Anime, Manga, Jrock/Visual Kei, Gothyness, Industrialness, Psychopharmacology, Esoteric Spirituality, Photography, Alternative Fashion, Asian Chicks :P
Music
Random Jrock/VK, Orgy, OhGR, The GazettE, Dir En Grey, Apoptygma Berzerk, VNV Nation, Assemblage 23, KMFDM, Skinny Puppy, Razed In Black, Nine Inch Nails, Front Line Assembly, Icon of Coil, God Module, System Syn, Deadsy, Aural Vampire, T3chn0ph0b14, Disturbed, Cradle of Filth, Gackt, Malice Mizer, Schwarz Stein, Moi Dix Mois, Informatik, Közi, TM Revolution, Depeche Mode, The Cruxshadows, Girls Under Glass, Zeromancer, Girugamesh, Glay, Aikawa Nanase, Covenant
Movies
The Davinci Code, The Order, Requiem For A Dream, 24 Hours on Craigslist
Television
Only thing I ever watch any more is Adult Swim. MTV's Juvies is great for nostalgia though ;p
Books
Red Azalea, The Gnostic Gospels, Angels and Demons, The Davinci Code, The Tripitaka
Heroes
Tom Shear, Sascha Konietzko, Gackt, Alexander "Sascha" Shulgin, Terence McKenna, D.M. Turner
As the stars appear
I know I'll find you staring at the sky.
Pointlessly reaching for some light
You hope to guide your sorry way.
Your body bleeding.
Your body burned.
Your body scarred.
Around the cinder of your heart
A God of love.
A God of care.
A God of hope.
A God of words.
A God as lost as you and blind
to fill your hollow soul again.
You seek a God to stand above you,
wrapping healing arms around you.
You'll find another God of pain,
a God of suffering and tears.
Give yourself unto your God.
Sacrifice yourself again.
Burn your thoughts erase your will
to Gods of suffering and tears.
Tie hallowed bonds around your hands.
Kneel before this seat of shame
to Gods as lost,
Gods as blind,
Gods of suffering and pain.
Life is to short to dwell on the death of loved ones. so instead, remember the good times, the feelings they made you feel, the memories that make you giggle, the impact they made in your heart. Ian, I will always remember you, and I will miss you till the end of time... I thank you for being here with us. Till we meet.
When i walk around main street, I remember you. I remember you walking down main street, i remember you riding your bike to my house. I remember all the good times. I remember all the bad times, too. Like how i kept making you sick. I still blame myself sometimes. You were really my best friend, ian. I miss you a lot. It's going on one year in a few months. I remember what we were doing the last day you were here. And i miss you dearly. I miss you a lot.
If i had one with in the world, it wouldnt be for a million dollars, it wouldnt be for a car, it wouldnt be for anything but to have you have at least one more day on earth. :) I miss you, dbffl. I really, REALLY miss you. :(
HIIII :D I miss you. I want you back. I know it wont happen. But at least we can comment on your space and remember you, Because youre not supposed to remember the bad, youre supposed to remember the good, you know. and i never had any bad with you :D <3
Hey Ian, time seems to just be flying by these days. I can't believe it was a month ago when i last left you a comment. I visit your page almost every day. I wonder what kind of conversations we could have had in these past four months since youve been gone. So many things i could have learned from you, you had so much wisdom, far beyond your years. I always took everything you said seriously, i could trust youre advice. I wonder what you would have changed your profile song to by now. :) I wonder if you're able to see me now, or your sister, or your brother. I wonder if you can read these comments, or get the messeges. Wherever you are. So many things Ian, we can only wonder. I can only wonder.
Ian, i downloaded the entire KMFDM discography a while back. Each time i listen to a song, i always wonder if you heard it. And if you did, where you were at. :) I love you man. I miss you.
Rest in peace, my brother.. I can only hope that you have found peace, where ever you are.. the lives that you have touched, the lives that you have seen in the roles that you have played no one can replace..
Ian... I miss you so much. Ever since you left newark... You have been a big part of my life, believe it or not. im heartbroken, in all actuality. I know that you and i only had a few weeks together, but that time we spent to me was something amazing. You taught me so much; even things i shouldnt have known. I just wish i knew sooner, than to find out on here. I was waiting for you to get back online, sitting here... wondering where you were. Wondering how Dexter was. Wondering how your mother was. Believe it or not, i cared about what you had to say. And ill never forget you. Not for a single moment.
I'm going to miss you so much Ian... You were always there when i needed advice, i knew i could trust you. If not for you, I probably would have made some serious mistakes...I remember we first met on the Electronic/Dance music chat room on here. I hadn't seen you online for a while, and when you were your stolen internet was so horrible that it kept kicking you off. :) But when you signed on, for the briefest of moments, i smiled. Because i knew you were starting to be happy, things were looking up for you. It was ok if i didn't get to chat with you, because i knew you were doing well.
You will be sorely missed my friend... Each time i talk to one of the people you introduce to me, i will remember you. Each time i log onto myspace, i will remember how we met. You will never be forgotten, for as long as i live. I have never, and will never meet another like you....
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