I decided I needed to update my profile. I'd really like to thank everyone who read my old one & messaged me to say they enjoyed or disliked it. I really appreciate that :]
I've posted the old one in my blog, so if ya missed it, check it out there!
My heart is in Eastern Europe, & I possess a very European mentality.
I'm an artist.
I'm intelligent. I'm not afraid to admit it, either.
I talk to/answer myself.
I'm a calorie-counter.
Swedish apple cider is my favorite drink ever.
I'm actually a very shallow, unhappy bitch.
My Friday nights are spent watching British comedies.
I don't believe in friendship, & I don't think I ever have or will.
I'd pick my family over all of you any day.
I'm extremely unorganized, but organizing things brings me joy.
I have extreme social anxiety.
I hardly ever leave the house.
I don't hang out with other people. Just myself.
I can't remember a day where my belly hasn't hurt.
I am not a fan of food.
Chopsticks are my utensil of choice.
A conversation with a stupid/annoying person is like nails on a blackboard.
There are a couple of things I don't like to fuck around about.
I'm fine on my own.
In my young life, I've experienced more pain & upset than anyone should in their entire existence. These experiences are ones I keep inside, buried deep within my ribcage. Undoubtedly, I don't share them with many people, if anyone at all. Things I've seen I surely have no desire to relive but am forced to see them again & again etched in my eyelids whenever I close my eyes for a moment of rest. Many sleepless nights followed by days spent in an unbreakable fog have made me who I am today. I'm finally strong & confident enough to say I know there is no god. I am happy to finally say this without fear of the repercussions. I am not ignorant. I know what there is to know. I once believed it all before I knew anything else but even then I questioned things. But now I question how anyone can believe in the false hope we are spoon-fed from the time we're old enough to talk to the time we're able to think and form our own opinions which, unfortunately, never happens for some. Stop depending on what you cannot see or what you think you feel. Everything you have ever felt has been a chemically-generated impulse, not an enlightenment from God. Let go of the baggage you carry that is a fear of god. If a god existed, the world as we know it would be a different place--probably unrecognizable from the one we know now. With all of the suffering I've seen & innocent lives taken or put in jeopardy by pure "evil" right before my eyes, I know the truth. That is what I call enlightenment. I do not wish to offend anyone, but no one is forcing you to keep reading. I'm happy for you if you have faith, but also very sad. How is it that, with so much hatred and evil walking the earth, good & pure lives are taken? People & animals who have touched the lives of so many are ripped away from the ones they love & who love them in return while bastards who work to cause death and suffering roam free without a penalty. Is it fair? Ask your fair, loving god. "They will pay in the Afterlife. Hell awaits them." But that's not good enough for me. I want to see it now. I want the satisfaction of knowing every fucking dirtbag will rot and be ripped apart alive for all eternity. Why? Because if I have to suffer along with so many others during my time on earth, why shouldn't they? Why can't good people & creatures be rewarded on earth for the good things they've done or the lives they've touched? Tell me. I'm open to thoughts. But don't spoon-feed me bullshit. But there is a place where the lines between what I believe & "conventional spirituality," i guess, blur. I like to think that if you're good & deserving of it, you go to somewhere beautiful after you die where you're reunited with the ones you've lost before. When I die, I want to go there. I don't want to think that after you die, you're thrown into complete nothingness. I miss the people & animals I've lost too much to be okay with never seeing them again. I can't imagine that my having an opinion is why I won't go there. I don't need constant faith in something I don't believe in to be rewarded. If I'm a good person, that's enough for me. If, for every time I've said "Fuck God" while crying over a horrible tragedy, one year of my life is taken away while thousands are added to my sentence in Hell for being a nonbeliever, so be it. Go ahead & give me the same fate as the rapists & murderers because you think my crime is equal or worse. Your god is a terrorist. An evil, power-hungry, sadistic being. If that’s that you want to base your life on, go ahead. But I have something better. I have freewill. For the first time in my life, I can rest. I am free. I am self-ruling.
But while I may be alone,
I am unafraid.
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I haven't checked your profile in a very long time. I must say I like your new introduction even more than the old one. You're an outstanding writer as well as an artist. I suppose there is one in the other.
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Hello new friend. I really like the things you said about god and religion and all that jazz. Very true. I mean since you believe in going somewhere after we die..your agnostic where as I am more an athiest..but the ideaology is more or less the same. I,ve always thought religion was what insecure people used to make themselves feel better about themselves..like a cop out. I mean you can do whatever you want but as long as you go confess and this and that and this..then "god' will forgive you..it is quite ridiculous. You should read the god delusion by richard hawkins..he is a college proffesor and he basically sais in the book that you can still be an athiest ..(or generally speaking to you..not believing in god) and still be a good person and live a happy and productive life and that actually religion is not as concerete as it sais and it really quite illogical. A good read..INDEED!
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