A Walk To Remember, Brokeback Mountain, Eternal Sunshine Of The Spotless Mind, Casanova, Pirats Of The Caribbean, 10 Things I Hate About You, Finding Neverland, Mr. & Mrs. Smith, Titanic, The Butterfly Effect, A Lot Like Love, Elizabethtown, Over The Hedge, Rent, Snakes On A Plane, The Devil Wears Prada, The Holiday, Keinohrhasen, Twilight.
Television
Grey's Anatomy, CSI: NY, The O.C, One Tree Hill, Gilmore Girls, LOST, Queer As Folk, Prison Break, Skins, Private Practise && a lot more.
Books
Chuck Palahniuk's Invisible Monsters, Stephenie Meyer's Twilight, New Moon & Eclipse (it's a trilogy) and Jodi Picoult's Sisters Keeper
Heroes
I'm going to use this space to tell the most four amazing girls in my life how much i love them...
Aileen 'Busch'
We already know each other since 7 years... wow, time has passed fast... We had some crazy times, didn't we? I'm glad that I know you and I love you to pieces honey. Sometimes it's scary how much we are alike...
♥
Julia [we totally need a nickname for you girl]
We know each other since elementary school. You always ran around in your riding breeches, haha. So cute. It's great to have you as a friend. Let's hope we still know each other in 11 years. :)
Love you! ♥
Hannah Banana [haha, just kidding]
14 years of friendship and it's still not getting boring with you, haha. You rock my world and together we rock every concert, ha! We talk about the most senseless stuff without getting bored and really... I don't know what I'd do without you.
You look at me && I know what you think and vice versa, and once we start laughing (mostly at the most inappropriated time or place) we can't stop.
You're my heart & soul, I love you bebi. ♥♥♥
Vera text comes later...
delightful mess's Details
Status:
Single
Here for:
Friends
Orientation:
Straight
Hometown:
Duesseldorf
Body type:
5' 4" / Slim / Slender
Ethnicity:
White / Caucasian
Religion:
Catholic
Zodiac Sign:
Capricorn
Children:
Someday
Education:
High school
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hi, i'm helga. i live in germany.
i'm 18 years old. some people like to call me sam.
i love my friends.
i couldn't live without music.
i don't trust anyone... unless they show me i can.
i forgive far too easily.
i love to go to concerts.
i can't say no.
i'm not picky, i just know what i like.
i believe in destiny.
i want to travel the world.
i love to write.
i can't make decisions.
i shouldn't care what other people think of me, but i guess i do.
if i didn't like you, you would know.
i like to be sarcastic.
i love hugs.
i laugh at a lot of stupid things.
i'm kinda crazy actually.
i love to smile. but i hate feeling lonely.
i like a guy who doesn't like me back. it's not you.
i'm addicted to coffee.
i get jealous easily.
my room's a mess very often. so is my life.
i miss simplicity.
if you think you know me you're probably wrong.
hey hey hey! whaaaat's uuuup? :P bei mir geht alles drunter und drüber und zwar aus dem grund, der sich am samstag ergeben hat http://de. youtube. com/watch?v=lBDR2TI5vWs aaaah, ist das nich toll? *. *
Okay, I have your copies of the CDs (and the old single that I picked up a while ago), along with a few other gifts! Problem is, I start school tomorrow and it's draining my account so I won't be able to send it right away like I planned. I'm sorry! :(
I probably will be moving later than even I planned. I thought I could move right after I got out of school (or around that time), but I have a feeling it's going to be a lot later. Maybe even early 2010? Since it would be dumb to move right before Christmas and have to come back too... We'll probably meet before then anyway!
My tattoo is more than likely on a BIG hold. Since I had to be put on a payment plan for school, I don't think I'll be able to afford it this summer. I thought I could sneak 500 dollars by selling some stuff, but I think I'm going to need that money. I just don't really want to tell the artist...especially not if he's really working on the design like I'm going to come in next week or something. I'm sure he won't mind...but...I worry! I'm pretty excited about it either way. Maybe instead of a birthday present to myself, it will end up being a Christmas present... XD
A bookstore around me has a "street" map of Berlin, that I'm looking to buy, so I can map out where exactly these are. I've been, but we were mainly in a shopping area. We didn't really get to explore the city as a whole.
I'm not sure if the boys will come back that soon. I know they want to get an album out this year...at least that's what I've heard. I would like them to come back around late September/October now too, since it seems like this summer is going to be frantic for me. Though...I hope it's still warm around that time...I hate waiting for concerts in the cold...
We'll definitely work something out to get you here though! Where were you planning on going when you got to the US later this year?
Personally, I'm freaking out a bit over money, but other than that I'm really excited that this school is letting me start without the required 1300 tomorrow! If they hadn't, I would have had to wait until October to start! How are you?
XD Love you! ♥
(For some odd reason hearts aren't showing up on my computer...)
I like how teachers tell you that you'll always use math...which is true...but only BASIC math!
I hope they end up coming back here in the fall. I think it will depend on how well everything does this week with the CD sales and publicity.
I've got our copies of the CDs on hold at my work...and then I'm going to the other store to get the other version too! I think I still have your address, I'll email you later and check and see if I have it right.
I don't think it will take us too long to meet in person! It will just depend on whether or not you come out here first or I move there first!
Well, I designed a star thing for a friend, so the first designs on my page aren't for my tattoo. Mine are in a separate entry. I designed the back and the front, but I wanted to use a design I found for the front instead (which is the computer-generated picture also included in the entry). Wow...that was a confusing explanation...
Let me see if I can find pictures... I can't find the place I was originally looking at. I think I have it saved on my other computer (which died...:( ) But, I've been looking here: http://berlin. en. craigslist. org/apa/ Of course this only gives me a guess of what I could have, since I'm not moving for a while, and these places probably won't be available. I just needed to know what I could get and for what price! I have no idea where most of these are though.
We'll definitely have to get you out here if they reschedule for a time you can come! I have to start saving in case they reschedule anyway, so I can put aside some to help you with travel fees if we have to!
Me either! I barely made it through our fourth level of math. That was where I stopped!
I guess it fits there! It was going to work itself out at the concerts, but now they aren't happening anymore, so I just have to wait.
No problem! I'm so glad I can pick this stuff up for you! Only a few more days!!!! I hope my Hot Topic gets them in, but I don't think they're going to...so I'm going to have to drive to the other one in town. (Which isn't a problem, I just wanted to help my store's sales)
It's so funny. It took us a while of to be myspace friends, and now even longer to be LJ friends!
Did you get to see the pictures of my tattoo that I put up? This is the only one I think I'm really going to make an exception for. I had been thinking about 'Rette mich' for at least 6 months before I got it...so I thought about that one...but this new one is MY design...so I'm definitely positive about it! Right now the bats and the "Rette mich" are all I have.
Oy...I forgot already! One of them was...725 euros a month furnished and no bills? For two bedrooms, I think. So split between a roommate, that'd be good, I think. Less than I paid on my own in Chicago!
Aw...well, the time seems to be moving quickly for me...maybe it will for you too! And who knows, maybe we'll get you out here for a TH tour later this summer! XD
My friend is majoring in Math in college. I don't know how she does it!
Thank you. I think it's slowly working itself out. I don't really know at this point. Then again, I could just be having a good day.
Nah, don't worry about it. I can pick up the two versions for you no problem. You're actually not allowed to pay me back for the version from Hot Topic. Company rules.
I added you! Finally! I usually have a rule. I pick a design and I have to like it for six months to a year. If I still like it after that...I get it tattooed. Then again, I only really followed that rule with my bats! XD
I was looking at apartments in Berlin the other day and I found some pretty cool places.
I was always horrible at science too. I just couldn't bring myself to pay attention! I loved math, but I wasn't very good at it. XD
I don't know what would cheer me up really. Well, okay, I do, but it's not really obtainable. I had to take my little break to see how I really felt...and it made everything come into place. It's not really something I can get over, I don't think. I'm trying to work around it though.
I'm so glad my nose never ran during this long-winded cold! It would have made work miserable! I hate having to blow my nose in front of customers.
Yay! I'm glad your excited about the stuff I got! I was worried you wouldn't care. XD I'm buying the Hot Topic and Best Buy editions...as well as iTunes. I can pick you up the two actual CD versions. I'll just wait to send everything until they come out so that it's only one package. You don't owe me anything! I was happy to get the stuff for you!
I'm so excited about this tattoo. My only problem is I think it's going to cost a lot. I have pictures of it up on my Livejournal, but I need to take a better picture of the back piece. Tattoos are definitely something you should think about. One of my friends and my brother, didn't really think too well about their tattoos. Of course, that's my personal opinion, because I think their tattoos look horribly done...but that's just me!
Hey! Don't worry about it. I was actually on an internet hiatus. I hope your exams went okay!
I'm a little on the depressed side, but I'm slowly trying to get over it. I still cough like...a couple times a day...but it's not as bad. Just...annoying.
It's starting to get crazy hot here...and our air conditioning is broken at work...it was 81 (27 Celsius) degrees at work on Saturday...
I have presents for you! I bought you a copy of Blender that TH did that casino shoot for. As well as a copy of Scream America, the single. If you'd like a copy of the CD that comes out here on May 6th, just let me know. I was planning on picking you up the one from Hot Topic at least (I think it has Raise Your Hands as the exclusive track) since I get a discount on it.
I haven't done much research on moving again...but I've been a bit busy with work. I have designed my next tattoo though, and I can't WAIT to get it done. I'm not quite sure when I'm going to get it though.
I've been to two of those places and had chances to look around. We flew into Frankfurt, but that was all I saw of there. I was looking more toward a city, or living near a city, because I know I'll be able to make more money in a salon there, than in a small town salon (as bad as that sounds...but I have a lot of bills to pay!). I'm definitely going to be doing my research. It was hard for me the last time I looked, but now I'm excited and really serious about moving, so I'm sure it will be better.
I don't think I'll end up with a job before I go...since it's kind of impossible to go for an interview...we'll see!
Isn't Bill always spoiled? I just hope Tom is there with him now.
Yeah! When I was in Germany (and sick) it was so easy for me to just go to the doctor and get what I needed. Here it will cost way too much, so I'm just trying to tough it out. I don't cough as much, but then again, it comes and goes. Some days it's a lot, some days not so much. I shouldn't still be coughing though, it's been almost two weeks? Cold medicine isn't working either... :(
Thank you though! I hope everything is going well with you.
I love these long comment conversations we have! ♥
Like I said, the shows here kind of were the same, since Bill had a script, but also like YOU said, it's always a different experience and it makes me crazy happy as well. I was risking a lot planning that week long trip to follow them in April...risking the chance of getting kicked out of my house...but honestly? As crazy as it sounds, I wouldn't have cared. I'd rather be homeless and happy than here wishing I went.
My mum never went to concerts herself or is really that into...well...anything! So, no, she doesn't understand spending money on anything like concerts. She just now found out that I went to a show by myself (the one I got hypothermia at) in 2006. I think she'd understand more if she had a passion for anything.
It would help if I weren't SO different from my siblings. My mum's work used to be beneath an alternative high school, so everyone there looked like me (as stupid as that sounds)and of course, they were the "bad" kids that were into drugs and all that. She just makes opinions based on appearance, and she thinks everyone else does (which is sort of true), so she hates that I don't look the way she wants. I'm a creative person...she's more practical. I live life day to day and she likes planned things better. Because I'm so different than her, she likes to take everything out on me. I get called many things by her...and none of them good. I think she blames me for a lot of things that went wrong in her life as well. Well...I kind of know she does.
She and my family (and experiences with my friends) have made me not really trust anyone, so I don't really go into much detail about my life with anyone. I skim over details...it's just hard.
I mean, it could have boiled down to problems with the band too...but he had to have that surgery three times...and his band got kicked off a tour for it once. So I think it was just everything combined. But Tokio Hotel probably wouldn't continue on without Bill like FFTL did without Sonny. I think they set the date as May 8th, when he can try to sing again. That of course could be pushed back now that his surgery has been postponed... He's the same age as Sonny, and he does sing forcefully--even if he doesn't scream like Sonny did. I think that his surgery will go a lot better than Sonny's, because...well, let's face it, Bill has more money...and can get better care.
I'm just afraid he won't rest himself. He was so upset to cancel a show, I think he's going to jump at any opportunity to sing, even if he's not ready...hopefully he'll be smart enough not to.
When you said something about coming out for the rescheduled shows, I freaked. That would be so amazing! I don't think they'll be coming here in July...but maybe early August. On the selfish note, I was kind of glad that the shows were postponed...because I have no money really. I had to have someone else buy my tickets for the third shows because I didn't have enough money to cover all three. The bad thing for me, other than Bill being sick (obviously), is that I'm starting school in May...so it will be harder to get the days off for when they reschedule...if they reschedule.
Man, can I have your mum? My mum really doesn't care if I'm happy or not... I am looking forward to moving so much! I'm so excited to start school in May (I actually wish I could start now...I'm not working right now (since I'm on leave) and it's BOOOORING at home) and I can't wait to move next year.
I know what you mean though about your mum not understanding why you go to so many concerts of one band. What they don't understand is every show is different. I went to two Fall Out Boy shows from the same tour and they were so completely different from each other that I was very glad I did go to both. I think my mum's main issue with me going to concerts is I usually don't have the money to go. She has different priorities than I do.
My family is and always has been a family that doesn't talk about anything. We're all so stubborn that no matter how hard you try to get someone to see your way, they won't. When I was talking to my mum from training (which I just recently quit), she showed no remorse at all for me having to go live somewhere else. I even said something about having to stay at a hotel when I got home...and she didn't care at all. She blames me for a lot of things that have gone wrong in her life. She cares a lot about appearances, and of course, I don't fit in her perfect little bubble. I've chosen to just ignore it. That's what I've done my whole life. It's just hard to live in a house full of such animosity and hatred. I just have to keep in mind that I'm graduating in a year, and hopefully moving in that time too. Thank you for listening to everything. It means a lot to me.
I don't know what city I want to live in yet. I haven't looked too far into it. I think to make enough money to live, I'll have to live in a bigger city. Since salons in bigger cities usually fetch higher prices.
I seem to be getting better...but then again, I don't know! I just wish I had health insurance so that I could go get medicine to help me. At least Bill has a bazillion specialists catering to his needs!
Oh my god...I love long comments! XD I can understand some Cali people being upset since they only had one show and it sold out pretty fast. New York people had two chances. The second show wasn't sold out until just before the first show. Plus, there are shows going on AROUND New York, so they still have something to attend this time around. I do agree with you completely on the poor timing of management. I thought they were just coming here for promotion in the spring...and I would rather have them make up the concerts they missed now in April or whatever, and come here in the fall. And you're right. Bill needs more time off. Like I said, he's going to end up like Sonny Moore if they keep pushing him this hard. Sonny had to quit 'From First To Last' because his voice couldn't handle all the stress anymore. He had to have surgery on his vocal chords three times! I can't believe than fans complain in general. They complain no matter what happens. Honestly, I care more about Bill's health and the health of the band rather than if I get a concert or not.
On a more selfish note, I wish they'd come in the fall so you could come! We'll definitely follow them around when I move there. We'd never get close enough to see them, but we'll definitely follow them around.
Well, my mother doesn't have the same passion for music (or anything for that matter) that I do. So naturally she doesn't understand what concerts are to me. I don't care if they don't approve of me going, I'd go anyway. I just don't like listening to them complain about it. (more in next comment!)
Yeah, I understand why European fans are angry. My only point for the management is that they probably had these dates in the works ever since their concerts here in February went well. They probably just announced them now because they were made official...I mean, more dates are being announced it seems like every time I get online! I don't like the way their management is running the NA shows just because they give them so little time to promote. I mean, tickets for the dates around me go on sale THIS FRIDAY AND SATURDAY! I don't have money as it is, but I'm going to make sure I get tickets. I would have rather had the boys take a break and come back later in the fall/winter. They need a break. But I also understand, they want to come over here to promote their cd that comes out on April 29th. I wish you had the time/money...or that I had the money to help you. It would be amazing to go on my (right now) three day concert tour with you. The concert dates have made me happy that they're coming so close to me, but also sad, because I don't have the money and I know I'm going to never hear the end of it from my mother/family if I go--though, I'll go anyway.
I'm used to feeling unwanted at home, because I'm the misfit amongst a house full of "normal" people. It's just harder now because my step-dad moved back in...so my mum is putting more pressure on me.
If I get into this next round of classes starting in May...I'll graduate around April of next year. So I hope to get over there by June?
Aww, I wish I were drunk. I'm sick though. Bill passed his laryngitis on to me.
That's cool! Good luck on getting your license then!
I resigned from Flight Attendant training, because the money wasn't good enough...but of course I came home to a family that didn't want me! I'm going to go to cosmetology school, finish that and then I'm out of here! I plan to move out of the country (hopefully to Germany! XD) within the next year.
So things aren't going too well here, since I'm not wanted around...but I'll just have to make do. I'm used to being not wanted.
Aw, I'm so happy you wrote so much. I love comments. We'll definitely have to go together. I get free flights after my training, maybe I'll even be crazy and go to a German show with you! Maybe I can get you a free flight out here when they come back! That would definitely save you some money.
I wouldn't ever approach anyone that I'm a fan of. One, because I'm impossibly shy. Two, because I have no idea what I'd say...or even if I could spit out a simple "hello". Three, because in that situation, where they aren't specifically there to see fans/greet fans...they do need their space, like you said. I know other girls would have jumped all over him, and I'm glad the woman I went with felt the same as me about leaving him alone. I feel so bad for the boys with the way some fans are...and Tom was just...so tired. From the look on his face when I walked up the steps to the seating area, I could just tell he wanted nothing more than to go back on vacation and sleep for about two months. I hope he got to enjoy his Starbucks.
n0t much zur zeit :/ uffzzzz abi sucks. aber irgendwann hab ich auch diesen großen schritt hinter mich gebracht&&dann gehts hoffentlich ab nach däniiii XD was geeeht bei dir? LxOxVxE
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