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Sadly, this has become the struggle of one person/musician to make it somewhere in life with his passion, music.
Dawn Of Dreams was originally the solo project of now ex-Endless Lament main guitarist/composer, Tim Toskas who disenchanted, left Othos, Karpathos Island, GREECE in February 2000 to pursue a career in music in his hometown Asbury Park,NJ -USA. As of February 2000 up till 2009, Nothing has really happened here in New Jersey. Tim has been in and out of bands that went no where. Dawn Of Dreams is his last hope. Here there has been no help,no musicians,no nothing for all this music. There is really no room or space here. It's as almost Tim and Dawn Of Dreams does not belong here and are not welcome here at all. Back in Othos, Karpathos Island - Greece, Tim felt the same. He and his style of music was not too welcome. Life has gone by so fast and certain things seemed like it was yesterday but in fact have been years. You only live life once and in everyone's heart everyone also has a dream. Tim's dream has been to provide music to the world,play for people,friends,fans, make new friends and fans,travel the world and such. Being in a band has been a childhood dream as of the age of 13-14. Things have not gone as well and it seems like a lifetime is passing by. There is a feeling for this because life is too short and we all have the need to accomplish a goal, a dream. When that goal/dreams is slowly slipping away and you have no one there to help you grab/reach for it, it becomes all to real and sad. One thing is certain for us all, we reach a time in life where we die. Death makes no exceptions. What will become of us after wards is only but a mystery that we'll never know. If there is anything we want, it's that we would like to have reached a goal we set in life. I, Tim Toskas at the age of 28 have not reached my goal yet and despite being a very optimistic and motivated person, have not had the time of day and luck. Others are happy that things are going bad and non productive for my childhood dreams. Many others that I don't personally know and some that I've briefly met in person and know little of have supported me and want me to succeed as much as I want them too with their lives. This is supposed to be a band bio for sure here but it's come to a time where things are changing and I will be leaving New Jersey,USA to relocate to Greece again. I know I won't be happy there either but my life will be easier in terms of life. It's a choice between having to live on the edge or living without as much pressure. I'd choose the later one. There is no point of me being here anymore. What I have done and tried is all done here. In Othos,Karpathos Island I'll just be known as the long haired guitar hippy courtesy of the myriads of sterotypes over there despite a handful of friends. There are many people here and there that have gone out and said things about me and the music I do, some good and some bad. There's a thing you say to some "Put your money where your mouth is" and I haven't seen that from those who said things like that about me. A Few people did but hey they know who they are, those I thank you all the time. I just recently watched Anvil! The Story Of Anvil, have you heard of them? A Canadian Metal band from far back from the 70's that still exists and puts albums out. I had the honor of meeting Steve and Rob from the band in 2001 at the March Metal Meltdown Festival at the Convention Hall in Asbury Park,NJ. They were the nicest guys I hung out with at the festival after their show. Never would I've known the struggle and shit they have been through and still going through till this day. All I know that after watching their documentary I feel the same way and I can relate to them. Life is not fair. It's not fair when you don't even get a chance. When no one gives you a chance it's not fair. I've made a pact with my self and will never give up music. It's the only damn thing that keeps me happy in life even though I don't make any money and don't really have band mates/friends in this band. I know I've chosen a hard path that could be far from over and I don't know it. I'm not done yet and I'll keep trying even though I'll have to keep working construction and bad jobs for the rest of my life just to make enough to live, I can't give up my music. If it came to one day realizing that it's actually all over then I'll have every right to justify what I've been through and excuse my self. There were things in my life way beyond my control and I had to make some tough decisions. I can't go back and change them. Some were good and some where bad. If I'm viewed on as a loser so be it. I've always in a way been looked down at. It won't matter much. There's always hope, that's what I'm holding onto...Hope..and if you'll laugh at me for saying that then laugh at me if it makes you happy. There's not much time left for me here anyways so it won't matter...All I want is a chance...Thank you for every person that's giving me one...Thank you...
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of course im gonna check out the others n the bulletins i will keep posting... he he. fuck the jerk offs out there that dont appreciate good music... its a shame.
im so happy we have the cable not dial up i was listening 2 all the songs on ur profile its such a shame n pisses me off people dont recognize good talent.. well fuck them. :) take care
yes it was good being around good people 4 sure. i appreciate that u said that.. but today is another day n im sad n not to happy. people i thought loved me r being decieving its hard 2 swallow but i guess i gotta live withit.. like u said we all have problems.. it was great the movie was fun :) thanks rosemarie
Well i guess you are going to have to wait and see if it works out in those places. Lucky you! You get to get out of this shithole. Do you know any of those languages?
I will have the songs up, I hope next week. I now work at walmart ( evil place) so my days are crazy. But when I hear yells song. Dude that is cool. I going to have to step it up :)
talk to you later.
Thank you for such a positive spirit! Would like to have a bite in your place..whatever it will be haha I know about Smallville ...Who knows hey? :)
I just feel grateful and blessed in a way for the contact that happened...and if just remains on that then it would be ok. I did what I felt needed and everything over that would be a +...
I have a college(pianist) and a friend in Athens so maybe something will work out;)
hey tim melissa gotta work till 2pm so it will def b after that. i ment early i thought u were having it late evening. so im say 4pm i may need directions so i will call whenw e get close
I guess. But the paperwork/apllication that requires to be filled with both parties and then the interview. You have better things to do. But i guess i could give it a try...so when and where?
I can see where you are coming from. I have been trying to get something going for a while aswell. unfortunately im no where close to your calibur of playing otherwise i would be all about it. and if people want to be difficult fuckheads and egotistical cock suckers...thats on them. at least you are driven enough to tell em to fuck off. not run yourself in circles and move onto a better scene...hell i give you props. keep it real. best of luck!
Yea I know,I know...cash is ALWAYS an issue here hahaha :)
who knows maybe I'll come next year on a summer holiday in Greece so maybe be will get together...dont think of it to much..it will come in its own time..we will stay in touch definitely! Actually our metal scene is one big nothing! But this was their 2nd time in Serbia they were here in 07 but i missed that show..wasnt here in town... So you know Paul and Sean? MAN!! I had such a great time on the show i'm still under the impression!!!
Yea I gave him the arrangement..tho at the end of the show I had to leave right away...so I gave it to their sound guy. And yesterday evening i got an e-mail from Paul, saying he did received my arr. and hi;ll get back to me when tour ends...
You can imagine how i'm feeling all day long! I had rehearsal with my quintet from 11am till 4pm...we were so full of some energy and inspiration!
I never thought that it could mean something in the direction you are talking about(Paul and Seans tv work) I just had to give them something. I still have a Focus cassette from '93 and was so ecstatic when they released Traced in air...
Sorry if i sound bit all over the place..i still cant believe all this ...
And story does not end there...it was all so symbolic..First i didnt have the cash for the damn ticket, then my friemd calls me asking if i'm going.(i was the one who talked her into Cynic) so she buys me a ticket saying " You just gotta be on that show! Dont know why but I think its important" then the show started,my arrangement Palus e mail... Man....
Fingers crossed and I hope you'll manage to work everything in Greece! Take care my friend!
I'm off now to get some sleep...and to dream some cynical dawn of dreams...heh:)
So was i and you would have to fill out paperwork and then an interview and later on some more paperwork and it all seems to be too much. So i dont want you to go through all that trouble you already have enough to worry about.
hey tim whts up yeah saturday is good w. me melisa n leeann i might leave early 2 beat the traffic but i can def find something to do once im down their till ur ready. ttys :)
Im sorry to tell you. I have been thinking this and i dont see this (getting my papers) working out. So i dont want anything from you. But i will be willing to help you on getting the certificate if you still want?
Hello Tim, Sorry to hear you got all that turmoil..it will be all Ok. So Greece heh? Who know, maybe you could pop ip in Serbia then:) Its close;) Life is heading strangely , dare I say, well,,hm.. I got a working summer,gotta finish my education and finaly take that piece of paper-diploma.. Other stuff is working on its way somehow.. Last nite was amazing..I've been on the Cynic show...a night to remember! I even gave them my arrangement of 'King of those who know' for string quintet..hope they like it..Hope Paul will anyway:)
So stay in touch,and let me know when you are all set up in Greece.
I had the same job also for some time ( Metal buildings) Thanks for writing, I took the songs off because they were wrong. the new songs will replace the old ones, in a few days.
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