i strongly disapprove of your deleting your facebook. no there is no way for me to casually contact you and whine about how you won't let me love you. you probably won't get this until i've already forgotten you ever existed . . . .
first: i wanna write you a letter but i lost your address-
news: paris is shooting my ego down. it's saturday night. i'm sitting in bed. for the love of god, i'm 18 fucking year old. i should be having fun & being with friends at some posh bar, lauging & stuff. i've decided i need a complete change. maybe, i was thinking, if my dad gets rich again i will begin to entertain a solid cocaine habit, or some sort of habit at least, to get my mind off of worse things ( ie, solitude) i wanna do something irresponsible. this sorbonne deal is hopeless, at least for this semester. there is so much to catch up. ps: a lot of serious stuff has happened, i will write a letter. i swear, this place is fucking me up. it's like i'm 13 again. i'm actually not happy, ever. & i really do try. my art sucks, i can't write. i have become expressionless.
read this book: candide, by VOLTAIRE
it's great. also read: boredom by alberto MORAVIA.
sorry for the depressig comment. tell me how things are? how's nick? & school blah school is boring- have you made any discoveries?
lastly: if i have $$ again, iwill get an apt in nyc in summer. YOU WILL LIVE WITH ME. & about amsterdam, we would stay in a piss-ridden motel on the edge of the river, & we'd smoke our faces off & philosophize. i'll see how exactly i can make this possible. i'm sure your mother will be pleased to know you are eloping with your ex-lover to amsterdam. land of debauchery.
- hampshire is in the middle of nowhere - the environment in which you live will teach you more than the school you got to: ie new york is a BEEHIVE of love & fabulous hypocrits whhom we all love - you will probably meet someone famous in ny who could help you if you play it right - parsons is very famous hampshire isn't - you will be living the amrican dream - you will actually learn a fuckload there, AND you can take classes ( or transfer to) eugene lang which is a great school & the people are great thare - you will never be bored - trust me
ONLY THING TO WATCH OUT FOR:
it is very easy to lose control, to be swept away by new york, to get caught up in stuff until you get so confused you wish you were back at cushing- just make sure, no matter how busy you are to keep enough time to be alone & take care of yourself & do your responsibilities. & don't get to into the drugs scene, even though drugs are great, be careful, it gets crazy if you're not careful.
stop deleting your friends- ugh- it's a matter of principle.
ps: i got into the sorbonne ( ie: the 3rd best school in europe after cambridge & oxford) arrogance & pride are mine now- ps: it's only cause a friend of the family knows the president- i'm not actually smart or anything
you're in the city! ass. how come? college visits- you sent your apps yet? write your essay? umm anyway- listen- it's cool within the next week or 2 or 3 or 4- i will be going to school either in: paris (bleh), luxembourg, london, rome or copenhagen- sweet- besides that smoke a lot of weed for me cause i've been sober as a bookshelf since i left-
PS: i'm not coming back to the states for school- but i will visit- long enough for us to find a beach someplace and seize it by force- in a deeply unpolitical way.
holy cow youre not gunna believe it...i completed this deal to get an AUTHENTIC designer purse on Coach totally FREE & it truly worked!! since i KNOW its no joke now, i'm going to go back real fast and snag more to send out as a gift..you should go snag a few too ROFL! ain't mine awesome?
