i speak in subtleties.
i touch more than just your skin.
i kiss like we exchange souls.
i fuck like tectonic shifting.
Music, love, passion.
Music
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Randomher0, john mayer, say anything, early to bed, dashboard confessionals, brand new, bright eyes, as i lay dying, all that remains, soilwork, unearth, bullet for my valentine, as tall as lions, dark tranquility, straylight run, copeland, HORSE the band, the haunted, aphex twin, autechre, prefuse 73, bogdan, in flames, children of bodum, radio head, portis head, joe satriani, a perfect circle, tool, slick shoes, anathema, firing squad, Edgey, 30 seconds to mars, incubus, notwist, deftones, squarpusher, atreyu, system of a down, vader, opeth, aesop rock, DJ shadow, arch enemy, disturbed, pinback, atmosphere, jedi mind tricks, arab strap, Rush, bloodhound gang, C-rayz, protest the hero, kill switch engage, fighting the frame, black sun empire, krust, early november, incubus.
Movies
American Psycho, event horizon, a beautiful mind, matrix i and ii and iii. lord of the rings, east is east, cube, hypercube, vampire hunter d, waking life, ninja scroll, ghost in the shell, akira, the cell, moulin rouge, city of angels, GARDEN STATE, lost in translation, donnie darko, napoleon dynamite, batman begins, blade, dark city, reqium for a dream, High Fidelity, Out Foxed, Merchants of Cool.
Television
Tv = the waste of time
Books
Mary Shelleys Frankenstein...Authur C Clarke's childhoods end/Return to Rama (4 book series), 2001 series (4 book)...Daniel Quinn's Ishmael...Michael crichton's timeline, the andromeda strain, the sphere, the terminal man, prey, Stephen K. Reed, Cognition: Theory and application 7th edition.
Heroes
Randy, Abe, Ben Franklin, Jim, Tay, Hunter, and all the people who have helped and are helping me become me.
The seams burst open
to reveal a forest inside
where it's constantly raining
and all the trees have died.
Demorior -mori mortuus- to die for love of
Hello this is Marcel
Im just another shell
The control is acquired
My insides rewired
Replace with machinery
The weak parts inside of me
Hello, my name is Marcel
Im just a material shell
My mind is your mind
There is no such thing as time
We are one, a singular wisdom
Now go on, enjoy your freedom
...MMX
I'm marcel. One of my major goals in life is to understand humans. I want to know what makes people work, what moves them, what inspires them, what motivates them, what they fear. I think understanding ones self is the only way to opening the door to understanding your place in life and your relationship to the rest of the world and the universe. I want to explore every connection i could possibly have with everyone i meet. I try my best not to judge or assume what people know, where they have been, and who they want to be. I'm just trying to make a difference from the corner of the room, the back of the bar, the isle of a grocery store, the stop and go of traffic, the seat of a coffee shop, the sidewalk where we brush by like ants without a pause or hello, just bow your head and stay focused on GO.
I started a personal training company called 3fit (http://3fit.info) in order to help people and provide a means for people to change their lives in a positive way. I've been around the sun 25 times. I'm at my best in the middle of the night. I get easily frustrated with people who don't use their intelligence. I think my two biggest skills are my awareness and my well roundedness. I have been called the darkest part of darkness by people who have no idea what that means. My music has been compared to John Mayer and Dashboard Confessional. Dancing to Drum and Bass is one of my favorite things to do. I can feel extremely lonely in the middle of a crowd. I always cook for two whether I'm eating alone or not. I can probably teach you just as much as i know i will learn from you. I play guitar to clear my head. I go to school (psychology and kinesiology major). I like it when people argue with me about random stuff. i like people who have their own ideas.
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Emo Sex
Trent: You know what you are? You're like a big bear with claws and with fangs...
Sue: ...big fucking teeth, man.
Trent: Yeah... big fuckin' teeth on ya'. And she's just like this little bunny, who's just kinda cowering in the corner.
Sue: Shivering.
Trent: Yeah, man just kinda... you know, you got these claws and you're staring at these claws and your thinking to yourself, and with these claws you're thinking, "How am I supposed to kill this bunny, how am I supposed to kill this bunny?"
Sue: And you're poking at it, you're poking at it...
Trent: Yeah, you're not hurting it. You're just kinda gently batting the bunny around, you know what I mean? And the bunny's scared Mike, the bunny's scared of you, shivering.
Sue: And you got these fucking claws and these fangs...
Trent: And you got these fucking claws and these fangs, man! And you're looking at your claws and you're looking at your fangs. And you're thinking to yourself, you don't know what to do, man. "I don't know how to kill the bunny." With *this* you don't know how to kill the bunny, do you know what I mean?
Sue: You're like a big bear, man.
Mike: So you're not just like fucking with me?
Trent: No I'm not fucking with you.
Sue: Honestly, man.
Who I'd like to meet:
I would like to meet people who have a sense of awareness toward the world. I want to meet people who listen with more than their ears, who touch with more than their hands, and who see with more than their eyes.
Channel 104.9 THE BIG SHOW... I think you will be interested and amazed at the same time. It's September 19th at the SJSU Event Center, come rock out!!!
I'm doing great! I'm back at SJSU in grad school and working in special ed ... not much else! It would be nice to catch up with you... let me know if you wanna go for a hike or something!
