"My imagination is more real to me than most people. It's the band-aid that keeps reality from rubbing up against the open wound that is life." -- Jhonen C. Vasquez
Female
17 years old
I live in a spaceship that hovers above Pittsburgh, Pennsylvania
United States
♥[[Little St. Patzie Fucking K.™]]♥ [[No sleep; no medication; no hint of regret; no shred of a humanity; no emotion; no room for tears; no sanity; no sanctuary; only wakefulness.]] Posted at 3:56 AM Jan 30 view more
About me: Møst øf yøu knøw me as nøthing møre than ♥[[Little St. Patzie Fucking K.™]]♥, that strange girl whø øccasiønally shøws up øn yøur status preview with søme strange quøte cøntainting tøø many cømplex similes and abstract metaphørs. I'm that awkward, pale, intrøspective mess øf a persøn yøu have all cøme tø knøw and anylize. This sectiøn is før thøse øf yøu whø actually give a decent fuck abøut what I dø. Tø all øf yøu that fit intø said categøry, yøu may call me Zie, or Spyder, if you'd prefer, and this is where yøur imprømtu intrøductiøn intø my wørld begins. . .
I'm prøbably the møst neurøtic girl yøu'll ever meet. I really am. I'm either løcked in an emøtiønal bubble, ør screaming in yøur face. There is nø in between with me. I am always the imperfect mixture øf insanity and apathy. If I seem cømpletely batshit crazy tø yøu, it's because I sørt øf am. . . I'm a cliched, herøin chic, thrift støre søcialite. I get intø relatiønships that break me døwn, put me thrøugh hell, and kill my heart, simply because I'd rather be in pain then knøw I had nø øne tø fuck it away when it came frøm sømething else.
I'm an artist, first øf all. I'm nø Andy Warhøl, but art is sømething that I favør. I have been drawing, painting, and sculpting since I can remember. Yøu døn't have tø understand my wørk; yøu døn't even have tø like it. All I ask is that yøu accept it as it is, because if yøu døn't, I assure yøu that yøu will be disappøinted, because it isn't gøing anywhere. I'm alsø a musician. I can play guitar, drums, bass, and pianø. I dø møstly acøustic wørk, but I've written a few musicals, and messed arøund øn my synthisizer. My øne true løve is film, høwever. Nøthing mainstream, øf cøurse, just døcumentaries and shørt films. I alsø have a løve øf phøtøgraphy. I møstly shøøt abandøned buildings, ør nature-themed things. At heart, I'm a writer. I write pøetry, plays, søngs, nøvels, and screenplays, but møstly nøvels. Alsø, I act. I've løved acting ever since I can remeber. I prefer stage tø film [[prøbably because I'd rather be behind the camera.]] and I've been in a few shøws thrøughøut my life. I løve fashiøn design. If I'm wearing sømething that løøks like it was hand-made, it prøbably was. I dø all øf my øwn hair and makeup, and am cønsidering gøing tø tech [[it's sørt øf an alternative tø the last twø years øf high schøøl]] før cøsmetøløgy. My tøp secret nerd passiøn is paranørmal investigatiøn. Aliens, ghøsts, vampires-- yøu name it, and I've løøked før it. Sø far, øther than søme luck with aliens and ghøsts, I've cøme up a bit short. As an extra little treat, I dø magic tricks! Søme say I'm an øver-acheiver, but really, I just have tøø much free time.
I'm an anarchist. I'm nøt saying that I want tøtal chaøs, that wøuld fail miserably, I am simply saying that the peøple øf America are nøt given the amøunt øf freedøm and pøwer they diserve in either a Demøcracy ør a Republic. I'm an Agnøstic. I døn't knøw if there is ør isn't a higher pøwer, and neither dø yøu. Christians and Athiests are øne in the same tø me, because either way they are far tøø certain øf øne fate, and nø øne really can be sure. I am a member øf the LGBT cømmunity, but I'm nøt a Lesbian, ør a bisexual. I'm just sexual. It's what's in yøur heart that matters tø me, nøt what's in yøur pants. I prefer wømen, but if I'm single, I'll give anyøne a chance. I døn't care if yøu're a girl, a bøy, or a trans-sexual. As løng as yøu're a gøød persøn, yøu deserve a chance. I'm vegan, and an animal rights activist. I have been sø since elementary schøøl, and there isn't any changing me.
Nøne øf this cømes cløse tø explaining everything there is tø knøw abøut me. I'm sø much, and yet sø little. The best way tø fill in the blanks is tø send me a message. I døn't bite. . . unless yøu're intø that sørt øf thing.
xøxø,
Zie.
= xXx Z i e xXx
Who I'd like to meet:
To begin to describe my Mother would take a century. She was simply the most complex human being I've ever met, and the single greatest that I ever will. When the entire world was abandoning me, one factor remained: my Mom. She was the only reassuring element in my entire existence. I don't think I've ever been comfortable with anyone, but she came the closest. Now that she's gone, I don't know what to do. Every night, I lie awake, wishing that she would walk through the door and make the pain store. I'd kill just to hug her one more time; to hear her say "I love you, baby doll," just once more; to see her face again, devoid of the necrotic mess I'm certain it's become. There isn't a moment that goes by where I don't wish for this. I miss her more profoundly than I've ever missed anything, and love her more than anyone in the world could imagine. It was easy for everyone else to fall in love with her pretty, little façade, but I knew her and loved her for all of her faults. I know all of the things that no one knew, and have seen the things she's done behind closed doors, but, in spite of that, I still love her more than anyone could ever know. I never had room for the false hope of religion, but if she's out there someone, I want to tell her that I'm sorry for all of the shit we've put each other through, and that her absence is the last blow to my heart anyone can give, because after this there isn't much left. I think about her every night and every day; every moment since she left here. This is the final thorn in my side, and I hope that she's happy with her decision. I'll always love her; I'll always miss her, but I will never forgive her.
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Thank you for the accepting and nice to meet you! My name is Mohammed but my friends call me Momo. How about you? Hope you have a good Holidays and i wish you a happy new year with all my best wishes! Take care.<:)
Patzie! I haven't seen you since the last time Wednesday was in town. You planning on going to this show? If so, let me know - we're opening and we can get you tickets cheaper than anyplace else.
Fuck, theres nout I can say really that will carry any meaning with this, just the Cliched responses you get from people I guess.
I've been alright, applied to a couple universities for next year, had to take two weeks out of sixth form for 'work related depression' in which time I just jammed about writing songs and getting drunk with some friends. Played a lot of gigs too. Just looking for something to do for the next six months now.
Hi ya! How have you been? What do you have planned for the holidays? I'm going to florida to perform my song "santa claus is coming to town" in the christmas day parade at disney world! So excited! Be sure to check it out on abc network christmas day! Keep coming back to check out what I'm up to as 2010 is gonna be insane woop woop! X love the Rushtonaiter
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