I like lots of things, but than, I give everything at least one shot, so I suppose that could do it. However, there are a few things which strike my fancy more than others and I suppose that this is the place to put such. I absolutely adore dancing in the rain, to feel the water against me, the dual feelings of being weighted to the earth and floating. I adore dancing in general and I adre horseback riding. I love writing long letters to people and recieving them in return because it lets you know that someone cares enough about you to take a few minutes out of their day to think about you.
I love the feel of silk and the restriction of a corset, the fullness of dresses. I enjoy long walks through sand without my shoes on and I love waking up in the morning with the last remnants of my makeup on because, despite the swift face wash the night before it makes your lips look fuller, your eyes more vibrant.
I love quiet evenings with a book and I love writing my own stories, ideas. I love the Victorian era and the Renaissance. I adore music and dancing around my room with a hairbrush as a microphone. I like getting in the car and having no destination in mind and I love exploring.
I like being by myself but I do love good company. I love being a lady and I love the times I can step it down a notch. I love twisting cliches for my own purpose and I adore animals. I absolutely love getting into a bed that has sheets which are cold to the touch and I love snuggling under the blankets when it is chilly. I love cuddling and I love kissing. I love waking up to a text message that just says "Have a good day" and recieving a smile when I give one first and knowing that people trust me enough to talk to me.
Music
A
Angels on Acid
AFI
Angelspit
**Apoptygma Bezerk
Absurd Minds
Aiden
Amber Asylum
AliceNine
A Flock of Seagulls
**Alice in Videoland
A Perfect Circle
Alien Sex Fiend
B
Bauhaus
Behind the Scenes
Bella Morte
Billy Joel
**Birthday Massacre, The
Blaqk Audio
Bright Eyes
British Sea Power
Butthole Surfers
C
Carfax Abbey
**Cake
**Combichrist
**Cruxshadows, The
**Cure, The
D
**Dope Stars Inc
**David Bowie
**Deadsy
**Depeche Mode
Dir en Grey
Diva Destruction
**Dresden Dolls, The
E
Eagles, The
Eisbrecher
Ego Likeness
*Emilie Autumn
Evanescence
F
**Faint, The
Frozen Plasma
Front Line Assembly
G
GooGoo Dolls
**Grateful Dead
H
HelloGoodbye
HIM
HorrorPops
I
Informatik
J
Jack off Jill
**James D Stark
Journey
Joy Division K
**Kill Hannah
Kidney Thieves
Kittie
L
**London After Midnight
**L'Ame Immortelle
Lacuna Coil
Ladytron
**The Last Dance
**Le Tigre
Loudermilk
Lunascape
M
Meatloaf
Ministry
Misery Signals
**Mission UK, The
Miyavi
Monkees, The
MSI
Mushroomhead
My Chemical Romance
N
Nana Kitade
**Neuroticfish
New Order
**Nightwish
Nine Inch Nails
O
**Orgy
P
**Panic!at the Disco
Peter, Paul, and Mary
Paralysed Age
**PomPom Diary Q
**Queen
R
Rasputina
Razed in Black
Rolling Stones
Royal Visionaries
S
SexyDeath
Silk Demise
Saint Dymphna
Savage Garden
**She Wants Revenge
**Seabound
**Simon and Garfunkle
**Siouxsie and the Banshees
Sisters of Mercy
Sick Puppy
Social Code
**Soil
**Stromkern
T
**ThouShaltNot
**Tegan and Sara
TaTu
TECHNO
U
**Unicorns, The
V
Valentine Wolfe
**VNV Nation
W X Y Z
**Zeromancer
Some of my favorite lyrics
"Biting Keeps your words at bay
Ending to the sores that stay
Happiness is but a gash away" ---Bad Habit, The Dresden Dolls
"In a moment's time I might refrain from breathing
With her hand in mine
Something is breaking faster
Through a vapid sky I see a world unravel
I look into her eyes and see the end." ---Edge of the World, The Cruxshadows
"In the heat of Passion's war
Lust is spilt upon the floor
Staining red the wasted metaphor." --Violet, The Birthday Massacre
"Promise me to Pass the time
Dance with me on Plastic Tears
Kiss me we won't be alone
Till Morning when we disappear." --Promise Me, The Birthday Massacre
"Dance with me,
Under a bloodred Sea" --The Twisting, Loudermilk
"Innocent child
How you thought you knew me
Understood my ways
My dark needs
The chase is not the thrill I'm after
The kill, the conquest to be your master!"--The Bondage Song, London After Midnight
"Maybe I feel detatached
I may just look to shy
It's a disinterest not that I'm a timid guy." --Glass Danse, The Faint
"I'm everything you want
I'm everything you need
I'm everything inside of you that you wish you could be.
I say all the right things at exactly the right time
But I mean nothing to you and I don't know why." ---Everything You Want, Vertical Horizon
"We are nothing but Eurotrash
We take plastic
And we take cash
We sell our hearts, second class
We slit our throats on tinted glass." --Eurotrash, Zeromance
Movies
GYPSY 83
Legend
Lord of the Rings
Velvet Goldmine
The Last Unicorn
History of the World, Part 1
Girl With a Pearl Earring
Russian Arc
Love Bites
Vanity Fair
Attack of the Killer Tomatoes
Benny and Joon
Howl's Moving Castle
Television
Criminal Minds....seriously- the best show ever. ^^
True Blood
The Tudors
SKINS...another orgasmic show
Books
Oh..I love to read. ~grin~ ()Yes, I am a dork..() However my favorite books fall into several categories so here it goes:
Romance:
Once a Princess, Silver Angel <---Johanna Lindsey
Love in Vein 1 and Love in Vein 2 <----Anthologies edited by Poppy Z. Brite.
Fantasy:
THE BLACK JEWELS TRILOGY, Shadows and Light <---Anne Bishop
The Anne RIce Novels
Classics:
A Room with a View, Pride and Predjudice, Wuthering Heights, Dracula
Fiction:
Perks of Being a Wallflower, The Normal World of Boys, The Kitchen Boy, The Tattooed Girl, and I,Lucifer
ANd guys....The Claiming of Sleeping Beauty is the best erotica series I have ever read.
Heroes
I used to have heros. Now I just look up to people, and mainly that person is my sister, Sarah. She is one of the strongest most amazing people I know and I don't know what I'd do without her.
Take it to far,
Preview the scar,
yeah it stands like a filthy gorgeous mess
could you be more beautiful?
Was having a dream, just you and me,
your smile returned with one rainy day..
you're so damn beautiful.
--"Love 16" by Pom Pom Diary
I'm me. I'm not here to be your lap dog, your whore, your interest. I don't pretend to be perfect and I don't pretend to be special. I can be a wreck sometimes and I've done things to myself which I can't undo and in that process I've lost some people I care about, but all of those things make me who I am. I can't change now and even if I could I don't think I'd want too.
I am happy with myself and my past I have come to terms with and I won't be pitted against my self for anyone's pleasure. I can be skittish at times and timid when it comes to certain things, but I have a mind and opinions and I have reasons for being the way I am. If you care maybe one day you'll find out.
I'm sick of being toyed with, of being hurt, and so if you do it to me don't expect me to stick around. As sweet and nice as I can be I can be cold- no, not a bitch, just cold, icy. It's my protection and I will wield it to it's full extent if I'm attacked.
My friends I would do anything for- a few of you know that. I'll sit up with you at all hours talking, consoling, being a friend but I don't expect that in return. It never seems to be fulfilled. I don't expect anything from those I care about because I'm tired of being hurt in return and it's easier if I don't expect anything- so don't ask.
I don't trust easily, though I might give off that guise. I don't show emotion easily if it is anything other than excitement or happiness. And I don't share with people my feelings on a whim. I'm vulnerable to what people say no matter what anyone likes to think.
I have a guilt complex and it sometimes affects things I do, but you know what, it's gotten better over the years- alot better. It's just something that continues to exist in me.
I'm a writer and by nature writer's lie. We spin stories and tales and exaggerate and diminish important facts, but I never strive to hurt anyone and I don't say things I don't mean. Sometimes my metaphors are more straight forward than my vernacular. Just remember that.
I love sad songs and I love romance- so much so that at times the two intermingle and I don't know where one stops and the other begins. I lose myself in things I can't have and naively am blind to those that exist in front of me. I'm tired of giving my heart to people, but I'm not bitter. This is my last try.
I don't seek your acceptance or your trust and I don't expect you to understand me, because honestly I don't always understand myself. I don't understand but I seek to discover, and if you ask the right questions I can tell you almost anything.
I won't change for you and I won't let you change for me. I value who you are and I accept everything you have to offer, but I won't follow blindly.
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Who I'd like to meet: Someone unique and new. Someone who has life left to give. Someone who is broken. Someone who is an old soul. Someone born in the wrong century. Someone who still wishes on stars. Someone who believes in magic.
thnx for keeping ur fingerz crossed for me sweetie...itz much apprecited...yea, I like similar things...drinkin', good friends, concerts, all the fun stuff....howz ur weekend going?
Sorry for the delayed response...i've been better but thnx for askin'..life has been quite the bitch lately...stress with work, finances, home etc. Just working on making thingz better..keep ur fingerz crossed for me...so, what do u like to do for fun? {sorry bout the cliche' question}
I've been slightly crazy.....planning a wedding is hard work....I still feel like I'm missing some important thing I should have.....But tis all good and exciting!
Allo lovely!!!! i'm sorry I've been a bad friend as of late! Life's been so crazy trying to get wedding things together and working extra to pay for it all. But I miss you and I wanted to say Happy Birthday cuz I saw that it was!!!!!!
hey, how ya been? hope you are doin good.. ready for fall and some haunted houses lol... still djing all the time haha... hit me up!! if u ever need a dj 7064913988
It's been a long day. If mopping ever becomes an olympic sport I got it down pat. Anyways i was sitting here alone (*shivers* sounds dirty doesn't it?) in a motel room (gasps) with a bottle of rum and a book on quantum physics and thinking this sounds like the most depressingly boring letter to penthouse just when your picture popped up and I thought I'd come in for a rather long winded hello.
