son I sure miss you I still am waiting for you to walk through the door one day and be a smarty butt, I know you are not going to well uncle Gorden should be there he was always so nice and honest you can swap stories with him his funeral on ssaturday so be there . I am truely thankful for the help you are doing for me here and watching over your sister, she a good girl I just pray she chooses right and has a smooth life and uses those brains me and your dad gave her. your others sister are slowly learning but I am there for them in most ways know cant be there in all any more I have to take care of myself.I miss you sooo much.. I was at fort campbell with your brothers and it was good to see the respect given for you and it helped me find some peace.. but I looked for you and I know I wouldnt find you time will not heal the wounds of my heart and duct tapes barely holding it together, thanks son for what you have been doing on that side and I keep writing you keep visiting and watching over us . luv mom and miss both of you and someone still getting as ass kicking when I get there for taking you LUV U mom
ohh t-mann.
if you see me then u kno that im scared. i always think will you be by my side to help protect if something goes wrong! will u be able to help.
i wish you were here so i kno u can protect me., cause that what a big brother is sopose to do. but im not sure anymore about things.
Misss You!
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I havent forgotten u. As u see my heart will never heal its half gone. Sometimes i wander if i ever feel again most days I walk around numb and hollow duct tape doesnt fix that. I look for joy in sis. U know wats goin on. So enough said. I m lookin forward to hangin with ur friends were u found some happiness. Luv U. Waitin to see u when its my time luv mom
HEY BRO, DAMN THINGS JUST GOT F'ED UP NOW THESE DAYS AND WISHING U COULD HELP OUT WITH SOME ADVICE, WITH THIS WORLD SO BIG, I UNDERSTAND Y U WENT TO EXPLORE...MISSING THOSE DAYS WHEN WE USE TO KICK BACK AND PARTY. YOUR CRAZY-ASS MOSTLY, SORRY FOR YOUR DRINK BUT IT WAS A KINDA SICK BUT I KNOW U WOULD HAVE STILL SLAMMED THE WHOLE THING. LMAO! NOTHING MUCH GOIN ON HERE JUST FINDING A J.O.B. STILL, WELL TTYL AND ALL THE HOMIES SAID WHATS UP!! AND DONT WAIT FOR US, WE WILL B THERE WHEN ITS OUR TIME... MUCH LOVE CUZ................
hey cousin. It's been like a long time since i've dropped by!!Miss you dude, my oldest turned 2 yesterday. Man oh man..i remember the first time you seen him..what you said too. That was too funny!! He's soo big now! And the baby the one you didn't get to see.... he started crawlin in feb. It was the cutest little army crawl.But quickly he learned how to on his knees and he's tryin to walk.It's crazy!! Well ty..don't be a stranger..cause you know you can stop by sometime..lol. I guess i'll talk to you later!Take care up there!!
Son I think they are pourin the slab of cement today. Its hard to believe uve almost been gone a year. I sure miss U. I hope I m doin things the way u want me to. Its kinda scary how things are fallin into place. LOL i could have help findin the papers I m missin. Hope ur friends can come I here from them more than I here or see the others. I m upset at ur cousin he over step his welcome an there no excuses. Well miss u so much an feel like a big part of me is gone. Sis keeps me goin even though she can be so I 2nt say luv her and u so much. Till later luv mom
Son I think they are pourin the slab of cement today. Its hard to believe uve almost been gone a year. I sure miss U. I hope I m doin things the way u want me to. Its kinda scary how things are fallin into place. LOL i could have help findin the papers I m missin. Hope ur friends can come I here from them more than I here or see the others. I m upset at ur cousin he over step his welcome an there no excuses. Well miss u so much an feel like a big part of me is gone. Sis keeps me goin even though she can be so I 2nt say luv her and u so much. Till later luv mom
Son it was a hard day 4 me looking at ur headstone of the birth date remember the first moments of our life together an how u drank the glucose water an lookin 4 more. Ur father turnin so white an slidin down the wall. The first few moments of ur life its like it happen yesterday. The years u gave me every inch of hell stregthin ever boundry I set. The hardest is seein u walk away at the airport and havin to drive away that day if I new I would never hold u again that day I would of chained myself to u. I HAVE TEARS flow for u alot. I TRY NOT let anyone see me hurtin cause I know one day I be with u again but that doesnt fill the emptiness 4 u. My dear son my hero even if u never went luv mom
well son went to doctor finally, have surgery the 21st, you better make sure everything goes ok cause even though I want to be there with you I must be here for sis. Even with all the shit she gives me.,, i just pray she will out grow ssome of her meanness in time and realize i am here. well I watch and try to get things done before then. lol but I dont think your dads wanting around yet lol.. well I still am sad you are gone and cry alot miss you so terrible.I dont understand how god can take you away from me but I have to accept. laters luv u mom
well son i went to the traveling memorial on thursday and cried. I went by myself wanted to go back yesterday but as you know basically stayed in bed. I know I should of went again you sent the songs to remind me. but I couldnt do it I never forget you.I recieved a letter from someone last week spoke to him and I dont know if I helped or not. A year is rolling around to quickly it seems like yesterday seeing you off on the plane and sometimes forever long time.I just think of you alot I will never be able to feel in the emptiness in my heart till I get to were you are when I am done here on earth. You wrote something like it was a dream then it was over, I feel like life sometimes is a long nightmare and waiting to wake up and see you again. I am grateful for when you give me signs of when you aare around, well done writing for now cause the tears are blinding me and running. luv mom miss you sooo much and give him a kick to remind him havent forgotten him
Wow, once again i think i failed about moving forward i just messed up somethin that could have be nice but i just closed and wouldnt let him in any closer to me so for now i give up on lookin for love . . . i miss you so much, i just want wat i had back in my life wit you
dear son I counted down and on friday was a year to the day you shipped out. I couldnt go to the fair kept having anxiety attacks. but it moved out to twelve mile junctions. sis did go and she said it was same but a smaller she only went one night thats a first for this family. well I have made some tiny steps forward in my life, just wish I wasnt so alone always I sure miss talking with you would , or you say lecturing . well now you are with your dad and god knows what the two of you are up to. miss both of you.. well luv you ab=nd miss both of you.. just waitsomeones getting an ass kicking when I see you two again. luv mom
Hey hun, i miss you lots. you know ive been doin some thinking and i know i have a taker for my heart but im so hesitant about lettin anything happen im just kinda scared but i know that in time ill have to move on but until then guide me please or let me know its ok for me to be happy again ok. well with lots of love from me to you ill talk to you soon k la la u
well son the other day you know what I did and it sure and the Hell will be a long ass time before I touch that Shit in a long time.Well your unit is back on safe land, Sonny call and spoke to sis I hope she listens. they hope to be able to come about the time of your anerversy of a year for a few days.So I hope thehead stone is here so they can help sit. its fault if it doesnt get here cause i procratinated,but its not what am other should do is order a head stone for there child. Well I realize you are watching over us all. I hope you helped ricco on his scores when he was testing. I sure miss you and even though you said no tears I cant hel, miss thp it alote both of you alot and half of me is gone with you. I need to go for now luv u and miss you cant wait to be with you luv mom
....i sit here with soo many things to say an yet.. not one word can come to my mind of how much i miss you. and not a day goes by that i dont think of you.. but lately i keep finding it hard to know ur gone. thanx for lookin out the other day.. i know it was you. cuz if it wasnt an with my luck.. i woulda been in a bad situation... an i know ur there when i try to skip away from lifes reality.. with ur darn song..EVERYWHERE I GO!! lol i know were all gonna get hitt hard when ur deployment count down is finished. but hopefully we can all be here for each other.. and i think lately we've all been forgeting it.. i was lookin at old pics the other day and remembering all the times we took for granted. whether it was jus sittin aroun the house .. but we were all together and i dont think we ever saw the day coming nor was it a thout in our minds.. but i love u and miss u... (tear) -erina
well the dayhas come and all I have thought about is how you looked last year as you walked away at the airport. I miss you son and you will always be close to my heart and the emptiness is hard to deal with but I look forward to seeing you one day and holding you again. I remember when you were a baby and holding and watching you, some of the things you would get into. I always had to keep thinking and be aware I never new what you would be getting into luv and miss you soooo much. one day we will see each other again. luv mom
TOMORROW WILL BE A YEAR FOR BEING THE LAST TIME OF SEEING YOU. AND YOUR UNIT IS COMING HOME ANY DAY. I WANT TO GO SEE THEM BUT FEAR OF THE ANXIETY THAT I GET WHEN I GET AWAY FROM HOME. LUV YOU SON AND WILL ALWAYS HAVE YOU IN MY HEART . LUV MOM
Well in a couple of weeks your unit will be home they want me to see them home but I am afraid of a complete melt down. The duct tape isnt working son I was a cracked egg with your dads death. I pushed myself hard after that for u and you are with yoour sisters. but this time I have push for sis but it seems she just pushes me away. I know I leaned on you alot for support, you are with your dad. miss you both so empty here on earth but I have to keep living till its my time . luv mom
Happy anniversary baby! i miss you so much. i wish i was spendin today with you but i know your here with me every step of the way and each and everyday. . . well i love you ill see you soon
