in amendment to the previous wannabe dj wishful thinking nonsense, so long as new york city promises a staggering 20 - 30 people at the average gothique bat fest (often a generous estimate at that), little or no money, "please play the fucking cult for me" (or worse), and by the way, you're not even gonna get laid out of the deal, i am fucking retired...i have bills to pay and a cat to feed...cram your fucking deathrock and your "best of 2003" overplayed ebm anthems...won't play memmaker or the new manufactura??? i'll go dry at your bar and listen to it at fucking home...
see craig.
see craig gradually lose any serious vested interest in traditional social engagements within the parameters of his lame-ass subculture.
on the other hand, i intend to gradually get back into writing, now that it's tapped me on the shoulder again...to paraphrase what a friend recently said to me after reading the new four-pager: it looks like the women checked out and your muse finally checked in...
speaking of women: somebody (***above and beyond the handful of female friends i have that do, but not in the "3-alarm fire in my knickers" kind of way***) please fucking impress the hell out of me before it's way too goddamned late...i mean, really, being a man, doesn't my prostate have maybe 5 or 6 years left before it goes on the fritz??? *ahem* but i digress...
open rebellion will never happen, so long as cheap beer and sporting events are made available to the public, but that doesn't mean i never want to learn how to fire a fucking gun...applications for firearm instruction currently being accepted, especially by the aforementioned impressive female who wants to "de-virginize" me at a local firing range (christ, that phrasing makes it seem even hotter than it already is!!!)...
also, roller coasters and broken hotel maintenace elevators, though only time will tell to what extent...
Music
die form, helium vola, neikka rpm, converter, front line assembly, android lust, pzychobitch, qntal, terrorfakt, this morn' omina, p.a.l., asche, manufactura, fabrikc, siechtum, kate mosh, memmaker, andraculoid, xotox, noisex, dulce liquido, tumor, nin kuji, cyanide regime, iszoloscope, negative format, brain leisure, solitary experiments, dawn of ashes, feindflug, pierrepoint, alter der ruine, c/a/t, noisuf-x, prometheus burning, tactical sekt, psyclon nine, morgenstern, agonoize, caustic, synapscape, destroid, headscan, fake, vnv nation, covenant, seabound, apoptygma berzerk, mind.in.a.box, in strict confidence, [:sitd:], assemblage 23, funker vogt, moctan, aslan faction, detune-x, h.i.v.+, cenotype, soman, fgfc820, pulse legion, flesh field, god module, ivory frequency, nebula-h, xorcist, urceus exit, paracont, haujobb, ayria, die sektor, project pitchfork, xentrifuge, velvet acid christ, hocico, grendel, combichrist, icon of coil, pow[d]er pussy, suicide commando, a7ie, kiew, pride and fall, monolith, endif, decoded feedback, massiv in mensch, e-craft, aiboforcen, nachtmahr, collide, hex rx, kevorkian death cycle, mlada fronta, ambassador 21, davantage, and one, winterkälte, noise unit, antigen shift, v2a, aesthetic perfection, iris, colony 5, melotron, necessary response, wolfsheim, syrian, de/vision, mesh, namnambulu, velvet acid christ, das ich, yelworc, wumpscut, mentallo and the fixer, x marks the pedwalk, and the occasional old school one or two times a year homage to: skinny puppy, switchblade symphony, thrill kill kult, siouxsie, kmfdm, lords of acid, sisters of mercy, front 242, nick cave, nitzer ebb, etc., etc., ad infinitum...oh fuck, stop me before i list again, goddamn it!!!
Movies
brazil, blade runner, fight club, se7en, dead ringers, naked lunch (come to think of it, just about anything cronenberg), barton fink, the thing (carpenter), jacob's ladder, dead alive, preaching to the perverted, and let's add sin city to the list now...also, italian horror, also zombies, also fucking also, so take that...snap!!!
Television
twin peaks, max headroom, northern exposure, family guy, aeon flux, the maxx, south park, the daily show, the colbert report, penn & teller's bullshit, some adult swim shite but not all, the x-files (pre-mulder exeunt), csi vegas, lost, also lost...did i mention LOST??? heroes heroes HEROES!!! also fringe and possibly the new addition of flash forward...i'm additionally a recovering reality show addict, and even made it to the finals for for one such show way back in the spring of 2005...ah, salad days...in fact, i made it to the finals for another show 2 years ago, as well, but it never made it to air (nobody likes tucker carlson?)...i tell ya, these little rejections are trying my patience...all i want is my fair chance to win a million dollars on national television...don't i deserve that???
p.s. what the fuck happened to battlebots??? stupid bastards took my fighting robots...dumb stupid...
Books
anthem, the fountainhead, the story of the eye, fear and loathing in las vegas, the magic mountain, the trial, suzuki beane, random poetic scrawl (e.g. kenneth fearing, allen ginsberg, e. e. cummings)...surely, i could be more in depth here, but as i have utterly eschewed the academic life since obtaining my master's degree, fuck all, i say...
Heroes
why, christ, our lord and savior, of course!!! actually, that fucker owes me money...
i killed jack horkheimer...killed him with the power of my mind!!!
um, real estate agents??? landlords??? politicians??? bankers??? that small festering stain of slime mold beneath my sink??????? all the pretty people of the world, really...
gangrene, perhaps...
how about total impunity in my actions and decisions + a rocket launcher??? my heroes can TOO be abstract concepts and high powered explosives, and screw you for suggesting otherwise!!!
MTV…the one you take to bed with you… Manahatta, NY, US Video Word Made Flesh
9/07 - now
DTHFCKR eCDYSiS these are hard times. a man will kill you for a frozen waffle...a roll of quarters...words of love softly spoken late in the evening. Posted at 12:08 AM Aug 29 view more
About me: boy in black, aberrant, twisted, deeply cynical, yet playful, as one stalking prey...insane, rabid edge-walker, screams, electric, riding fast upon the accursed demon, night, 'til foul break of bleak and sickening day...we live to die and die too young...be not afraid...i'm just bored with the mundanity of it all and am always open to new people and experiences; so few worth having...i write (correction: have written (double correction (!): just returned to my old nemesis, the proverbial blood-stained quill, after a lengthy absence (get me out of this crazy parenthetical hell!!!))), mostly poetry, have no sense of "purpose", no rational plans for my future, hate god, children, everything else moronic about humanity, and thrill to nights spent in blacklit clubs, followed by disco fries & coffee...in other words: pretty, dark, cynical (there's that word again!), desiring what might serve as expansive within that framework...
Who I'd like to meet: you: feel there's little hope in anything, save raw experience, and the few individuals worth their skin...enjoy cerebral pursuits, but feel that literature's mostly dead, technology a morass, but endless pontification the radiance upon which life subsists...hate children, god, religion, government, work ethics and popular fashion and music...the true ideal herein would be to center myself in an unshakable group of incredibly beautiful, dark, maladjusted people who love unending torrents of die form and ant zen, and wear an excess of black eyeliner; piercings, tattoos and all other body modification also welcome (bring your kinks, perversions, fetishes, whatever would most expediently qualify you for admission to hell; i'll be waiting)...we'd all revel in rampant acts of communal deviance and hedonism, but would also be connected to one another with such intensity as to never truly be apart...of course, that's just the fuckin' ideal...
How come I never see you since I am back in NYC and I work at Beauty Bar. Come by on Thursday for a manicure, I promise I will sterilize!! I have a beautiful blue/black polish that would look great on you.
Stacy - ( We met when you still live in NOLA) like 4 years ago!!!
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