~~~~~~I onced Loved,but I gradually lost it All.~~~~~
So I have been thinking a lot lately about when bad things happen, You kinda think that if there was a God,WHY would he cause me SO much pain? Why would he take the person I love away from me? Why would he make my child suffer.......The thing is ,you can ask WHY,WHY,WHY All day long,and NEVER receive the answers you are looking for. Especially when your hurting,nothing will comfort you,NOT even the Truth. So back to GOD, ALL my Life I questioned it,Is he real? Well,I hope so..Because it gives SO many people faith to believe that there is a higher power. It gives them the strength to better themselves, even if they don't BELIEVE in themselves. To have Faith and Trust in something that doesn't materialize,is POWERFUL. It's just amazing,to have a spiritual connection to someone that is there in your heart and mind,but can't see through the reflection of your eyes.
I,Myself,Still question it. I don't do it to Rebel,or for lack of respect,I do it because I am that type of person to say,OK...If your so Real show yourself,Or if Your so powerful,STOP the hate and Violence against innocent people. But,I can't And I won't. Who am I to question God? If he's real in your Eyes,so be it.
About me: She's been hit with the reality that,NOT everybody is on
her side.
We live in a world where being two-faced is normal,and Family is Just Not FAMILY ANYMORE. Those TWO words should NEVER,EVER be in the same sentence. But in this little story,they are. So here they will stay.
She took for granted that being in a family meant that you Really actually cared for certain 'someones',and that those certain 'someones' truly cared for you. BOY was
She WRONG. I guess what she was hoping for was being
accepted with open arms, but honestly,if it didn't happen
in the 18 years that she's known them,then Sweetie wake up and open your eyes,because it ain't EVER gonna happen. For years,she ALWAYS thought it was her,and that she was doing something wrong. But it was NEVER HER,Was it? It was you selfish people,allowing her to believe that she was this horrible,mean spirited person who cared about NOTHING but herself. That was so far from the truth. This woman,has Nothing but LOVE for EVERYBODY,Even those who shun her,who ignore her,who talk about her BEHIND HER BACK (NEVER to her face,Because they are spineless bitches),who ACCUSE her of HORRIBLE HORRIBLE things,those SAME people who come into her HOME and pretend to tolorate her. Jeez,how pathetic. She is and Always will be a Very optimistic person.She will Continue to see the very best in people,even after people continue to kill her spirit and make her feel worthless,it will be those same people who will have a hand in turning her WHOLE life around. And to those people,I SAY THANK YOU!
Who I'd like to meet: I don't need to meet anyone special ,i'm content with the people I already know...I don't like people.
I thought I needed YOU in my life,But when I sit and think about it,I REALIZE THAT,My life is much healthier,WITHOUT YOU IN IT!
A Look at wasting TOO much time on what doesn't REALLY matter,(Like certain people,That bring you down,PERHAPS!!!)
"Take a step back and look at the BIG picture. My Mantra is that I am JUST ONE person on this rotating planet who's inside this HUGE universe. So what does it really matter??"
Is it killing you to want to know what Deb's little secret is?? LMAO! Like how I didn't answer that? CUZ THATS CHEATING DARLENE!! You'll find out when you finish watching JUST LIKE I HAD TO!! LOL! Thats all... tootles!
HEY! I'm going to be in the San Fran bay on my cruise ship may the 8th. How far are you from the bay? If you're not too busy it would be nice to see you and Patsy. I have no idea where in the bay i will be though...it's a blue and white ship with a big white X on the smoke stack...that's right, i work on an X rated ship...haha
