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I hate having to describe myself, and its mostly because i either don't feel as though i have the time or mostly because i lack the words. I mean in most cases they only give you say two hundred and fifty words and i feel as though that isn't enough, but with everything accounted for in my life or yours chances are its more then enough because people aren't really as complicated as they may see themselves...people are just too lazy, tired or stupid. So with that in mind i will attempt what i usually see as impossible and I will sum up my life and what i am in two hundred and fifty words or less...

I am kind but to a point, like most people i care a little too much about myself then my surrounding, but that doesn't mean i don't take the time to admire or understand and I'm certainly not naive. I think if anything i spend too much time just looking; silent in a corner just watching everything and trying to understand people, places and things without any resolution as to why or what it all meant to me. Which is funny because i am the kind of person who treasures there time either because i don't feel as i have enough or more likely that its better spent doing what i want to do; which i usually nothing of any importance.

I am trustworthy and this i can honestly say is my strongest personal trait just because of how rare and beautiful it truly is to actually trust someone fully with all your secrets, thoughts and even your soul. I have kept secrets long enough that even my addictions have had time to gradually erased them from existance and even the ones i have remembered i haven't spoke of even to spite or take out revenge from lost friends or lovers just because it wouldn't be me and nothing is more important to me then truth and honor.

I am green, and not in the color sense; I'm not an alien and i believe the term "green" is just the latest trend to commercialize anything off the grid even though that isn't as bad other corporate ventures, and even though i could use more improvements when it comes to recycling and buying healthier or wiser; for instance like to become a vegetarian I still believe in the nomad's way and hardly live the way the modern/technology age lives however i'm not sure what i would do without the internet even though i have lived without it for many years before its creation.

I am smart but not as smart as i should be, and although this could be seen as a contradiction or arrogant its far from it. i believe i have potential as much as anyone else but instead of acting upon it i spend my days and nights the same as the ones before them thus creating a cycle of nothing, nothing well spent, nothing gained, nothing ventured and nothing new and so i limit myself to what i knew and sooner or later I'll be just like the rest. At least in a way that i will become unnoticeable and leave nothing for history to remember me and although i am not a genius i have done many things for my most trusted friends to consider me a genius out of kindness that the most average people could never conceive of i still lack the motivation to do or make anything new and outstanding.

I am addicted, i am addicted to diversions. I do anything to get my mind off of past and present and i never look to the future, although i do not regret my past i too often submerged my present with so many diversions that I'm too numb to understand the present even if i wanted too and even though it doesn't control me to go and suck cock for coke i do know it controls me to a point that i limit myself to what i was before and am still today and even though it has opened parts of me up to new ideas and wonderful thoughts that were usually blurry the next day i still appreciate the times i have had with friends and things i have done but honestly it all amounts to nothing because everything ceased, froze and even the best parts of me died and i've changed during these times.

I am a void of emotion in the way that i bottle most things which gets me through day to day struggles but leads me to feel less or not enough when expected to do so, and this could be good and bad depending on your point of view, but we all know i don't care about your point of view. Until the time comes that i am no longer content by my own means or i have something worth caring about in a way so astounding that it changes my life; this is my wall of protection. it keeps me in check with my reality and surroundings and to most i am viewed as an outsider or nonchalant. When i was a kid i thought it was pretty cool and even now when threatened by a drunk or anyone wanting to pick a fight they feel challenged like I'm looking at them funny but the truth of the matter is i don't like it and never have, and that's not saying i don't like myself because i do its just if ever I'm going to meet someone or find something worth feeling it will be the one and only thing stopping me from fully trusting someone or showing how i truly feel.

I am me and i am not two hundred and fifty words or less...

The person who invented paper Ts'ai Lun...