"I don't care what you think about me. I don't think about you at all." Coco Chanel
"Nevertheless is a nice word. Isn't it pleasant to sit and exchange words with a friend?" Mrs Toquet
"I bring the chainsaw, you bring the knife, I bring the chainsaw, you bring your wife..." Miss Construction
"If you don't have a dream, how will you have a dream come true?" Blue Velvet movie
"I don't know you, but I want you, all the more for that..." song from movie 'Once'
"...if you die, I will die too." Katatonia
"...Deprive yourself and you'll die knowing nothing..." Inkubus Sukkubus
"...so, how come you've invited me too?" Katatonia
"Never be afraid to do something you don't know how. Remember, it was an amateur who built the ark. Professionals built the Titanic." unknown
"...esli mne hochetsja - sbuditsja!" Zemfira
"I had never read Tolkien, and I didn't understand the script when they sent it to me. Bobbits? Hobbits?" Sean Connery
"There are no rules you can follow, you have to go by instinct and you have to be brave." How To Make An American Quilt
"I'd like to think I wouldn't die for you, but you know I would, 'cause that's the fool I am..." Emilie Autumn
"...is he real, or a ghost-like?" Tori Amos
"Any normal girl would call the number and see if her dream is viable. It's called a reality check. The last thing Amélie wants." Le Fabuleux destin d'Amélie Poulain
"With enough courage you can do without reputation." Rhett Butler ("Gone With The Wind")
"...and now everybody wants her, but I shouldn't even bother..." Evans Blue lyrics
"Imagination is more important than knowledge." A.Einstein
"ptica-ptica, ptica-sinica, rodilas' na vetke, a hotela v kletku..." Olga Aref'eva
"Why don't you understand: being normal denotes the lack of courage." Practical Magic
"...Why do I feel, now that I'm not with you, that I love you even more? Why am I haunted..." Valmont
"Will you marry me? It goes against all my principles, I know, but I really think you should, so how about it?" (some Belgian movie, set in the 1900s)
"...forget about loyalty, forget about luck or being polite or nice: this is the rest of YOUR life and someone else's too. Be honest." 'Forces of Nature' movie
"All you need is for 1 person to think you're cool, and you're in. Everyone else will be scared to question it." Never Been Kissed /movie/
"To write something, you have to take the risk of making a fool of yourself." Anne Rice
"Waste my time, I'm never coming back again" Unter Null lyrics
"Speaking is not communication." Saida
"The girl with the corset always wins!" Riitta, owner of Morticia in Finland
"In order to be irreplaceable, one has to be different." Coco Chanel
"Your dream is destiny!" KLM slogan
"Real life kills magic." Anton (Ultranoir)
"You can never make the first impression twice" (Russian proverb)
"What I tell you three times is true" Fair to Midland lyrics
"It's so much easier to make people cry then to make them laugh." Vivien Leigh
"I yearn to rise, I yearn for more..." Amorphis's lyrics
"I have to go," "I have to go," where the fuck does everybody go when they have to go?!!" Gia Carangi
"Dreams are made for children and for children dreams come true." Ella Fitzerald's song
"See your beauty? You could learn to shoot, you can learn to fight but there's no weapon as powerful as your femininity." Madeline from La Femme Nikita
"Has it ever occurred to you that maybe you're not too big? That maybe this place is just too small?" Big Fish movie
"There are some fish that cannot be caught. It's not that they're faster or stronger than other fish. They're just touched by something extra." Big Fish movie
"oh, how beautiful you are, now that you love me." M.Dietrich
"You'll never get what you want by listening to the 'No' answers." J.Grym
"If you can still breathe, it (corset) is not tight enough!" my friend Sannie /Skeletons in the Closet/
Music
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compromise-less and harsh, like Terrorfakt; meaningful like pre-2004 Nightwish, hopeless and dark like early Swallow the Sun, strong and spiritual like Inkubus Sukkubus, romantic doom like My Dying Bride, folk and feminine like Qntal...
and Celine Dion (don't ask what song).
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Movies
- the Butcher's Wife
- Le Fabuleux destin d'Amélie Poulain
- Disney's Beauty and the Beast
- The Secret
- Chocolat
- Apt Pupil
- Gone With The Wind
- Practical Magic
- Sissy (with Romy Schneider)
- Kill Bill (pt2)
- Brotherhood of the Wolf
- Secretery
- Vidoq
- The Barber Of Siberia
- Saw
- most of films based on Stephen King's books
...and ofcourse majority of the goth classics, with vampires and witches, mystics and twisted plots, some horror... with Victorian or other period-wear and sets.
- La Femme Nikita
- Twin Peaks
- Scarlett (sequel to the movie)
- Lenore - the cute little dead girl
- Friends (seasons 1-8)
- The Lost Room
- Fawlty Towers
- Disney's vintage movies
- Fortress Boyard (original French game show)
- The Mole (another game show with a twist)
- Famous Face (Mtv reality series)
- one German show, forgot the name, where they show different spooky happenings and you've to quess which ones are actually true...
- most reality shows on plastic surgery
- Kindred the Embraced
- most documentaries or biographies on vintage personalities/events
- Helen & Friends (old French series from the '90s - was one of the first times I've realised how much I like guys with long hair)
About me:
Side note: chameleons vary greatly in size and body structure, with maximum total length varying from Xcm to Ycm. Many have head or facial ornamentation...
Some (but not all) chameleon species are able to change their skin colors, whilst others are able to change into different colors. Recent research indicates that they do not only change their color for reasons of camouflage, but also use colour changes as a method of communication and attraction.
...and I don't believe in coincidences, everything happens for a reason, has a purpose and some special meaning. I believe in a bunch of other stuff too, magic dust and all, so don't even try to re-convince me.
LIKES:
- mysteries, conspiracy theories and unsolved crimes
- black/white (vintage) documentaries
- my knee-high combat boots
- getting my hands messy in glue, papers, paints, etc (when sculpting and making models)
- that unexplainable grufti smell of German goth shops
- to cross-stitch
- tight CORSETS and thick garter belts
- dalmatians and bats
- mozzarella and olives
- movie quotes and soundtracks
- mushrooms, especially fried and pickled
- anything with cheese in it and sweetcorn
- also Dr Pepper, coffee, Lonkero, Cherry liquor (Edelkirsch) and cherry brandy, some red wines, Moraschino, Pina Colada and hot chocolate
- Kultur-Ruine, and dancing...
- my best friend's Sarah's sarcastic humour
- accents
- heavy snowing
- chocolate sponge cake (is it what chocolate muffins are made of?!)
- Gabriel Knight (from "the Beast Within")
- cute Russian boys from Comedy Club
- handsome actors who play handsome Edward Fairfax Rochester in Jane Eyre films
- daffodils, lilies and pale miniature roses
- coffeeshops, bookshops and library cafes
- Cradle of Filth clothes and videos (up until Nyphetamine)
- mermaids
- making Puppy's mohawk
- quality mohawks on others
- Finnish longhaired metal-men and their headbanging
- Gucci's RUSH (red) and Clinique's HAPPY (classic)
- long nails and dark manicure
- Belgian seashell truffles
- Bad Taste Bears, especially the one with the torn heart
- hoodies
- feminity, as it seems to devalue lately
- candles
- spicy chocolate
- preparing for Christmas (but not the winter holidays itself)
- wrapping (hip-hopping!) paper
- lace, some ripped tights and sometimes velvet
- cinema and theatre
- French, and yes, the accent too! very much
- horror/thriller/scary movies with a philosphical edge (eg. Saw)
- historical drama with costumes and horror
- cats' purring, actually I love everything about cats
- making gifts, I just can't help it
- Romanians!!! (I miss Nedelea...)
- my bondage pants
- bondages in general
- me!
- being called Marisha
- Schloss Neuschwanstein, King Ludwig II and Kaiserin Sissi
- Glogi with cinnamon, pepper cookies and German Christmas markets
- smoking fruity waterpipe /cherry flavor's my favorite/
- being tipsy, a little bit and then I talk a lot!
- things spontaneous
- being taken care of without asking
- did I already mention my hair fetish?...
- and mozzarella?
- smell of burnt wood and smell of the sea
- Moscow at night
- long snowy Scandinavian winters when it gets dark early
- heavy rain&thunder
- the effect coffee has on me
- sweet incents (like sandal or amber)
- cherry/blackcurrant flavours
- good Feng-Shui
- long-distance swimming
- Chandler from 'Friends'
- lip piercing with a rrrrrrring
- eyebrow piercing on men
- sunglasses
- Marmite (nostalgia for my British past), also Jelly Babies, crunchy peanut butter in red pot and salt&vinegar crisps
- scissors
- French maids
- waking up in the morning, when it's heavily raining outside
- black turtle-neck slim-fit sweaters
- doing laundry
- 'Big Red' chewing gum
- my huge and messy writing desk
- handwritting
- writting in general
- Jyrki69 in "the Chair" and "Brandon Lee"
- when new issue of "Cross-stitcher" comes out
- fleamarkets and 2nd hand stores
- vintage military and such inspired clothing
- uniforms and strict suits
- vintage things and classic pin-ups
- long-distance train/bus
- my old job at the editorial house
- listening to music at nights, when it's dark, and daydreaming... (current hit nr 1 is "Butterfly on a Wheel")
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Men who:
- have dress-sense
- can cook
- know mediterranean cuisine
- are taller than me
- are creative and unusual
- are sarcastic and confident
- know more EBM bands than me
- are patient
- can wear a skirt
- are posessive and not shy
- maybe have a dalmatian?
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- my black kissa with one eye, whom I miss more than anything in this world, he died on 1.11.07
- Poetic and old-fashioned Goths like this:
- babies and children
*FAIRYTALE*
Maybe I've been living in Finland ("metal capital of the world") for too long, as this story surprisingly makes sense.
So, this is the situation: there is a beautiful princess trapped in a castle guarded by a dragon. Here is the end of the story with different kind of metalheads as knights.
* POWER METAL
The protagonist arrives riding a white unicorn, escapes from the dragon, saves the princess and makes love to her in an enchanted forest.
* THRASH METAL
The protagonist arrives, fights the dragon, saves the princess and f*cks her.
* HEAVY METAL
The protagonist arrives on a harley, kills the dragon, drinks a few beers and f*cks the princess.
* FOLK METAL
The protagonist arrives with some friends playing acordions, violins, flutes and many more weird instruments, the dragon falls asleep (because of all the dancing). Then all leave........ without the princess.
* VIKING METAL
The protagonist arrives in a ship, kills the dragon with his mighty axe, skins the dragon and eats it, rapes the princess to death, steals her belongings and burns the castle before leaving.
* DEATH METAL
The protagonist arrives, kills the dragon, f*cks the princess and kills her, then leaves.
* BLACK METAL
The protagonist arrives at midnight, kills the dragon and impales it in front of the castle. Then he sodomizes the princess, drinks her blood in a ritual before killing her. Then he impales the princess next to the dragon.
* GORE METAL
The protagonist arrives, kills the dragon and spreads his guts in front of the castle, f*cks the princess and kills her. Then he f8cks the dead body again, slashes her belly and eats her guts. Then he f*cks the carcass for the third time, burns the corpse and f*cks it for the last time.
* DOOM METAL
The protagonist arrives, sees the size of the dragon and thinks he could never beat him, then he gets depressed and commits suicide. The dragon eats his body and the princess as dessert. That's the end of the sad story.
* PROGRESSIVE METAL
The protagonist arrives with a guitar and plays a solo of 26,5 minutes. The dragon kills himself out of boredom. The protagonist arrives to the princess bedroom, plays another solo with all the techniques and tunes he learned in the last year of the conservatory. The princess escapes looking for the heavy metal protagonist.
* GLAM METAL
The protagonist arrives, the dragon laughs at the guy's appearance and lets him enter. He steals the princess' make up and tries to paint the castle in a beautiful pink colour.
* NU METAL
The protagonist arrives in a run down Honda Civic and attempts to fight the dragon but he burns to death when his moronic baggy clothes catch fire.
LIKES NOT:
- Finnish drinking culture
- Finland-fans
- when my presents and help are rejected (almost always in Finland, WHY?!?!?!)
- my current flatmate's kitchen
- how popular burlesque culture suddenly became
- criticism
- long-term planning
- beer
- skulls and bones, brrr...
- french manicure
- the phrase "I've to go"
- the word "whatever"
- New Year holiadys
- night buses from Helsinki railway station, when it's so crowded and brutal
- spiders and heights, but spiders are MUCH worse!!!
- fruit/jello cakes and icing
- pineapple on pizza and watermelon in salads
- anything else sweet in savory food
- huge commercial sold-out concerts, where I'm forced into being a tiny particle of the shapeless masses
- Facebook, hobbits and Harry Potter
- having to be 'easygoing' when the other person is stubbornly shy
- most green teas
- when in restaurants with national themes music doesn't fit the culture of that nationality
- femenism (BIG time!)
- anything about feet (as in, two foot) or shoes
- slang and swearing in my native language, especially in female version of it
- friends with benefits, other forms of 'open relationships' and polyamorism, and nothing can convince me otherwise.
- messy unorganised hair
- Pantene hair-care because of its smell
- triangles and shortcuts
- eco-friendly 'recycled' fashion
- being woken up, for most reasons
- politics and anti-religious movements
- romantic reality tv (although in 2005 I auditioned for one!)
- deep dead silence
- my father's mood swings
- my sister's drama
- my own ignorance + excessive over-reaction
- being touched/tickeled/hugged by people I don't know well
- when I can't help someone I know is in trouble
- horror movies with sharks or open water (how ironic, because I'm a swimmer...)
- modern glamour and other blings
- calling my male friends for help everytime my computer or internet breaks
- YouTube videos on those profile pages
- (small)talking
- deadlines
- tourism photography, like "me and the monument"
- festivals like Wacken or Tuska
- Microsoft Power Point presentations
- food in general, because I've two left hands in the kitchen and have absolutely no patience for anything food-related
- unkept promises and unanswered questions
- when someone is trying to have a conversation at the same time as the band is playing - how am I suppose to follow both?!
- gold
- Children Of Bodom, really!
- most pure death metal
- milk&honey combination
My hands unstoppable!
...obviously I write a lot, by hand or keyboard, all the time. So to prevent me from invading your emails and my own blogs, I re-directed this 'talent' into the following media (nb: always looking for more!)
- www.Stalker.cd (online in German/English)
- Helsinki Times (published weekly in English)
www.helsinkitimes.fi
- 6Degrees (published monthly in English)
www.6d.fi
- www.Lumonetti.fi (online in Finnish)
- www.ThyDoom.com (online in English)
My Dutch seamstress Sannie, who makes my corsets: www.skeletonsintheclosetclothing.com
www.myspace.com/ohaapala
The magnifiscent Countess of Beaumont and her equally wonderful audio boutique.
My very special friend and inspiration, vintage/pin-up designer Molla:
www.mollamills.com
One amazing girl's, called Alice Nite, concert agency, which I have the honor to be part of.
www.rock-kitty.com
Who I'd like to meet:
Most importantly, Mrs Toquet, because I feel I can really relate to her the most. She's the only one I've ever known of, with whom I too, can just say "windowsill" and "nevertheless" and she'll understand...
Otherwise I won't mind seeing a mermaid and little forest gnomes, but no hobbits!... Beast from Disney and Cinderella's talking mice, then also Gabriel Knight and King Ludwig II. Hugh Jackmann is allowed at all times, with no restrictions or prior bookings.
PS: if you'd give me your address, I'll send you a postcard, really :) [maybe I should stop doing that?...]
Haha. Mine was a 50th birthday for my friend's mother. Very formal and expensive (for them). Loud, headache-guaranteed music and other things like a belly dancer and speeches.
I've been going all around NY lately, mostly shopping for someone else.
A mediocre report from you is still better than a good report from many others ;) Would you prefer me to read the version I will get through babelfish? :p
My hamster actually broke his wheel, so much has he been running in it, and I need to repair it...
they actually ask about you everytime I see them, they're still so grateful for all your help! hopefully you can visit someday and swim in our sea and eat our food :-)
I love our sea indeed, I've been in love with it all my life :-D but I love water in general, all the lakes and sea in finland have such a soothing effect on my soul! I would suffer living in a too warm and dry place :-)
yesyes, that bottle is hidden because nobody is allowed to touch it! it's for you and me, and maybe we can invite molla and saara for example? so we can have our glamourous-ladies' little gathering & house-warming party ;-) (and I'm planning to turn my room into a fairy-room! lot's of work to do yet, but little by little)
yep, it's been so long! I'm still in the basque country, but I'll be back in helsinki on wed :-)
Ilosaari in joensuu for me this weekend, what's in pori?
I was bathing in the sea yesterday, it made me so happy ^_^ salty sea with lots of waves, nothing like the sea in finland, and the salt dries up on your skin afterwards and clothes ticke ^_^
I miss you!! when are we meeting again? or when are you coming to visit me and see my new apartment? :-) fairy hugs & kisses for my dearest lady <3
Приветик, Мариш! :) У меня теперь забота, я завела собачку! В среду мне привезли маленького той терьерчика. Такая лапочка Скучать и думать про всяких теперь некогда. И я очень рада этому ;) А как у тебя дела, как прошли запланированные встречи? ;)))
my evening is calm too... I'm cleaning up a bit... took a bath an hour ago... try not to think so hard about my dear one... the missing is hard... but I will travel to him next week on friday yeah and then we see each other for 4 days. thats so long for us! the other times he came up to berlin to visit me he just came for a weekend but I have my vacances next week so I have time but unfortunately he has to work :-( fuck love :-(
I'm OK'ish I guess, been in a bit weird mood lately. Tonight I have been watching some DVD and TV... need to go to bed in a while, but don't feel like it. Start work a bit earlier tomorrow, since I will be following another team to see how they work and learn some new stuff.
Reminds me you never told me how the job interview some time ago went, but no news in this case I guess is bad news?
I am not always a fan of old movies, and probably just costumes won't get me through a movie like they get you ;)
I brought it up because I just came accross it being mentioned somewhere. It actually was recently on Dutch TV, I saw trailers and then forgot to comment.
So, how are you? Still busy all day? Seems the obligation-free week you hoped for last week turned out a bit different? Hope to chat to you soon again, more fun than this way ;)
Well, you mentioned several times before WGT, how you were watching it while sewing your dress ;) And also at WGT once ore twice... but there's several then? Well, I guess I'll be content with just the Kirsten Dunst version :D
And Swedish subtitles? You know some Swedish then?
...The girl with the corset ALWAYS wins!
