MySpace a place for friends

First off I am one of the main characters of Robert Scott's book "Kill or be Killed" that became a Christian. I personally haven't read about myself in that book as I am not ready to revisit all the former pain. Please visit www.wwjd4urluvjn316.com for my website which is also continually under construction and http://coloryourworldwithlove.homestead.com/untitled1.html Note my web site needs a lot of work. I decided not to include pictures about myself and believe me my website has had a slow time taking off. Does it really matter how old I am or what I look like to talk to me. I could be the ugliest person in the world and am afraid to show my face. I could be a very handsome man. Will you ever find out see www.wwjd4urluvjn316.com to see who I really am. I must warn you I am a real human being. Be blessed by loving Jesus Christ who ultimately I am trying to lead you to. Father I pray this sight will be a blessing to all who come visit it. It's hard because I haven't been with a woman in ten years. MySpace is very tempting and there are a lot of beautiful women to chat with. I know all about loneliness. It hurts. What hurts worse is to be judged by a cover. The picture I drew was of a woman I did from in jail before I left for prison. It was in black and white, yet I made the colors. I drew the rose in from another picture I had. Everything was of super value to me when I was locked up because I didn't have much. Even now I still value everything and have a greater respect for freedom, Salvation, and respecting God. There is more to me than pictures. I mean I could draw what I look like or think I narcistically look like. Or I could just leave it a mystery to prove a point that it is not about the looks it's about the heart. 1 Samuel 16:7 "But the LORD said unto Samuel, Look not on the height of his stature; because I have refused him: for the LORD seeth not as man seeth; for man looketh on the outward appearance, but the LORD looketh on the heart." If not know that God judges the heart and not the outer appearance. There are some beautiful people on MySpace and I hope they stay friends because I am not afraid to invite everyone. Jesus loves everyone not just Christians; just as he loved Rahab, the Samaritan at the well, the woman caught in adultry and the woman who annointed Jesus feet. God is the one who told me to work on MySpace. DON'T JUDGE A BOOK BY IT'S COVER. WE DO IT WITH THE BIBLE AND ESPECIALLY PEOPLE. THOSE WHO SAY THEY ARE BETTER THAN ANOTHER PERSON BETTER WAKE UP BECAUSE IT IS JUDGEMENTAL. A LUKEWARM CHRISTIAN IS A CHRISTIAN THAT ENJOYS THE CONFINES OF THEIR CHURCH WHILE DRIVING A HUMMER TO GET THERE. AFTER AN HOUR OF SERVICE WE LET THE BIBLE COLLECT DUST TILL NEXT SUNDAY. IN THE MEAN TIME WE MOCK REAL CHRISTAINS WHO HAVE HAD VERY ROUGH LIVES OR ARE POVERTY STRICKEN LIKE ME. CHRISTIANS WHO GAVE THEIR LAST BIT OF SUBSTANCE TO LIVE ON AND HAVE BILLS THEY DON'T KNOW HOW TO PAY. LOOK UP THE PEOPLE INVITED TO THE WEDDING DINNER. IN THE END NOT A LOT OF CHRISTIANS WERE THERE. IT WAS PEOPLE AND I PRAY I DON'T LOOSE HER TOO LIKE SORRY BUT SHE CALLS HERSELF THICKNESS AND SHE'S PROUD OF IT. SHE SHOULD BE BECAUSE SHE IS A BEAUTIFUL PERSON. I HAD NO CLUE WHERE GOD WOULD LEAD ME I JUST FOLLOWED. I WANT PEOPLE TO KNOW THEY ARE LOVED. I WASN'T A CHRISTIAN UNTIL THE AGE OF 28 WHEN I WENT TO PRISON. I HAVE BEEN AROUND THE BLOCK AND I AM NOT ASHAMED OF WHAT I AM DOING. I AM JUST ASHAMED PEOPLE WOULD LEAVE ME BECAUSE THEY DON'T WANT THE ASSOCIATION TO THE PEOPLE I CARE ABOUT. IT BROKE MY HEART WHEN ONE OF THE NICEST CHRISTIAN FRIENDS I HAVE WOULD NOT WANT TO STUDY WITH SOME DOWN SYDROME PEOPLE. WELL I AM ABOUT TWO NOTCHES ABOVE THAT AND I KNOW WHAT IT IS TO BE LOCKED UP IN A BODY THAT DOESN'T WORK FIGHTING FOR YOUR LIFE WHILE BEING HATED CONSTANTLY. I RECALL ONE OF THE PRISON GAURDS TRIED TO SHUT ME UP. I SCREAMED YOU WILL NEVER SHUT ME UP ABOUT HOW MUCH I LOVE JESUS. DO I LOVE JESUS LET ME TELL YOU HOW MUCH. I TRIED TWICE TO GOUGE OUT MY LEFT EYE FOR GOD. I DRANK POISON TWICE FOR GOD. I ELECTRICUTED MY SECRET PARTS TWICE WITH 120 VOLTS BECAUSE I WANTED JESUS' PAIN. IT IS 4:27 AM I DON'T WANT SLEEP FOR JESUS. I WROTE 12 CHRISTAIN SELF HELP BOOKS IN ONE YEAR AND I AM WORKING ON PUBLISHING THEM ALL. SEVERAL ARE ON www.wwjd4urluvjn316.com FOR FREE. I WRITE PLAYS, SONGS, POEMS, DANCE MY HEART OUT TO THE LORD, SING SONGS MAKING UP THE LYRICS AS I GO. I KNOW ALL ABOUT INSANITY. I HAVE EATEN MY OWN DEFICATION TO PLEASE GOD AS WELL AS MY OWN URINE. ONE TIME I HAD TO DRINK MY OWN URINE TO SURVIVE IN JAIL BECAUSE I COULDN'T GET WATER OR FOOD. I HAVE SEEN GOD TWICE TOUCHING HIS FLESH AND BONE AND WHEN I LOOKED IN HIS EYES ALL I SAW WAS LOVE. ON EACH OF THE DIFFERENT OCCASIONS HE LOOKED DIFFERENT. IF I DESRIBED HIM SOME MIGHT CALL ME A LIAR, BUT I HAVE NEVER BEEN GOOD AT THAT. GOD LOOKS EXACTLY LIKE US. HE IS NOT MUSCLE BOUND, BUT SIMPE JUST LIKE SOMEONE LIKE YOU AND I. I am a white man and I have written to black women. I told them how sorry my race has been to them, but I doubt they got the point because I only have one couple who took me seriously. So I'll say it again. BLACK IS BEAUTIFUL!!! I proclaimed it on Jamestown prison yard so everyone around me could hear. I was so sick of childish racism and the stupid little war machoistic games men play. I decided early on all my battles would be for the LORD and if anyone had a problem with God 9 out of 10 times perhaps more I stood up for GOD. I don't care what people think of me. I JUST WANT PEOPLE TO KNOW I LOVE JESUS. I mean it hurts and hurts bad when people hate you, but I am not going to change the way I live because I have a crumby voice. I will still sing to the LORD. I will dance to Him too. When I am done with that I will write for Him. When I can't write for God I will be a blessing to others. One lady wrote me and wanted to be a friend. I sensed her loneliness. I also sensed something was wrong. She wanted to send me special pictures if you know what I mean. I tried to explain though part of me wants that and it is very tempting I would have more joy in leading her to the LORD, and helping her to respect the wonderful loving person she truly is. I am a Christian and single by choice, but that doesn't mean I don't look at women even to lust. Sure it may be sin. If they are with a man I try not to look because then that is disrepectful. But I can't help it, even we as true Christians aren't all that perfect. I make mistakes but I don't brag about it. I realize I need Jesus Chirst every day, forgiveness and to continually repent as well. God forgives but we can't take Him for granted. I want to add this. I look at women, but I try to look at all women. There is a young woman that rides the bus with an enormous overbite. Tim Allen would mock her and Simon would can her even though she probably sings like an angel. This woman is beautiful. I mean she is a knockout. You know why because she always wears a smile and it wears off on me. Another woman who is a absolute hotty is in a wheelchair. She is beautifully heavy set, due to illnesses. She has a hard time speaking but she is drop dead gorgeous. I mean she is a knockout all because her precious heart. She is so in love with Jesus she is like this love radiating machine and everywhere her electric wheelchair passes flowers grow up. Looks are so superficial and vain because you can lose them so quick. I mean look at Michael Jackson he was once a handsome man but with all that money he was so interested in changing what was so God given perfect beauty. He took perfection and threw it in the wind because what God gave him wasn't good enough for him or anyone else. Despite beating his case he has slipped out of the race. God gave you a body and it is perfect. I mean you may be stuck with a Pinto like I am, but drive it for what it is worth. I will make my Pinto into a Ferrari. See what is going to make me mad is when people find out about me and my face is revieled they may decide this fellow ain't that bad looking. Well I have a hard time getting dates I mean real hard. I see guys that have to have fly swatters to keep the women away. Their hearts are dirty and gray. I wrote poems I did beautiful art in jail and I only wanted very little money from them, but I never even got paid. I do what I do from the heart, but it wasn't that way from the start. It is a mean world out there but God so loved you he gave his only begotton Son. Do you care, I do. A man without the LORD, well no more. The hard core aithiest, never again! It was my vow never to go to church. That all changed. I met Jesus Christ and it was like Paul's light. I looked ahead and stepped out of the night. Chains of steel, traded a life for a prison meal, not such a deal. From a loser to a Jesus lover, God blessed me.