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SOBRAKAY has now been put on hold! Wait, lolz?! Sobrakay may or may not form up as it originally intended...
Until that time, I'm not holding my breath. My dear fans,
I have been through a ridiculous amount of emotional pain and suffering the past few months. Since the Christmas holidays I've been going through a lot with having to lose my friendships as I know them, make difficult decisions that affect the rest of my life (and how people view my life), and have had to dish out countless different sacrifices in order to be happy.
I feel I can now confidently say that Eternal Exhaust is a project that is here to stay. Music simply means too much to me for me to abandon it or to let it go. And it has become clear that my motivation for creating music is not entirely similar to that of most musicians. I hope to one day meet a group of musicians that have as much passion for the craft as I do who are interested in making these visions come true.
In any case, my future long term goal is to end up with a band that will likely produce its own stuff in addition to playing mine, but chances are it will not be with Chris Worrell. I know it sounds cliche and many of you who like Eternal Exhaust may not care, but we've had to part due to "personal differences" and there is a reasonable chance I will never work with Chris Worrell musically again. It's ironic, too, because we had an incredible series of jam sessions just a couple weeks ago at the time of this writing (2/18/09).
It seems as though I've reached a cross roads where I now have to rebuild my life to such an extreme point. I think in the past couple weeks I've probably cried more than I have in the past 3 years combined. I don't cry much, but these days I've been pretty broken, mostly over my ex girlfriend Dana, who, as you may later hear: I cheated on. On a side note, she wrote an angry MySpace blog about me and tried to say I was a terrible singer. I think many of you on this friends list think differently. =]
Over the next few years I hope to get to know some of you better on a more personal level. I'm looking for the souls out there that I connect with completely, through my music. As far as I know, there's not a single one of you that's a "die hard fan" and I need to figure out a way to change that. I'm going to have to figure out a way to really make this thing what it needs to be - a source of meaning for those who have lost their meaning. I want my music to be able to do the same thing that it has done for me: save my life and give me strength to live from day to day.
I just want to let each and every one of you with a pair of ears who has taken what I've said in these songs to heart over time that I love you guys so much and I'm going to continue making music for a long, long time to come. Rock on!
I'll be writing some new songs soon about everything I've been going through since December 2008. The first one I'm working on is about Dana and Chris, it's called Faccade (pronounced fuh-sahd).
Take it easy, peeps.
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