Damn Optimism

About me:

I'm ash




My main goal in life is to find some one to make happy who will also make me happy.



I have always focused on that above all else. I don't want to date around until I finally settle for someone, I'd rather find someone I can be passionate about and and build a friendship that might lead to a serious relationship and marriage.
I was always fascinated by books when I was younger. When I read about princes and apples and how a kiss from a true love could bring you to life, and how if you love someone you will climb a tower and risk life to save them from pain, it was hardwired into my brain and has stuck with me. Now I’d like to find someone I would love enough give my life to. I know life isn't a fairytale now, but I still hope to find that love that will wake me up.




I rarely like any women. The few I do like are not the typical slutty stupid girls that use people.
I hate how women are these days, no one expect me to be a feminist. And usually, if two people disagree, I'll side with the guy, because it's the logical choice. This says it best: Receptionist: "How do you write women so well?" Writer: "Easy. I think of a man, and I take away reason and accountability."

Facts about my situation/life:
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I'm very faithful to the people I care about, and when I let them down it nearly kills me. I would never cheat on anyone, or hurt someone who didn't deserve it for my own gain.
I enjoy helping people, even though I hate most of the rest of the world, there are some that really deserve more than what they're given.
Even though I enjoy it I will say I can't do it as good as I want to all the time so I'm going to school to learn more about it.



Even though I want to help people I have this part of me that is also fascinated by the gruesome and horrifying, the ghastly horrible. I don't know how I have that part of me cuddled up with the "wanting to help people" part of me, but it's just how it works.