/ mariah carey)
BRAD PAISLEY
(whiskey lullaby)
BREAKING BENJAMEN
(so cold, dance with the devil, diary of jane, forget it)
BRITNEY SPEARS
( piece of me)
BROWN BOY
(i can be your superman)
BUSH
(machinehead)
CARDIGANS..(love fool)
CHARLIE DANIELS BAND
(devil went downt o georgia)
CHEAP TRICK
(i want you to want me)
CHESTER BENNINGTON
(system)
CHEVELLE
(send the pain below, the clincher)
CRADLE OF FILTH
(nymphetamime)
CRANBERRIES
(zombie, just my imagination)
CREED
(with arms wide open, lullaby, dont stop dancing, my sacrifice, higher)
DA BUZZ
(wanna be with me, wonder where you are, alive)
DAFT PUNK
(technologic)
DAVID DRAIMAN
(forsaken)
DAVID GREY
(sail away )
DEAD OR ALIVE
(you spin me right round)
DEFTONES
(change)
DESTINYS CHILD
(say my name, jumpin jumpin)
DIANNA ROSS & SUPREMES
(stop! in the name of love, where did our love go)
DIDO-
(white flag, life for rent, thank you)
DIRTY VEGAS
(days go by)
DISCOBLASTER
(fading)
DISTURBED
(guarded, down with the sickness)
DIXIE CHICKS
(you were mine, travelin solider, i can love you better, not ready to make nice)
DJ SAMMY
(castles in the sky, take my breath away, were in heaven, miracle)
DJ SHADOW
(Six Days --feat. Mos Def)
DROWNING POOL
( bodies, tear away)
EIFELE 65
(Im Blue)
ENYA-
(only time, wild child, china roses , only if, memory of trees, one by one)
EVANESCENCE
(Fallen CD, call me when your sober)
EVANS BLUE
(over, cold, dark that follows, stop and say you love me, possesion, the promises and the threat)
FAITH HILL
(breathe, this kiss, strawberry wine, its your love w/ tim mcgraw)
FALL OUT BOY
(dance dance)
FORT MINER
(Where'd you go?)
FRANS FERDINAND
(take me out)
GARBAGE
( why do you love me)
GLORIA GAYNOR
(i will survive, its raining men)
GREEN DAY
(holiday, boulevard of broken dreams)
GOO GOO DOLLS
( iris)
HILLARY DUFF
(supergirl, fly, with love, come clean )
HIM
(wings of a butterfly)
HOOBASTANK
(running away, the reason)
HOT ACTION COP
(fever fot the flava)
INCUBUS
(anna molly,pardon me)
IN-GRID
(you promised me)
INSANE CLOWN POSSE
(please dont hate me, boogie man, dating game)
JAY GORDON
(slept so long)
JEWEL KILCHER
(you were meant for me, kiss me, time after time)
JOAN ARMATRADING
(weakness in me)
JOAN JETT
(bsd reputation)
JOSIE & THE PUSSYCATS
(pretend to be nice)
JUSTIN TIMBERLAKE
(sexy back )
KATY PERRY
(hot n cold, i kissed a girl )
KC & JOJO
( all my life)
KEITH SWEAT
(nobody )
KREO
( burn for you)
LEANN WOMACK
(i hope you dance)
LEANNE RHYMES
(cant fight the moonlight, the right kind of wrong, i dont like to/ but i do love you)
LETTERS TO CLEO
(cruel to be kind)
LIMP BIZKIT
(behind blue eyes)
LINKIN PARK
(crawling, numb)
LOCAL H
(bound for the floor)
LUDWIG VAN BEETHOVEN
(Fur Elise, Moonlight Sonata, 5th & 7th Symphony)
MAD HOUSE
(like a prayer)
MADONNA
(just like a prayer, shes not me)
MANDY MOORE
(only hope)
MARCYS PLAYGROUND
( sex and candy)
MARVIN GAYE
(when a man loves a woman)
MATEEN/TOM BRUNO ^PAPA ROACH^
(getting away with murder)
MILEY CYRUS
(see you again )
Miriam Monroe
MOZART
(fur eilse)
MSI
(shut me up )
MUDVAYNE
( -1, happy)
MURDER DOLLS
(dead in hollywood)
NELLY F
(say it right)
NIGHTWISH
(nemo, nightwish)
NINE INCH NAILS
(head like a hole, terrible lie, ringfinger, thats what i get, closer)
NO DOUBT
(dont speak)
OH NO YOU DIDN'T
( oh no you didn't)
OPIATE FOR THE MASSES
(burn you down)
OUR LADY PEACE
(supermans dead, 4 am)
O ZONE
(techno numa numa)
PANTERA
(im broken, respect, this love)
PAPA ROACH
(getting away with murder, scars)
PARAMORE
(we are broken,)
PAT BENATAR
( heartbreaker, love is a battle field, we belong, total eclipse of the heart, heartbreaker)
PAUL VAN DYKE
(castles in the sky,heaven, techno energy, were alive)
PHIL COLLINS
(you'll be in my heart)
PINK
(just like a pill, dont let me get me)
POE
(haunted, control, spanish doll, terrible thought, if you were here)
PORTISHEAD
(dummy album, self titled album)
PRETTY RICKY
(on the hotline)
PRINCE
(when doves cry)
PUDDLE OF MUDD
(control, blurry, psycho)
RASCAL FLATS
(what hurts the most)
REINA
(no ones gonna change you)
RIGHTOUS BROTHERS
(unchained melody)
RIHANNA
(disturbia )
RISE AGAINST
(prayer of refugee)
ROB DOUGAN
( clubbed to death)
ROB ZOMBIE
(living dead girl,let the bodies hit the floor)
ROLLING STONES
(i cant get no satisfaction)
ROXETTE
(it must have been love)
ROY ORBISON
(oh pretty woman)
SACHA BARON COHEN
(i like to move it)
SAVAGE GARDEN
(truely madly deeply, to the moon and back, kiss from a rose, i want you -like a chica cherry cola, i knew i loved you)
SCARS OF LIFE
(purity, watch me drown)
SEAN PAUL
(tempature, when you gonna give it up to me, we be burnin')
SECRET GARDEN
(dreamcatcher, sleepsong)
SEETHER
(truth, remedy, diseased, broken, fade away, the gift)
SELENA
(i could fall in love, dreaming of you, missing my baby, como la flor, bidi bidi bom bom)
SHAGGY
(i like to move it, it wasnt me, angel)
SHAKIRA
(my hips dont lie)
SHANIA TWAINE
(looks like we made it)
SHATTERSPHERE
(faithless)
SHINEDOWN
(save me)
SISTER HAZEL
(your winter)
SLIPKNOT
(before i forget, vermillion, the nameless)
SNEAKER PIMPS
(WATERBABY,becoming x, post-modern sleaze, spin pin sugar)
STABBING WESTWARD
(shame )
STEVIE B
(ill be loving you all my life)
SUZANNE VEGA
( tom's diner)
SYMPHONY X
(fallen)
SYSTEM OF A DOWN
(hypnotize, byob, question, toxicity, chop suey, lost in hollywood, lonely day)
TANTRIC
(down and out )
TAPROOT
()
THE CARPENTERS
(please mr postman)
THE RASMUS
(in the shadows)
THE TEMPTATIONS
(build me up buttercup ,aint no mountain high enough)
THIRD EYE BLIND
(never let you go)
TIM MCGRAW/ FAITH HILL
(its your love)
TORI AMOS
(crucify, strange little girl, {with bjork} wrapped around your finger )
WHITNEY HOUSTIN
(i will always love you, unbreak my heart, i wanna run to you, when you believe)
WHO DA FUNK
(shiney disco balls)

I recently finished a book called Life of Pi by Yann Martel. Life of Pi is about a boy who in his childhood is told to choose one religion- for he cant possibly be all three. He answers that "Bapu Gandhi said, 'All religions are true.' I just want to love God." Later when he approached his mother about it, He was told by his mother there was one nation in the sky, therefore one passport. His response.."if theres only one nation in the sky, shouldnt all passports be valid for it?"
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Always, Lauren Elizabeth
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Jan 20 2009 5:03 AM
i'm starting class tomorrow so its going to be a little hard going down and visiting you now. i have class monday through thursday and work late evenings so by any chance i get a weekend day off fro work i'll totally come see you
i'm kinda happy going back to school bc now i can actually use my brain and not feel like its wasting away...even though it still probably is...shhhhhh don't tell me that
anywho...change your away message to 'here' so i can send you a messaage instead of comments!
so how's it going down theres? i miss you buddy! i love you!
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how ya been?
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