About me: im rachel
I just try to live for the day... ive realize im either going to fuck up havin fun or stumble walking the straight and narrow and quite frankly i want to be able to say w/e i did i had fun doing it
Who I'd like to meet: someone that with be bluntly honest with me if i ask them a real question but still has fun in their life... hah im afraid its too much to ask though
damn str8 hah cbk... hes obsessed.. of course ur gonna be thinkin about sirus, i mean when ur called darlin u get a hint of sadness in ur eyes cuz u think about him, u were in love, and had no views of anyone else, no plan, you two were not going to break up, u evened eachother out, and he was what ur idea of a perfect guy was, from the music, to the mental probs, and u were his perfect girl, u know u would be with him now and it eats u to pieces cuz not only are u heart broken u gotta try not to compare who u date to him and its hard cuz it wasnt a break up and u didnt get to say goodbye, the last thing u were told was"i cant wate to hold you again" thats what u were expecting when you found out he was dead, u loved him with your mind, body, heart, and soul, and a part of that will always be with u, but any guy u date will understand that, and like u anyway
not mad, confused your one argument was that u would never be with him, but i get it, hes good for ya so go for it.. god knows im not ready for a relationship
hah i like u better this way than how u used to be... the reason u trust certain people isnt because they are trustworthy or even seem that way it is because they comforted u when sirus died.. thus you were lulled into a falce sence of confidence in them.. your not stupid.. even I get tricked by that shit ok.. itll be ok.. you can just chill with the group again... =) itll be ok doll face
silly rabbit trix r for kids... lol if i could i would but i know how job hunting is... i will call u tho.. right now im cookin but when were done eating u will get a call... idc we can talk til the wee hours of the night lol... i just dont wanna hang.. i do need rest toots
yeah that was fun, jason has been at your house all day.... i wonder what yall r doin.... seriousely.. hes cbks brother oh god.... i know hes awesome.. u both have a hostory of breakin hearts just so u know u better be careful... anyway.. im out of town for halloween.. its my sisters birthday so im goin to denver from the 28th to the 3rd... well just take things slow and dont rush things... like u ever do... but i want details girl fran lol
lol "come on we could have a quickie while james isnt looking" dude hes such a fucking wierdo.. i would want to but im gonna stay with him to make sure he doesnt laps... yeah that is confusing... i hate it when people send mixed signals...im sorry... hah yeah idk how i got that burn either.. anyone who has lost out on u realizes what theyve lost at one point or another.. i know shawn fuckin hates himself for missin out on u... i dont even know... i cant wate til my 22nd i get to see my brother again... halloween baby and ull know right?why doesnt anyone say how they feel anymore? honestly i dont want to find a gf right now actually.. if i asked out anyone it would be u but we both know that wont happen.. lol
yes!!! im so happy i could dance lol, of course if u have something u have to do i get it, i miss back in the day when we would just sit around and get stoned all day... i had so much fun when u went to the party the other night, u won a pretty awesome prize tho, how did u learn to do that, i mean a whole 12 inch popsiccle, damn girl.... yeah i get it, just gotta stay away from liqour i mean its ur life and ill even give u some if u want it that bad, cuz id rather u drink around people that knows what went on and can help and not just htink u passed out u kno? i know u wont again tho, no i quit the heavy stuff, well coke occasionally but who gives a fuck... there is so mcuh worse lol, naw dude ive got muscle erosion from missing a ein back in the day, never again, hey im gonna call u cuz i gotta run to the shop to get my carpenters pencil
oh yeah, well itll be around , come on how often to all of us get together and just chill without it bein a party type thing where none of us even remember much of it, we havent had all fo these people since the coma, lol u better miss me, and it was for the better of course, u and si got together, lol no just a bowl man i think shawns startin to like u, he talks about u non stop its crazy, hah even tho u would never go for him... well whoeer u find i trust ull find a good one u always do, yeah i get it women never like to make the first move, but dont miss out, come on u know if u rly wanted a bf that bad u could get almost any one of the group.. i remember the convo when u first met most of us hangin with sirus and kyle "man whos the hot girl with kyle" "idk but i bet theyre dating" lol and cbk "well im gonna find out" hah little did they know 4 years later u would be just gettin over sirus and close as fuck with us, u have to come i mean u barely hang out with us anymore, i mean u come to most of our parties but there is no quality time. please?
there will be basically all of the guys together, drugs, and good music, come on there hasnt been all of us together in so long, i mean yeah were missing a few people but there will be at least 15 of us, come on my room mate is gone so if were too messed u can stay here, alone in the bedroom, oh and why do i keep getting bumped down on ur top people, who is the gorilla? lol, i miss u girl, we havent just chilled in so long, i was thinkin thursday we could go do something together, idk what yet, yeah it is kinda odd that we almost dated but its cool now, i mean ur cool and im cool, and i totally get u dont date close friends after what happened with james or cbk, lol im glad u 2 r friends again tho, cbk that is, he was obsessive, and u 2 didnt even date, but i get it, u r very beautiful and hae a kick ass personality lol, any love interests yet? lol
yeah actually.. yeah kyle is on his way to get u.. well chill and do what were good at.. gettin messed up and watching comedy central... lol yes i have kettle corn, it may end up bein a lto bigger than we planned, cuz my cousin is coming over and whenever that happens like 30 people end up here lol
oh yeah, well idk why im tryin to get u to go out with sum1 its just since sirus died u havent dated any1 and no date was fun for you, i think you should find sum1 who appreciates u like they should and go for it. ur so nice and funny, not to forget pretty, i know youll find sum1 if u put urself out there.. sorry to sound like its a lecture, oh and when i say out there i dont mean become a 1 date wonder lol
bitch please ur gettin to the point that ur at sister level with everyeone lol.... sorry man we got so god damned drunk if we drove we wouldve hit anything
