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I am the only person I know that can stay in one spot for hours, even days at a time, in front of a computer. And feel like I have accomplished more doing that, then If I had physically worked all day. Or.... I can usually run circles around anybody, when it comes to working hard, and really "putting my back in it!" I'm in excellent physical shape considering the obstacles that I have encountered through life. All my body parts function correctly except my brain, because everyone makes a bad decision every now, and then... right? I am a, good looking, motivated, insightful, intelligent, analytical, healthy, eccentric, looking, and waiting for something I have never seen or experienced, entrepreneur who's future is a reality, not looking back at past failures, lies, or accusations, got over it, done with it, I GOT THIS, wanting as much as I can get out of life, living on the edge of breakdown, getting older everyday, Completely Self Controlled, mind screwed, manic depressive with all intentions to succeed in life at whatever I put my mind too, less death do me part, something else, or other freak case of mal nourished spirit intensified, life wanting, father of one who completely, totally, most definitely, cannot be without my daughter, lovable man you'll ever know, always forgiving, sometimes angry, ex husband, of a totally misunderstood individual that completely suppresses every thought action, and forgivable bone in my damn body okay? Get it? Who am I? It seems as though one can say I have experienced a lot in this life. Love, Hate, War, Truth, Lies, Deceit, Happiness, Joy, Hope, Depression, Tragedy, Forgiveness, Conviction, Pain, Misery, Comfort, Content, Pleasure, Euphoria,Faith,& Murder, Having my heart ripped out and fed to me while I watched and choked on it. Am I bitter...? Na, just scared for life, Of all of theses experiences I would have to say, I would like to see & feel more "love" It's the greatest! Only thing is... there's not enough of it, and those who think they do... usually stop doing it at some point in time, because there doing it somewhere else to someone else... WHAT YOU SHOULD DEFINITELY KNOW ABOUT ME. I am the most sensual loving person I know . I delight in rich foods, cuddling and lovemaking, luxurious fabrics -- anything that creates a delightful, tactile sensation. I also make a wonderfully dedicated and romantic partner in love. However, along with all that sensationalism tends to come a healthy dose of laziness and self-indulgence. I see no reason to deny itself anything I want and this tendency can sometimes deepen into greed. Beneath my love of luxurious surroundings lies the mistaken belief that self-worth can be measured in terms of possessions, or lack thereof. My main lesson in life is to learn that self-worth exists separately from what we have or own; our self-worth is an internal thing, untouchable from the outside, unbreakable by loss or misfortune. I know how to be generous, but should also learn how to let go of material possessions -- and other people. That possessive tendency can extend to lovers as well; I can be one of the most jealous, friends you will have. That old saying, "If you love someone, set them free," should be made into a tee-shirt just for me to wear! I'm quite stubborn as well I can really hold a grudge, when provoked So don't fuck me over, or play BS games. And if I get angry, you won't want to get in my way; I can be truly aggressive, even combative, when my passion is aroused. Like everyone, By nature, I have a hard time understanding that no one can control anyone's actions but their own. I tend to fear change -- of any kind, bad or good! I'm born under fears influence, & often just want to stick with the status quo. I'm learning that a constant inter personal change opens the door to new, wonderful things; even painful change, like moving residences or ending a relationship, often leads to great overall improvement. Furthermore, change means growth and as living beings, growth is what we do. I am learning fast how to relax into change and accept it, and that all will be well. I'm learning also how to trust myself to handle the uncertainty of life. For me, uncertainty can be the worst thing in the world! It isn't inherently negative, however; I just think it is. These days LOVE seems like an overrated word, With all the hope that a man can have I have Summer, my best girlfriend whom I am faithfully committed to in with honor integrity loyalty trust and content. We make a great team. together we have four ninja monkeys. The youngest daughter Natalie-5, then the youngest son Noah-7, then our oldest daughter Brittney-7, as well as our oldest boy, Nathan-10. We all do our best to love trust and support the other. That's how we roll. We live in Gadsden at the moment, but who knows what life holds. I work like a slave, for my money because I feel I have too to be the happiest. Henceforth I have much I still want to do, but for the most part Im a happy man. Life for me is about relationships, & success.